July 31st....We would have been together now. Going to the movies, going grocery shopping, going on holidays... living. 

I would have gone to college nearby and she would've carried on her work at the school. I would come home after each day and she would be waiting for me, our dogs running up to greet me as she kissed my cheek and sat me down to eat the food she had made. This was a dream of mine, to live with her. I had pretty much lived with her anyway during the holidays but, that was all in the past.

I'm still not sure about what to do with my life...Well, I decided to take a gap year before thinking about my future career. At the moment though I worked in a DVD store, nothing big but the pay was decent and my dad wanted me to get out of the house so y'know. I worked there every evening as that was when it was busiest, it's the time where most people would come in to pick up a movie to watch with their dates or friends. They could either rent or buy, we also sold games and CD's so the place was full of kids and teens, in the days usually.

I was told I was still sick but that was something that couldn't be helped. I can't force myself to eat if I don't have an appetite. I can't force myself to feel if I no longer have the ability. I can't force myself to be normal when my situation didn't include the word. 

I just wanted to try to get on with my life now...start over. Over the entire seven month period, I had gained a lot of problems, illnesses but I had done well in forgetting her. Of course I still thought of her, but she wasn't coming back so why dwell on the past? 

I sighed as I left the counter and browsed the array of movies seeing as there was nobody in the store, this is what I usually would do when I got bored. I ran my fingers over the plastic cases as I looked and stopped when I came to a certain movie. <