Make sure to read every word of the song, since all Taeyeon's feelings are inside them.

 

​Try to guess the song's title~

 

 WARNING 

Get a tissue box near to you!!

 

 

 

Jiyong was working at the studio, with the 1989 wine bottle next to him half-filled.

He looked through the songs folder, to see an unfamiliar file there..

After hearing the sorrowful piano melody, unknowingly Jiyong felt some tears falling on his hand.

He look into this melody’s details to find that it was recorded on 18th of august, at 4:22AM.

As he recalled what he was doing that time, he remembered when he was with all his Nuthang crew, drinking and clubbing together with Kiko too. And videos were uploaded all around the network.

He felt more guiltier.

He looked for more recordings in the history to find some precious clips there..

 

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He double clicked on it, to be welcomed with Taeyeon’s first recording file.

As the melody started, it was 그댄 행복에 살텐데..

 

I hate being alone

So I rewound my clock

Backward, backward, so that I can meet you

But only a day has been gone again

I believe that you’ll come back

That you must be in more pain than me

My heart comforted my heart

My tear comforted my tear

That’s how I soothe myself

You might have forgotten that you left me and will be happy

 

Why did I think of you again?

Why did I look at the phone again?

Why did I take out the photo again?

Why did I zoned out again?

Did I see a one’s back alike (you)?

Why can’t I forget the person who abandoned me?

 

The trace of you passed by

The wound that you scratched

They are so many of them and they keep hurting

Tears run naturally

You might have forgotten that you left me and will be happy

 

Why did I think of you again?

Why did I look at the phone again?

Why did I take out the photo again?

Why did I zoned out again?

Did I see a one’s back alike (you)?

Why can’t I forget the person who abandoned me?

 

Something like love and eternity, those are not for me

 

Why did I think of you again?

Why did I look at the phone again?

Why did I take out the photo again?

Why did I zoned out again?

Did I see a one’s back alike (you)?

Why can’t I forget the person who abandoned me?

 

 

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When Jiyong recovered from the first heart wrenching song, he clicked at the next one..

 

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

 

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

 

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

 

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

 

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

 

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

 

Because of you

Because of you

 

After hearing Taeyeon’s voice that was filled with emotions and sincerity, Jiyong knew that she wasn’t just singing, but she was saying her own story.

Every word of that song described Taeyeon perfectly, he couldn’t help but to continue on shedding tears from culpability as he got to know more and more about the scars and pain that he gave her through the years so far. 

 

 

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제발 모른 채 지나가요

Please just pass by pretending like you don’t see me

 

제발 눈길도 주지 마요

Please don’t even give me a glance

 

모래 바람 같은 날들에

In the days that are like the sandy winds

 

아무것도 내게주지 마요

Don’t give anything to me

 

내 마음하나 접어두고

Folding away my one heart

 

내 눈물하나 숨겨두고

Hiding my one tear

 

처음 본 것처럼

Like it’s the first time we’ve seen each other

 

낯선 사람처럼

Like we’re strangers

 

지나가요 그래야만 해요

Just pass by, it has to be like that

 

나혼자서 사랑을 말하고

By myself, I confess my love

 

사랑을 보내고

Send away my love

 

혼자쌓은 추억에

In the folds of the accumulated lonely memories

 

겹겹이 눈물이베여

The tears hang

 

먼곳에 있어도

Even if you’re far away

 

그대 행복하길

I hope that you’ll be happy

 

나의 사랑을 가슴 깊이 묻어요

I bury my love deeply within my heart

 

다음 세상 우리 태어나면

In the next world, when we are born

 

그 땐 사랑으로 마주봐요

Then, we’ll look at each other face to face

 

운명앞에 힘없이 지는일

Let’s be born so that we don’t lose

 

두번다시 없게 태어나요

Weakly in front of fate again

 

나 그대 앞에 꽃이되고

So that I may be a flower in front of you

 

나 그대 위해 노래하고

I’ll sing a song for you

 

한사람 여자로 한남자 연인으로

As one’s girl, as one man’s lover

 

그대 곁에 살고 싶어요

I want to always live by your side

 

나혼자서 사랑을 말하고

By myself, I confess my love

 

사랑을 보내고

Send away my love

 

혼자 쌓은 추억에

In the folds of the accumulated lonely memories

 

겹겹이 눈물이 베여

The tears hang

 

먼 곳에 있어

Even if you’re far away

 

그대 행복하길

I hope that you’ll be happy

 

나의 사랑 을 가슴 속 깊이

My love, deeply within my heart

 

아파도 아파져도

Though it hurts, though it will hurt

 

절대 난 울지 않아요

I will never cry

 

마음의 사랑은

Because there is no such thing

 

이별이 없으니

as farewell in my love

 

이삶이 끝나고 다음 세상에 우리

When this life ends, in the next world, us two

 

꼭 사랑해요 꼭 사랑해요

Let’s love for sure, let’s love for sure

 

우리

Us two

 

Through this song, Taeyeon looked more calm as really she was sending away her love.

 

 

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Little do you know

How I'm breaking while you fall asleep

Little do you know

I'm still haunted by the memories

Little do you know

I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece

 

Little do you know

I need a little more time

 

Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside

I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind

I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight

 

Little do you know

I need a little more time

 

Oh wait, just wait

I love you like I've never felt the pain,

Just wait

I love you like I've never been afraid,

Just wait

Our love is here and here to stay

So lay your head on me

 

I'll wait (I'll wait), I'll wait (I'll wait)

I love you like you've never felt the pain,

I'll wait (I'll wait)

I promise you don't have to be afraid,

I'll wait

The love is here and here to stay

So lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

So lay your head on me

 

'Cause little do you know

I, I love you 'til the sun dies

 

Jiyong stopped for few minutes to calm down after hearing all those sincere, direct and filled with true feelings recordings that Taeyeon made through the days that Jiyong left her alone in.

 

 

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He continued on with the next recording file, to be surprised by hearing his label-mate 2NE1’s song sung with Taeyeon’s voice.

 

Stop acting like you’re

so comfortable Because you

and I, we’re still strangers

 

Stop whining like

you’re a child Because I

haven’t even started yet

 

I don’t like love that’s

like a child playing with fire

 

I’m just a little famished,

I’m alright

Actually no, I’m…

 

Still hating you,

who has let me go

My frigidly cooled

heart is still

 

Missing you,

missing you,

missing you

 

Missing you,

missing you

 

Stop being so obvious

Because the world was

always dark (you heard what I said)

 

How can you smile so brightly?

(what) But looking closely,

I see your face is sad

(I know I’ve been there before)

 

I don’t like the

calculative love of adults

 

I’m just a little tired,

I’m alright

Actually no, I’m…

 

Still hating you,

who has let me go

My frigidly cooled

heart is still

 

Missing you,

missing you,

missing you

 

Missing you,

missing you

 

The love of my youth

is ending like this

Please be happy Even after a

long time passes, let’s both

remember That we both had

each other back then

 

We both had each other then

 

It was brand new song to Jiyong, it was more heart-rending, had more angst, it hits you just right there, you can’t hear it without shedding a single tear.

 

 

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Even small pains make me teary.. My heart cries out

When I pass by you..

You are the whole world, I dream for only you

I hold my breath in front of you

Just like you and I aren’t meant to be

Just like it’s merely a moment passing by

You pass by me so easily

Even if I can’t go up and take just a step

 

You make me walk around… You make me cry

Like an idiot, like a child, just laugh it off

The closer I get, the more scared I get

But this love cannot be stopped

 

Why is it…

just my love that is slow

It’s just my love that is hard… even if i’m by your side…

You are the whole world, I look at only you

I stare into distance in front of you

 

Just like you’re the end for me

Just like you’re my last moment

You pass by me so easily

Even if I can’t go up and take just a step