Chapter Four
Is it only me ? I don't know anymore .Sehun POV
I arrive home and it's 11pm already . I open the door to see that Mari isn't here .
Where could she be? She's usually here .. Maybe she's asleep . Oh well , I need to finish studying .
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I yawn , I'm pretty sleepy now . I put down my book to goto our room to sleep .
I make my way to our room . I open the knob and I look at our bed , Mari isn't there ?! "MARI ?!" I yell out as I went up to the bed to check if she really isn't there . "Mari WHERE ARE YOU ?!" I yell as I look around . But something caught my eyes when I looked at the night stand .
It was a piece of paper with her wedding ring next to it .. "What is this ..?" I whisper as I went up to the paper .
I touch the piece of paper and I feel my heart crash as I pick it up . I look at it and the paper was from Mari "To my love , Mari ." I read it . I then didn't waste time and opened the folded paper .
I open it and I felt my heart get stabbed .
Dear Sehun ,
So I have made a decision to leave you , I'm doing this for us and I hope you undertsand that . Please stay strong, stay happy , be healthy and work hard like you always do . Promise that , Arraso ?
I will hold on to you . I won't ever let you get out my heart , even if I try I can't . I will not betray you . I will always stay commited like I have been all this time. Even If you don't see me. I am keeping all my promises.
I don't want to burden you anymore .
I will always love you , even if you might not love me anymore I love you still .
I'm So sorry but I love you , its all for the best .
I have to go now baby . Don't worry about me , Just worry about you . Please understand that I am leaving for the sake of your happiness .
Don't worry , we might meet again someday . But for now I suggest us to seperate , its for the best . For Us and our famliy ....
Mari ~
( Things in Italics and BOLD are memories )
Tears came out my eyes rapidly as I read the paper "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT MARI ?!" I yell out of fustration as I sat down on the mattress . I ruffled my hair "What do you mean its for US . Why did you mention our Family ?" I ask like she's hearing me . Then I remembeer a couple of days ago when she asked me about something .
"What do you think about starting a family soon ?" Mari asked me .
"No this can't be why she left ..." I mutter as I felt guilty .
"To be honest , I don't even want a family anytime soon ." He said bluntly . He kept going "Its beyond my imagination that I even want to soon . I really don't want to soon . It will be a burden for us if we do soon so I wouldn't want to . You get what I'm saying right?" I said as I sighed "ohhh .... i see ." I hear her whisper .
"No.... Why did ... No Mari .. please come back .." tears came out rapidly .
Mari POV
"Good evening passengers . We will be arriving at our destination in about 10 minutes ." The flight speaker said as I awaken from my slumber .
I look at the window as I sigh "Mari , this is for the best remember that . Maybe sehun's happy now ." I mutter as I look at the evening sky .
I decided to leave Sehun , it took a bit of hesitation but its for the best . I hope I can start a better life when I arrive at California . I have already gotten my college set up there and my place to stay and everything . I got it all planned out since I didn't want to go there and not know what to do .
I have already saved alot from the past years for emergency things . The savings are more than enough of what I need to take care of myself . I got myself really perpared for this . But no one knows where I am except for tiffany . I have only told her , I told her to keep my hiding a secret . I even told her to not tell sehun where I will be hiding because I don't want him to worry or see me . It will only pain me more .
This was all a hard decision , but I know its really for the best . Even if it hurts me that Sehun won't be by myside I can tolarate it .. I hope atleast . I hope I will stay hidden for a good amount of time until I know me and My baby is ready .
I know it will be hard to be a Single Parent but I am determined to make this all work . I will work hard for me and my baby , so when I meet sehun I can show him our baby . Hope fully he won't get mad .
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5 months later ....
"Mrs.Oh , can you see that ?" Dr.Brown said He pointed at the ultra sound and I smiled "Your baby is healthy !" He said as he smiled "Thats good !" I replied at him as He showed me more about my baby .
"Thank you Doc ." I thanked Dr.Brown as I got up "Your welcome Mrs.Oh ,please be careful okay? Your baby boy is healthy and let your baby stay that way , okay?" He asked as he smiled and I nodded .
I left the room and bid the other employees goodbye .
I make my way to my car and drive home . So you must be wondering what has happened in these months . Well I recently found out that my baby will be a boy and I'm pretty excited for him to come into this world .
I got myself together , I am studying in college while I take care of myself and the little boy inside me .
About sehun ... Well I surprisingly got better when ever I think about him . For the first couple of months I would literally cry or become really depressed when I remember him . It was a hard task but I got myself to forget and stop thinking about him as much .
I still am really depressed about us seperated , but I try not to think about it as much .
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I arrive at my apartment as I open the door and make my way to the kitchen .
I prepare dinner for myself as I listen to music . I listen to Beast , Fiction .
Ajik nan neol itji mothago
Modeun geol da mitji mothago
Ireohke neol bonaeji mothago oneuldo
Dashi mandeuleo bolke uri iyagi kkeut naji anhge aju ginagin
English Translation :
I still cant forget you
I still cant trust everything
Even today I cant send you away like this
I will rewrite it again, our story will not end
I wash my hands as I listen to that line , I touch my finger where my wedding ring use to be .
As I touch it memories flash through my mind and light tears start to fall .
"Kim Mari will you marry me and make me the happiest guy in the whole universe ?" Sehun asked as He kneeled showing me the beautiful wedding ring . I smiled "Oh course ." I replied and we sealed the moment with a kiss .
Tears start to fall even more .
"Lets stay together .." Sehun said "Forever" I finished him off . We held hands and started our new life together .
"I guess , love never last .." I sigh as I wipe my tears stopping myself from crying anymore .
Sehun POV
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