"I'm tired of this. Daehyun. I don't want to be with you anymore." Hurtful words left my mouth after I became confused. For the first few days, I felt like I was on clouds from having a unbearable weight lifted off of me. But, nothing ever lasts forever. It started going downhill. I told myself that I would get over you. Without you I became cold hearted. I regretted running away from our problems. You came back to me, but I turned you away. Told you that I was done, that I didn't care, that I never loved you. But I never knew that everything I said was a lie. I left, and my long trip away from you made me think. So sat down and wrote a letter…

Dear Daehyun,

 Remember the time when we promised each other that we wouldn't leave each other? That we would still be together no matter what? I don't know why I broke that promise... But I was sure that it wasn't because I stopped loving you. I hated you but I hated myself more. I never really stopped but I thought you did. I lost all hope that everything would be the same one day. The moment I saw you and the other girl at homecoming, I was just pulled out and I learned how to hate and be cold hearted. Everything you did gave me a horrible impact and had me feeling like I was just in a car crash. The first time I met you, you said something bad to Taeguk in English and after Taeguk introduced us we hit off. I loved how you looked so cute and innocent. But I always thought that you liked him and I decided to be a 3rd wheel. I hurt people and it was a very hard journey. Yet I probably was a stupid boy and I just quit everything. I wish I didn't, but I needed time to think. We only knew each other for 2 months. It seemed like paradise in the beginning but as it was going on it became hard for me. I don't know why. I'm sorry. For all the hurt I caused you and sorry to the people who I hurt along the harsh journey. I said I was finished with you. I thought I was. But you said you never did get over me. But I said no. But sooner or later I found out that I still have feelings for you... I can't do any