A/N: italics = third person pov :-))

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bro bro this is vernon. damn so awkward 

Man, I'm doing this again smh should've quit writing this shiz and being more productive on writing rap lyrics but.....writer's block. Nice. Very nice. (i had like 5 files before but i delete them okay it's too embarassing i even wrote poem)

Maybe as i keep writing this, I'll get more inspiration. Amen

So, today we had a fanmeet with 2000 fans! Wow! Crazy, right? The scream was deafening, really, but it's really amazing! Having fans that screams for you, cheer you on, giving you the strength, I still can't believe it.....

Today as expected Boo Seungkwan that lil syit, making me do the aegyo again. The fans like it tho, so okay you're forgiven. I won't hold grudges. You also remember all of my rap lines, I'm kinda touched?? Boonon, my other half! In return, I sang a part of '20' chorus in falsetto. Ikr I'm just that amazing. The fans like it! They'll always like it. I will always believe them. Thank you.

Near the end of the fanmeeting, a fan asked me abt the smtm4bull. Man, it's all in the past, I'm okay now. The only thing that worried me is just........ the embarrassment. My lovely little sister Sophia, my fans, even my members, you guys are not that ashamed of me when ppl talk abt smtm4bull, right? Oh come on it has became a JOKE now, I even dissed myself. Remember the "HEADLINES HEADLINES"??. I said it on stage before and Seungcheollie Hyung gave me the wtf stare like- HAHAHAHAHAH WHATEVER I'M JUST GOING TO MAKE A LOT OF MIXTAPES! HELL YEA

Now, really, I need to write rap lyrics

What is it

What should I write

Ohmygod suddenly I remember finding this thing called fanfiction on tumblr! I have tumblr yes it's my old account that I never opened for a long time bc you know.... I'm a no ordinary teenager out there, sadly

AND I WAS SO SHOCKED LIKE-

ohmygod our fans are so dedicated, aren't they? but whyyyyy I'm a minor you shouldn't categorize me in a NC-17 fic :-( 

(hey look i even use an emoticon that's just how dumbfounded i am)

and they write stuff like "junghan and jisoo are dating but suddenly seungcheol being a major er" HAHAHHA OHMYGOD and there's a fic about me and Chan

ohmy seokmin hyung is here i need to stop writing this

did i jz type ohmy

ohmfck he's getting closer

hes askng me if i was wrtng lyrics

omfbye

OMF

BYE SEEYA

♧♧♧

THAT WAS CLOSE

HE CATCHED THE WORD "OHMY"

and he asked me " is a bad word, but what is that supposed to mean?" 

i said it's an expression when someone found out you were doing smth nasty.

"what kind of nasty thing" he asked with that weird smile on his face.

"like...... writing on a diary"

"but having a diary is not a bad thing, yes?"

and i'm confused, does that mean seokmin hyung has a diary? omg imagine the amount of horse jokes he writes on his diary! or the HAHAHAHAHAH, or the HUGE smiley face emoticon! 

btw you know what, i opened my tumblr again just now, to see what our fans are doing. i saw a lot of good edits, our fans got some skills yo! i love you guys! 

and then, i found something interesting, again. there's this video of MEANIE COUPLE MOMENTS COMPILATION! wth is meanie couple? i googled it and it showed me a pic of wonwoo and mingyu hyung. they are called MEANIE COUPLE? and i just found out? I'm not ignorant though :-(

(i even use emoticon that's just how disappointed i am)

and WTF WTF WT our fans go crazy over it. 

"ohmygod look at the amount of skinship they have!" a fan with suspicious-looking username commented. i'm not shocked though? should I? or maybe it's just me getting used to this kind of thing? (wait that sounds weird) 

the video is

damn someone entered the room. it's wonwoo hyung! he sat on the floor with a notebook in his hand. 아휴 lucky i'm sitting on a bed rn, he couldn't see what I write on my laptop

guys guys it's a live report now

he asked me if i already wrote the lyrics and I said yes, I'm currently working on it

"I was with mingyu last night at the practice room and we listed a lot of good ideas for our new mixtape. Our brain do function really good at night, i swear"

헐!

헐!!!

He was with mingyu hyung last night why am i not surprised. Usually i will react normally BUT (i blame our fans) rn i get a lil  bit nervous? Like.... wtf 

btw i kinda doubt them for ACTUALLY REALLY BRAINSTORMING for the mixtape. you know Wonwoo Hyung is easily distracted like, after writing TWO LINES he'll reward himself with an hour of windowshopping on the internet. damn his shopping cart has tons of products already but he hasn't purchased anything. smh. mingyu hyung probably playing with photoshop again. he needs to be stopped. maybe i should show him the fans' edits on tumblr 

"just the two of you?" i asked

"yeah. you guys went home to sleep after practice"

TF DID I JUST ASK HIM? 'just the two of you?'??!!

i hope wonwoo hyung didn't think of it too much

but

"you okay, bro? you look confused. or is it just your face? or your eyebrows?" 

"nah, hyung I think I'm just thirsty" 

so lame, bonon. very lame

bye i will go drink some water my throat is getting too dry right now

bye

♧♧♧

now i'm so scared i couldn't stop writing this so-called diary. Darn

but hey i left for about an hour (grab some waters, taking a walk to 7-11, went to the practice room cz the creative director nuna called me) but my mac battery reduced by 40%? is it broken or something? 

bye i'm going to charge this shiz

♧♧♧
 

"Bro"

"What is it, bro?"

"I checked your lyrics yesterday but I don't get it? I mean, okay it's supposed to be the story about us, about you, about your life whatsoever but don't you think-"

"Hyung!"

"I haven't fini-"

"Where did you read the lyrics??"

"Your laptop of course"

Hansol's eyes widened as it was looking at the innocent-faced Wonwoo. Thanks God Wonwoo is very bad at English. But still, he needs to make sure.

"Which....which one?"

"Hhmmm, I didn't see the file's name but the writing format is weird. Why would you put emoticon? And a lot of capslock, too. Are those supposed to be a secret code or something?"

Hansol has never felt so relieved in his life, he nearly cried out of joy (or not). He put his arm around his Hyung's shoulder, Wonwoo looked at him weirdly.

"You okay, bro?"

"Never felt this relieved in a while. Bye, Hyung. I need to write more lyrics and looking for some references"

"Yeah, good luck! I'm going to look for Mingyu. He owe me a pamagoghetti" Wonwoo waved his hand once and disappeared. Hansol watched the door close as his eyebrows furrowed, thinking. 

"I.....I need to write my 'lyrics'" he muttered to himself.

♧♧♧

WOW MAN

I never knew Wonwoo Hyung is this stupid :-( 

(and my laptop battery is okay)

♧♧♧

Hansol wrote two lines on his so-called diary slash journal and sighed as he reread it multiple times. 

"Perfect. This totally summed up my feelings right now. I'll rant about the meanie couple mystery later"

He closed his laptop and went to look for his Mingyu Hyung because he suddenly craved for pamagoghetti. Yum.

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References:

Vernon sang 20 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUyGJrZjHQY

Vernon SMTM4 self-diss (LOL) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ew16Gt9XWrw