references used for this chapter:

1. seventeen's yhy's sketchbook fansite incident

2. a mess on twitter on Vernon's Day. he didn't close the menpa w his pic but doogi did.

3. fansign event in Osaka. vernon is rooming with boo

4. the amount of OTP-related questions during fansign (it was a lot. esp for wonwoo)

(P/S: you can skip the groupchat part. it's a filler (kinda)) <3 enjoy

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JWW: are you guys okay?

today we had a recording for YHY's Sketchbook. and it was a mess. like....total mess

someone should give us a trophy for controlling our facial expressions very well

CSC: so you've heard it. news travels fast

JWW: yea, hyelim noona told me

those..... carats....or carrots..... idk...... many of them (those with hugeass cameras. i think they own a fanbase..? fansite? smth like that) took a picture of us on the stage (which is not allowed) and uploaded it on sns (double the trouble)

seungkwan even begged for them to stop

BSK: nothing too surprising

YJH: got scolded. what's new?

KSY: let's not talk about this

WJH: yeah change the topic

JWW: i have a joke

LJH: ugh no. please.

CSC: no. thanks.

KSY: save it for yourself

KMG: you guys are mean

JWW: ㅠㅠ

JWW: cheer up, guys!

JWW: [link]

WJH: what's that?

BSK: ah....really hyung?

HVC: what's that?

JWW: [link]

CSC: a gooddamn fanfiction. AGAIN.

JWW: that one makes me emotional tho

LSM: wow it's jihoon hyung and seungcheol hyung

LJH: what?

KSY: the fanfiction

HVC: WHAT?

HJS: the fanfiction.

YJH: shua you did not help

CSC: what is it about me and jihoon?

JWW: nothing

WJH: hey look it's wonwoo and mingyu

WJH: [link]

JWW: i swear to god moon junhui

JWW: im going to

JWW: strangle you

JWW: wait til i'm back

WJH: 도와줘 SOS!!!

XMH: lol

HVC: lol

KSY: lol

LSM: lol

CSC: wow why are you guys doing mansae?

LJH: what mansae?

CSC: this -> 'lol'

CSC: looks like a person with both of his hands up

CSC: hahahaahahhahah

YJH: i will put some crickets here

KMG: [sent a pic of cricket]

LSM: cricket_sound.mp3

CSC: hey really!

CSC: look! it looks like us when we do the dance!

CSC: mansae mansae mansae mansae yeah~

JWW: [sent a pic of cricket]

BSK: lol

CSC: wow what a jerk. that's funny tho

LJH: lol

CSC: NOT YOU TOO JIHOON

HJS: lol

[choi seungcheol left the group]

KMG: BREAKING NEWS

KMG: seungkwan, where is the breaking news?

BSK: nah

BSK: guys drop the honorific

BSK: say "YA! CHOI SEUNGCHEOL!"

BSK: come on it's your only chance!

LJH: say it with your voice!

LJH: [sent a voice note]

BSK: [sent a voice note]

LC: i can't believe jihoon hyung is the first one to do the challenge

LSM: [sent a voice note]

KSY: [sent a voice note]

WJH: [sent a voice note]

JWW: why are you guys whispering?

JWW: [sent a voice note]

HJS: well, seungcheol is apparently only 10 meters away

JWW: whoa. so you guys are in one room right now?

HVC: not really

LC: wow these bad hyungs

LC: i'm reporting

YJH: aw my baby is so cute and innocent

KMG: innocent??

KMG: dont play double agent, dino!

KMG: i know you want to do it too

LC: i'm playing safe!

HJS: jihoon, you are not going to invite seungcheol back?

LJH: why would I?

HJS: because last time he invited you back to the group

LJH: should I?

HJS: he is getting sulky HAHAHAH

HJS: "NOBODY INVITES ME BACK IN??"

HJS: he just exploded

HJS: you can hear him just now

LJH: sure

[lee jihoon invited choi seungcheol to the group]

[choi seungcheol joined 'SVT: road to 샤다 concert']

CSC: aw thank you jihoonie ♡

LJH: lol

CSC: :-((((((((((

at least this groupchat is so lit it can distract us from what happened today

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today is my day. vernon's day. the fans who come to the recording will receive my unreleased picture. and i have to do menpa because yes, i repeat it once again

today is vernon's day

so i tweeted with a friendly "what's up"

what is up with you guys? what's up with you carats? how's your day? let's talk

i meant it that way

but a lot of people (i won't call them carats though. prob just the people who happened to follow this official account) suddenly telling me to 'go away', and many hurtful replies that referred to 'everything that is currently happening in the world'.

i'm sorry but I DO aware of those issues. but as for today, i'm clueless, i've been away from the internet all day long. since we have to practice then sleep then go to music bank for prerecording then perform then the following schedules then repeat the cycle all over again. am i at fault? did i tweet in the wrong time and wrong situation? what should i do?

i didn't close the menpa properly, not even posting any picture like how we're supposed to do

i just left it hanging

manager told me so

and me think so, too.

then doogi hyung finished the menpa for me

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we’ve been busy with concert preparation. the only thing inside my head nowadays is

concert concert and concert

bye

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it was barely 8 am when suddenly there's a familiar deep voice screaming "GOOD MORNING GUYS I'M BACK!"

IT WAS WONWOO HYUNG! HE IS BACK!

then suddenly the whole dorm woken up and it got very noisy like a freaking night club. or a bunch of highschoolers on lunch break who don't know how to shut up (pst i don't even know how it feels like to be in a nightclub)

then we ate the food mrs. jeon has packed for us. i almost felt like crying..... i miss my mom's homecooked meal! it's been a long time since we eat something like this. the guys ate the breakfast with a small talk here and there. mostly at wonu hyung. i thought hyung would gain some weight but he's still skinny. that's kinda sad.

after that we chatted for awhile. mostly directed at wonwoo hyung.

"how was it hyung? being back home?" seungkwan asked. this boy must be curious since he's like.... mom-deprived/jeju-deprived or something

"it's kinda boring since i don't really have something to do. some friends i know visited me though"

"your ex girlfriend?"

"i don't have one duh"

"right. you don't look attractive enough in middleschool"

"moon junhui! come here!"

then wonwoo hyung dashed to catch jun hyung around the dorm.

"you can say that because you used to be an actor in middleschool! that's not fair!" wonwoo hyung screamed. the other members could only laugh at them. tom and jerry aren't they?

"no! it's because ive always been handsome since the day i was born!"

mingyu hyung snorted out loud

"yah hyung stop running around. you just recovered" he said with a frown on his face. but of course nobody was listening.

after that we headed to pledis to get some work done

bye

im not really in the mood of writing nowadays

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hey, it is almost time for japan concert

bye again

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we were just done with a fansigning event in osaka. i'm rooming with Boo. he's in the shower rn so I get the chance to write in this diary again ohmygooddddd ive been gone for so long

the thing is

i want to confess

i accidentally overheard wonwoo hyung's conversation with mingyu hyung in the van on our way back to the hotel. i was cramped in the very back seat with them. and i was sleeping, at least they thought i was. i had my eyes closed with earphone in my ears.

i forgot to press the repeat button so the music stopped playing. just like that, i could hear them very clearly.

another 3 people sat in front of us though, but they were sleeping. snoring and all.

"yah the 'post-it's are at it again" wonwoo hyung spoke first. whispering.

i don't even know what they're talking about. yeah yeah what about the post-it?

"so you want no interaction after this?"

"mingyu-ya"

"i know. i know. keep it in the low-est-key possible you mean?"

"it's going to be uncomfortable when the fans have that kind of thoughts about us"

"but wasn't I being really fair these days? i went with myungho, hoshi hyung, seungkwan, basically everyone in the group!"

wonwoo hyung didn’t say anything after that. it was a very long silence. i wonder what they're thinking. but the athmosphere was so tense, I could feel it

"we can be just like seungcheol hyung and jihoon" wonwoo hyung finally responded just by the time the van stopped.

that's the end of the conversation. when i opened my eyes, both of them have this sour expressions on their faces. i don't have the balls to observe more cz i feel like i just invaded their privacy. seriously, i actually feel bad for listening to their conversation earlier.

but it's weird. really weird. i cannot help but to think about it.

oh crap seungkwan already finished showering

see ya

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i know that mingyu hyung and wonu hyung are close. i'm very well aware of that. the thing is, i don't know if they are close..... in that way. you know, the jihoon-seungcheol way............

actually at first i had this weird thought when i found them kissing in the studio

“is it a hidden camera or something? if it is then okay, you got me. you win!” I was thinking like that for a moment.

but it's real! there were no cameras around! and i didn't know how to respond to that! is this a makjang drama?! am i being filmed right now?? no, right? that's ridiculous!

because after thinking about it all night, i'm confident to say that:

1. mingyu hyung and wonwoo hyung have a thing.
2. wonwoo hyung doesn't like it when fans go overboard asking abt him and mingyu hyung (otp s) on the post-it.
3. wonwoo hyung wants a very little interaction with mingyu hyung to stop the fans just like jihoon hyung and cheol hyung are.

i don't care if i curse so this

but that doesn't mean the 'meanie' hyungs are kissing or going out or something right? yeah

YEAH VERNON WHY DONT YOU THINK ABOUT THAT?? it could be because they're afraid something like this could hurt their friendship!

wow man! im proud of myself for thinking this way hahahahahah

ok bye

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sometimes i wonder how jeonghan hyung feels having seungcheol hyung’s and jisoo hyung’s names being shoved to his face all the time at the fansign?

P/s: I can guarantee that he handles it very well.

“oh yeah I will give coups a kiss on his bday”

“of course I like joshua he is everything to me”

“I have to choose between coups and shua? Hm can’t I have them both?”

“I would date joshua if I were a girl”

i saved the pics of the ‘post-it’s, you know. everything I could find in the seventeen tag on tumblr. so that I can always remember what we said to the fans during fansigning.

aw, what a tough job we have in here. arent we the real professional? I just hope that our carats are mature enough to differentiate between the fanservice and the real thing. of course it’s not all about fanservice all the time. sometimes we do give a thought before answering the questions the fans give us.

I’m thinking too much. See you. I love you my carrots.

P/S: sometimes it feels like we’re filming an anime. Like ouran high school host club. You know, the whole fanservice thing.

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