Siena (english)

I can’t like him

I can’t!

I can’t!!!

I looked at a watch on the wall and it’s pointing at 6 am, i got to be hurry now!

I run downstairs and...

Why the hell he is standing on the door?!

“umm.. kyukyu you woke up earlier?”

“your room was really noisy this morning and i remember today is Sunday, the day when always dissapear in the morning...”

“oh... so, excuse me i need to go now”

“where?”

“somewhere?”

“why you don’t want to tell me?”

“cause it’s none of your business”

“but i want to know”

“but i don’t want to tell you”

“okay then, i’ll follow you”

“what??”

“i’ll take you to the place”

“you don’t have to! I can go by taxi”

I saw aunt it’s just came out her room and i was just like pointing at him

“what? Oh ya! Em.. kyuhyun-ah, help mom clean the yard” said aunt

“at this time?? Are you kidding me mom?”

“anii, just do it but..”

I ran outside and found the nearest taxi and leave, i’m sorry kyu but i don’t want you to know, it’s not the right time, i promise you’ll know... soon.....

..........................

“so...  how was it?” i asked

“not better...”

“how long maybe i could survive?” i asked again

“maybe 9 to 10 months, or 1 year if you lucky...”

My heart skipped a beat when i heard that

Is like i am in the middle of sea and wait until god call you

I live near death

But not that death is what i scared for

I scared for losing someone

Someone that i just knew

Someone that brighten my day

Someone that always makes me mad

Someone who always eats what i cooked

Someone who always makes me laugh

Someone who..... stole my first kiss......

Cho kyuhyun

Where is that girl?? Why she hasn’t got home yet???

It’s already 12 o’clock

Maybe... i should call her?

I search her number on my phone

I thought i have it and yeah i have it haha

“halo?”

“siena, where are you?”

“umm... sorry? Who’s i speak to?”

“kyuhyun”

“kyuhyun? Ah kyukyu! What’s wrong?”

“where are you?!”

“why get mad so easily ?”

“just tell me where are you??”

“i am in, oh gosh this street name so complicated...”

“just tell me something you can read...!”

“umm........”

“i’ll be there soon”

“wait? Did i tell you where i am??”

“no but you handphone GPS told me, wait for me!”

I drive my car there (somewhere) and found her at park and she get in on my car and look sullen

In the way home i started a talk

“why you took so long? You usually got home at 10 o’clock”

“ummm... i went to pray to church near here...”

“church? What did you ask for?”

She didn’t answer anything

“do you hate me?” i asked

“what?? Of course not...”

“why you looked mad when i told you i am one of the super junior member?”

“it was because... i just can’t believe you’re a singer haha”

She look confused. We got home before she open the car’s door i took her and...

I kissed her... i kissed her cause i realized that i like her

She closed her eyes

She looks ‘accepting’ what i am doing with her

We look at each other an i say “i like you, please don’t make worry again....”

“please, i beg you, don’t ever do that again... just don’t.. i... i can’t like you...”

“why??” she ran into the house and stopped. She looks confused

I walked in and shocked by a face of a guy

A guy that should be with ‘us’

A guy that should be hanging out with ‘us’

A guy that i call ‘hyung’

A guy which shouldn’t be here now

A guy that shocked me

“hyung??????”