I continue walking. 'If I die, all of my problem will be gone. Right?'  The cold water reached my feet and that's what makes me wake up to reality. I stopped and looked down the water. It's full moon, it gave enough light to see my reflection in the water. 'Xi Luhan...ani, that's not even my real name. Everything in my life is fake. Fake family and even girlfriend. Should I just die now? ... No, It's not a good time to die. Leaving my problems unsolve...is not a good idea. Dying because of this problem is...foolishness. This problem is nothing compare to others. There are many people who care and love me. How can I leave them just like this?'  The wind blows in my ears like it want to say something.  I looked up in the skies. There's so many stars and snow falling down, what a good scenery to watch with someone.  Tears are falling again. "Ahhhh...." I shouted, wanted to let go all of the anger.     -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-     Sun shines in my face, I covered my eyes with my arm.  "Your awake?" someone asked I slowly opened my eyes and saw a familiar figure standing in front of me.  "How did you know that I'm here?" I asked then sat in the sand "Junhae called me, and I already knew everything", Kris sat beside me "What do you want now?" I asked, looking at the sea "I want you to talk to me, share...something?"  "I'm so stupid", I said. I grabbed a stone beside me and threw it hard in the water "Yes you are but... I understand you",  I looked at Kris and then laughed. "I'm happy you're laughing but...what's so funny with what I've said?" Kris pouted "You can understand me but I can't understand myself. Isn't it unbelievable?"  "Yeah, it is", Kris laughed with me "Luhan", Kris called with serious tone. "Yeah",  "What are you going to do now?" Kris asked  "Maybe... I'll go back to China with umma. I can't forget here", I said "What about Junhae then?"  "That's why I'm leaving, for her. I hurt her very much and I'll continue hurting her if I won't let go", I placed my hands in Kris' shoulders.  "Can you take care of my sister while I'm gone?"  "Of course, you're my brother", Kris smiled  "Don't be too happy Kris, I'm still watching you. If you hurt my sister... I'm going to break all your bones", I said, staring at him  "Yeah, I know", Kris scratched the back of his neck "But, when are you leaving then?" Kris asked  I stood up. "Tonight",  "Bwah? Are you not going to say good bye to your real family? They'll waiting for you", Kris informed  "So that's why you're here, to bring me back", I said and smiled  Kris stood up, he placed his hand in my shoulder. "I won't force you but are you sure?"  "Deh, I'll talk to them when I'm back. Healing the wounds won't take long", I smiled and turned around I started walking. 'I understand it now'    There's no one to be blame of what happened. I can't blame my parents who adopted me for hiding the truth. I understand that they just want me to forget my past, my parents who left me. And I can't just hate my real parents for leaving me cause that's the only way. But they can't also blame me for loving Junhae. Maybe it's just one of God's trials, a trial so I don't have to give up.   -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=     After One year...     I went out of the airport, a car stopped in front of me. The door opened and a tall guy went out. "What took you so long?" I asked "Your little sister prepared something for you, I was about to pick you up but she hid the key cause she's not yet ready. Don't tell her that I told you, ara?" Kris explained and get my baggage.  "Ara", I smiled  Kris placed it inside the car, at the backseat. "Let's go", Kris said and entered the car, he sat in the driver seat. "Yes sir", I mumbled and sat in the front sit He started the engine and hit the street.    The whole ride was silent.  We haven't seen each other for a long time but our communication didn't stop.    Kris parked the car in front of Junhae's  house. "Is umma and appa really here?" I asked as we went out the car "Deh",  Kris pressed the door bell then after few seconds the door opened.  "Kris...Luhan, come in", Mrs. Yun said  "Annyeonghaseyo", I greeted and bowe