Your PoV

(suggest reading this while listening to tts – baby steps, SNSD – Divine ^^ my inspir.)

I just was in my shocked state for a few more minutes until he spoke up finally breaking the akward silence. He stopped what he was doing and looked to me „ Don´t you dare to tell anyone im in this class.“ I was almost going to tell him off to be nicer when asking others favors but before i could say anything he paused and said „ .. Please .“

I was shocked to even ever hear the word please from him . Also he said it with a really desperate and broken voice. „ Don´t worry I won´t tell anyone, but only under one condition.“ I wanted to know the answers for my questions right now. He arched a brow and said „ Bring it on.“ I stopped what i was doing and turned my body so i was looking straight at his wonderfull sun kissed face with these dark brown eyes and full lips. Finally I had the courage to ask him

„ Why are you drawing ? Is it your dream to be an artist ? How long are you drawing ? Why are you so good in it?“ Yes this many question were in my mind for now and he kinda looked surprized and just as he was about to say anything i cut him off and said „ And.. Why are your eyes so full of pain and hurt?“ And this for sure took him off guard.I mean who wouldn´t be off guard.

He didn´t answer and just looked back. And distracting himself with something else. I really felt like i need to dig in more so i fake coughed to get this attention back. Why does he make me feel like i need to dig in to see what´s going on. He didn´t care and contuined with what he was doing and i felt it boil in my insides. I stood up and walked to him taking his drawing pen again. He stood up with an not so readable face.

„ Why are you doing this ? Acting like you care. Would your boyfriend even like it seeing you with me. You acting so caring for me?“ he tried to take the pen away again but i hide it behind my back. I wasn´t done. And yes my personality is just like this i can´t let those eyes full of pain and hurt not be alone. „ Right now i don´t really care if he gets angry but i´m just like this. I can´t be quiet when i see eyes like yours so you better be quick and let me help i mean okay i may be not in the place but-“ I cut myself off when i saw him threw a table over. I felt bad because i felt like i put salt in his still open wound.

He got angrier and now started to destroy his wonderfull drawings. He wasn´t the playboy kai nor the hot dancer kai anymore. The moment i saw those drawings the moment i saw his hurtfull eyes for the first time he wasn´t the „ oh so badass“ Kai anymore. He know looks like a teenage boy who went through alot and... who just got salt in his still open wound. I tried to stop hm bfore he will regret it but he shoved me away. But who I am to give up now , no, i won´t. I saw my old past like a little flashback and tear started to form, no this can´t be. I can´t get weak again and stop him.

I kinda backhugged him to stop him and in an instant he stopped and flinched abit. „ Please just stop look what you did to this place . Just stop before you destroy your drawings for ever.“ Tears were begning to flow. He turned around to look at me but i kept my head looking down. „ Soo good that you stopped and now let´s clean this place“ I managed to say while wiping my tears. I looked around the place and started to think where to start. Just as I was going to get some of the torn papers in the trashcan he pulled me by my wrist and hugged me. I was shocked of course. I tried to push him away until he finally spoke up. „ Just.. just let me hug you like this. I promise i will let you go soon but please just a little more.“ he sounded so broken .. so hurt.

I let it be and eventually hugged him slightly back. Of course i thought of baekhyun too because i know he wouln´t like this even abit. Suddenly i heard him sob abit and he was trembling abit. Automatically i patted is back. „ Even if you don´t let me help you it´s okay don´t push yourself.” suddenly there was a lump in my throat and I found it hard not to think of my broken past again. “ I´m sorry for putting salt in your open wound and sorry for thinking you´re a jerk even tho you´re good in a way.” He broke the hug and looked at me with red plump eyes.

Once again I couldn´t read his face again. He lookd up and wiped his tears fully away and calming down. “ You´re like the only one who ever saw me like this and even could read me without me showing it.. you are now dangerous to me, the only one who doesn´t sees me as that badass or playboy kai right now. Even saying i´m good in a way haha.. don´t make me love you before it´s too late.. “

There I was left stunned.. and it seemed like we were not alone .. 

A/N

Helloowww i updated tis week two times .* pat myself* for a few hrs i put down my finals book and stopped revise them .. yes i need a break urgh and i feel good while writing this altho this story might me boring XD bear withmee ~~~ i feel like you all gon hate me for this chap 

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