What is one thing I hate? 

One thing I hate is how characters in movies get caught up in misunderstandings that make them look retarded making the plot line of the story annoying making the risk of me getting up and leaving much higher. That is why I don't watch movies at all....

I hate the confusion in relationships, I hate things complicated which happens a lot in movies. Like why can't people just be together? Who cares if one is leaving for another country, is one is richer then the other. Why do things have to be so complicated. I get it there has to be some angst in stories and movies, like I write fan fics and I understand there has to be some kind of angst to make the story worthwhile. 

However, I've realize things aren't getting complicated in movies but also in real life. It happens in real life because it's happening to me....

I've always been a simple girl, wanting to live this simple life. I've always don't understand conflict, confusion or misunderstandings. If one likes another then they should fight for it? Right? 

Well...

Apparently not!

As you may have read before I never really had a "life" by that I mean I hardly go out to parties, I hardly had friends and usually kept to myself. Since high school finished 8 months ago, my life has changed dramatically. I've made many friends, I'm going out a lot like parties and such. Pretty much I've become more active then I was 8 months ago. I am experiencing things now other people my age experienced in high school. 

Not only parties

Not only friends 

but Relationships.

I haven't had a boyfriend since 9th grade and honestly I wouldn't consider it as a real boyfriend, like really? I was 14 years old. 

For the first time in many many years I've started to like a guy, yes it is the guy I have been talking about in my past updates.. Yes for months we have been friends but now it is possible I am feeling, maybe just a bit am feeling little feelings for him? 

Don't worry it has only taken me up until last week to realize that I do. How did I notice this certain feeling? Well we text pretty much every night and all of a sudden he stopped texting me. For two days we didn't texted each other, the amount of times I found myself about to send him a text but not sending it so many times. I just don't want to sound desperate, you know? 

Anyways I started to miss him, making me realize wow I actually like this guy. Like it just happened like that. I also work with this guy thats how I met him. We've always been friends, like really good friends but lately everyone at work as been telling me that he likes me and it's getting really obvious. People from other departments of the shop that I work at (I work in a really big department store) are talking about me and him! 

The thing is I don't see him liking me, but people are saying it's obvious and these are a few of the reasons that people pick up on.
-He's always talking to me at work
 -He always waits for me when I finish my shift
-He walks me to my car because it's dangerous at night
-He smiles at me
-I'm the only one who he texts at work
-He tell me everything

and there are more apparently. 

So I admit I like this guy, I like him for his personality how I can automatically feel happy when he texts me or talk to him. How long I pamper up before knowing I am about to work with him. How I can laugh at our inside jokes. Its kinda cheesy I know. I'm not a cheesy person, I hate clique's. So for me to like someone is very different and people that know I like him still can't get over it. 

So the thing I am venting is about him in general! Why are boys so frustrating??? So people at work tell me that it's obvious he likes me back and honestly I don't see it. My friends say because I'm in that naive position but I honestly think its because I don't want to be in this position and I am in a state of indial. Like what if he doesn't like me back? Like seriously! 

This is where complicated movies comes in. I won't believe him that he likes he me until he tells me. Yet he is dropping some signs and making it obvious that he likes me. If he does why can't he just say it to me instead of hidng it to me! I really do like him so why would he hide it from me? I get it that he is a shy person or that he doesn't want to ruin our really close friendship. It's annoying how complicated it is.. why can't he just come out that he likes me or that why can't I have confidence in myself to confess? Why does my life have to resemble those cheesy movies...

This is honesty frustrating me!! why can't people who like each other just express their feelings!!  ARGHH 

If he likes me then why isn't he saying anything? Or why is he contiuning to lead me on! Why are boys so fustrating!!