Stephanie’s POV

After my class I went straight ahead in my house. I am full of thoughts regarding what happened earlier and knowing I got already his number. I know I’m a girl and I shouldn’t be the first one to make a move but I need to approach him. I need to talk to him and get to know him somehow, oh if he knows how much he looks like Kim Jaejoong. Ofcourse he doesn’t know him and I feel so pathetic! Will I ever learn regarding about this love. I always end up being hurt and get into situation of having unrequited love more than that I’m such a hopeless romantic kind of girl. I hate being like this! I hate it. But God knows how much I will try hard and love again until I find the one for me. I hope he will find me someday and I will find him.

I sat on the couch and started to think about what I will do about his number. I should tell him the truth. I was so nervous at the same time. I am so attracted to him. But I don’t want to be in love with him knowing that I’ll love him because he looks like my celebrity crush/love. Why is it happening again? This is just the beginning of my crush to crushed heart. I sighed.

I should make a move then. I browse and find his number I texted him “Hi.” It takes so long before he replied. I’m about to fall asleep in the couch when I heard the sound of my cellphone with its message alert tone of Jae’s voice. 'Honey you got a mail~~ ding-ding-ding.' I sat up quickly and started to read the message. I’m so nervous. He replied and to be honest I got excited as well. I blushed all of a sudden remembering how he looks like. O, my God this can’t be happening is he for real. Is he the one for me? Lord I will wait. I read his reply for me “Who is this?” He said. “This is Steph by the way. Uhmm Stephanie. I was the one who wanted to have your number but my bestfriend got it for me instead. The one who talked to you awhile ago this afternoon.” Oh crap I’m being too honest with this man. Why? I don’t want to lie anyway. I hate this feeling I’m too serious which was so not me. I smiled. I hope he will be friends with me somehow. I need to be positive! I said to myself and well my bestfriend always cheer me up and keep on reminding me about being positive besides she wanted me to be honest with him. So here it goes.

We started to talk through text and able to communicate well and it was nice texting him and he was texting me back. His name was Chris and his full name is Christopher. What a nice name! I like it. It was funny too. I dreamed about him before because I don’t know him and it all started the first day I lay my eyes on him. Sure he was perfect like Jaejoong.

Chris’s POV

I heard something beep in my pocket. I’m expecting someone to text me. I smirked. I guess I’m up for my new girlfriend and I started to text back. It’s just not one message anyway. I got 23 and plus, Exciting! I got some missed calls too. What a great life I had. I look bad but no I’ll just go with the flow with this. “I love my life.” I mumbled once more.

Steph's POV

She felt her heart being crushed as she got her reply from Chris. She was sitting on the couch in the living room. She felt so bad. Not again. I'm so not me right now. I texted him as I asked him straight forwarded questions. I feel so ashamed as well. I texted him if he got a girlfriend already. Unfortunately he has already. And I'm shocked his girlfriend texted me back using his phone.

'You!  Get away from my boyfriend! You're such a flirt saying that he looks great and everything! GET A LIFE !'

I bit my lip as tears started to fall. I immediately answered back. I'm shocked. My heart feels like it was torn apart by her words.

'Don't worry I understand, I'm not what you think I am. I do respect your relationship with him and I'm sorry. I'll not bother you guys'

Chris's POV

I lay myself on my bed as I entered my room. I closed my eyes and started to find my phone in my pocket. I opened my eyes and read one of my messages. ! This is the girl I just texted awhile ago. We started to get along with each other actually. I find it amazing how she became too honest with me. I think she was flirting so I ride on it. But hell no as I read her last message:

'Don't worry I understand, I'm not what you think I am. I do respect your relationship with him and I'm sorry. I'll not bother you guys'

This is wrong. Wait why do I feel wrong? It’s just another random girl but I don't want to leave a bad impression on her. So I texted her back:

'Hey uhmm Steph, sorry about my girlfriend. She's drunk and she snatched my phone away from me. Sorry once again.'

Steph's POV

I ignore his text messages for me and I don't know why but he keeps on sending me various messages or group messages. Maybe he's a player? I started to conclude since he said it already he has a girlfriend and should be ignoring me from the very start.

*At the restaurant*

I stared depressingly at my food as I hear my bestfriend talk about dbsk. She's talking about updates and current situation of the boys. I just keep on sighing as she look straight at me and questioned me all of a sudden about Chris. "I knew it Steph! I knew it! You look so down. It's about Jaejoong's look-a-like am I right?" I just look down at the table and started to eat the food. "Steph just give it a chance. Be friends with him! Talk to him or text him atleast. This is a great opportunity for the two of you!" She started to give me advice. Actually I like it when someone gives me advice especially from people who are close to me and this is Mary, my bestfriend.

Jaejoong's POV

(Japan)

After our 'Stand by You' performance which I heard it will be our last performance as five. We headed all straight back into our changing rooms. I glance at Yunho and Changmin. Both of them are quiet not even speaking to us. As if we're just winds. I know they can definitely feel us but they keep on ignoring us. Not speaking of any words. They keep on nodding. Not even saying 'hi' or 'hellos' to us. Somehow we need to acknowledge our presence to each other but this time it’s different.

Our last conversation when we’re still in the company Sment and we had a great fight, me and Yunho. I felt so bad back then. But I guess our decision is made and we will never go back in that company.  But I want to go back as we used to be together.

We never talked that way again. The time we speak at each other without awkwardness like just we used to before.

This started since we filed lawsuit against SMent. I know we three have to do this in order to protect ourselves.

It's such a long story how we end up filing the lawsuit. I felt so down. My 'Dong Bang Shin Ki' my life, my family. I love them so much. The four of them. It's painful it turns out this way.

This is our last performance as 'Tohoshinki' together and sooner our BigEastation will have its final episode. Our radio program will end soon.

*Flashback*

"Hyung, what's this?" Yunho said while giving me the papers about cancelling our future schedules. It's in the folder with the statement of our lawsuit. I talked with this about my lawyer and also Yoochun and Junsu filed the same with me. I heard Hankyung from Super Junior filed also about this case.

I thought the two of them will be on our side too. I thought they will also file a lawsuit against SMent. I thought we're all in this together. I was shocked and held the papers in my hands clenching it tightly as I stared at it. Yunho intently gazed into me waiting to hear my answer about it. "Jaejoong hyung..." He broke our silence as I keep staring at the papers in my hands. I don't know what to say since the three of us continued filing the lawsuit against SMent. "I never thought of this to come... I thought we will be in this together. The five of us continue to perform and just- Just be together." His eyes piercing at me and gazed at me. As a leader he felt irresponsible to see what will happen to our group, to us if this will go further. Thinking SMent will do anything about this huge chaos thinking it will affect the company badly.

Especially for our group. We were legend as they say and having 800,000 official fans here in Korea. My Cassiopeia. Without them we're nothing. We are truly grateful for their undying love for us. I closed my eyes thinking what will be the great damage and heartache that my Cassies, our Cassies to bear. I kept the pain. It hurts me as well. And I know all of us feel the same way. Thinking about it breaks me. We are legend as they say but we don't think something like that. We performed because of our fans not because of the sake of just performing as if it's merely just a job and nothing more.

This lawsuit will definitely can break us. It pains me even more to think about that. Everything that happened in my life which is painful and unbearing. This one can literally break me. Break me as if I'll die. This is not easy for us. It's not really easy.

Taking in all his pride for our group. Yunho said something that I will never forget. He called our other members as well to come over and meet the two of us as we talked about this matter.

When the three arrives in the room. As they taken the seat Yunho started to speak. "DBSK needs to be protected. Changmin and I talked about this. Since we did not and will never file lawsuit against SMent," Yunho has taken a deep breath closing his eyes as if he doesn't want to open it anymore. He clenches his fist. "We can separate as the three of you wished and leave SMent. We will continue to perform as DBSK. And WE WILL DEFINITELY STAY HERE even if you can't. We will continue performing as DONGBANGSHINKI. Even if it means it’s just the two of us. Only me and Changmin." His tone was hard. His eyes were watery staring and looking at the four of us. We were shocked hearing all of this from him. Our leader who promised we will be together even if it takes forever. He just said earlier he wants us to be together but what is he doing right now. What is this Yunho? Why are you talking about us being seperated?! Why?! I stood up from my sitting position glaring at Yunho both Yoochun and Junsu held me from my arms as I pointed at Yunho and shouted at him. "You, Yunho! What are you saying!? I thought we talked about this before?! We will move out altogether in this SMent hell! this company for treating us so unfairly. Still you want to stand for them rather than us your friends?! Your brothers??! YOUR FAMILY!?" I can't take it anymore. I walked out as I breathed hard saying all this things. Yoochun and Junsu glared at Yunho being disappointed and hurt.

Changmin started to tear up as he kept his head down from seeing us fight. Breaking. Yoochun and Junsu stepped out also with pain in their hearts carrying the memories we've all shared being together. Loving each other as brothers... 

The three of us never came back in that company since then.

Yunho stared as the tears fell from his eyes. Clenching his fist tighter. Changmin stood up and patted Yunho's shoulder with his right hand crying as well. Taking in all that happened to them. Looking at the painful sight. Changmin understands Yunho so much that leaving him this moment will be not an option. Yunho has a big pride. He doesn't cry. He doesn't break easily and fall down. He doesn't let his feelings out so easily. He's strong when it comes to problems and unfortunate events or things that will happen but not now. You can definitely see in his eyes. He was hurt also. DBSK is just too important to him. Because of this being one of the member of DBSK, they got reunited. The five of them. Even in hardships like this he just can't let go. "Hyung, I'll stay beside you and I won't leave. Let's be strong hyung. D-don't worry-". Yunho suddenly spoken as his back facing Changmin gazing at his side still sitting. "We'll do this together Changmin. The two of us will work hard. From now on DBSK has only two members." Changmin's eyes widened. "Hyung, what-" Changmin was cutted again by Yunho. "If you want to be with them just leave me." Changmin was hoping this is just a bad dream and wishing he can woke up from this dreadthful nightmare. "No hyung. I'll stay with you." He made up his mind. He can't leave his hyung like this. He don't know what will he do to himself if he will leave him as well. "Remember its just only the two of us now." Changmin responded "I know hyung."

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Hello there reader's! Sorry for not updating this fic for almost 1 year. The authors are busy

reviewing because they're taking the Board Exam. This is base on a true story right? Hehehe

I hope you can still support this fic eventhough it was not updated for a long time. :) And btw,

new characters are coming soon! So please wait for it. ^_^

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