i hate you
Fragments of Memories
Title: i hate you
Characters: IU, Jonghyun
Genre: short drabble, sad, angst, improper
Inspired by: all sorts of crap plus a bit of voicemail (song by IU)
hi jieun,
i hate you. i hate you so much right now. i hate you because you make me feel stupid. i hate you because you’re the one apologizing, when you have absolutely nothing to apologize for. i hate you because you make it so difficult for me to sound cold, to sound indifferent, to sound like i don’t care, to sound like things don’t matter, to sound like nothing ever happened. i hate you because you lied to me, lied to me that everything else is still there when clearly there is nothing, nothing but an empty void left.
speaking of hate, i hate myself too. i hate myself because in the end, i’m the only one to blame. i hate myself because i made you cry. i hate myself because i hurt you. i hate myself because i miss you. i hate myself because i know the real answer to your question. i hate myself because i’m too much of a coward to tell you it, to admit it. and most of all, i hate you because i still ing love you.
but it’s ok. i shouldn’t, you shouldn’t, we shouldn’t. that’s the philosophy and the reality and the truth. after this, i’m going to forget everything, pretend like there was nothing in the first place so that i don’t feel so...so empty. i don’t want to ruin things anymore. i can see that you have something going on, and it’s not my intention to break it.
i guess i’m being selfish to tell you this...but haha, be a bit understanding for me, yeah? i won’t do this ever again, after all. i’m sorry we never went on a proper date. i’m sorry i’m such an idiot, a jerk, and everything bad. i’m sorry, i’m sorry, i’m sorry, and i’m sorry. i’m sorry because i know that i won’t be sending this message anyw
the not-updating-author's long time poop
hello there fellow iu minions, it is i, the buttface that never updates! (applause) i've made fervent blog posts before, but yes... iu's album, modern times. ah. doesn't the name itself call out "beauty" or "perfection"? no? well, it does. if it doesn't... go stab your ear or something, there must be something wrong with your body---no just kidding but you get what i mean. the songs are just beautiful and gahhh why is iu so beautiful and perfect i cant
a bit about my stuff is that i'm soooo swamped with work, like i cant breathe. yes i do spend my time doing all sorts of "unproductive" stuff but in the end i dont have time for writing (and to be honest i still dont have inspiration or motives so hahaha).
idk, this drabble... when i read over it it's a bunch of crap and nonsense. but you can interpret it up to yourself, i guess. idk random thing in the middle of the night :c
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