Kris POV

i ran away to my bedroom without looking back at LuHan. i slammed my door hard and slid my body down. i leaned against the door and thought

“you are so stupid, Kris!! !!” i mumbled by myself while hitting my head.

LuHan was right! what were we doing?!!

i shouldn’t do that!! i should know that… LuHan didn’t… no… LuHan never had the same feeling like mine.

that’s why he questioning my act!!!

now LuHan will hate me more!!

ugh!!

i cannot sleep that night. i reflected my stupid act. i kept thinking about what LuHan said. it just kept sounding in my mind.

from his real sentences: what are we doing, until my dummy brain changed the sentences into: what did you do to me, are you lost your mind, even into the worse thought: are you going to me

those bad thoughts kept spinning in my head!!!

i locked myself the day after the accident. i didn’t get out from my room all day long. i didn’t know what i should do… i didn’t have any courage to face LuHan after that accident. i skipped breakfast, lunch, dinner even my stomach growled. i kept silence in my room. i skipped sleeping for these two nights. my mind and soul seemed leaving my body.

i am a mess… a big mess…

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Author POV

LuHan was worried about Kris. after that night, Kris didn’t come out from his room.

is he mad at me? did he… regret about the kiss?  LuHan thought

Kris didn’t come out this morning. he already skipped breakfast, lunch and dinner. LuHan  decided to knock Kris’ door and persuade him to out.

knock~ knock~

“Kris, come out please!” LuHan said

hearing LuHan’s soft voice brought Kris’ soul back to his body.

“Kris, please… you already skipped breakfast, lunch and dinner… don’t you feel hungry?” LuHan’s voice changed into concerned tone

“Kris… are you… mad at me?” LuHan asked weakly

Kris chuckled what? me? mad at you, LuHan?

“no…” Kris answered but he didn’t move at all. silence came again then.

“okay… if you aren’t mad at me.. i will be the one who mad at you if you don’t come out now!!” LuHan said firmly.

“Kris… please… you can get sick…” LuHan voice softened

Hearing LuHan pleaded moved Kris’ heart

LuHan isn’t mad at me… he still cares about me…

Kris stood up and opened the door. he looked at LuHan who looked at him with sad face.

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LuHan POV

oh my God! Kris… what happened with you?!

This morning, i tried to persuade him to get out from his room. i made it. he opened his door and came out. but when i looked at his face… he’s a mess… not in negative sense but literally mess.

his hair was so messy, dark eye bags, stressed face… oh my God!

“Kris… “ i just wanted to