Chapter 1

History          

         My name is Lee Shinye; i have a hot brother named Lee Taemin. My love for him is more than the stars in the universe, more than the asteroids in that asteroid belt, more than the water content of this planet, and much more than the atoms in my body. I need him more than I need oxygen. His existence gives the chambers of my heart the capacity to pump blood to the rest of my body. I know that it's unacceptablle, the icing on the cake is that the chances of him loving me back is as rare as being born with Eisenmenger syndrome. The scarcity is not even due to the fact that we share the same surname. Truth is i'm adopted but it doesnt change a damn thing, really. I will never be loved back because his annoying heart is madly beating for someone else and he goes by the name Choi Minho. Neh, that's right my brother, my first love is a homo, a y one at that. And to top it all? I'm Choi Minho's girlfriend.                                                                                                                             

         Of course, things were much simpler before. I was just a random girl, wearing a face that people never even bothered to throw a second glance. I was cool with it; I didn’t know how to handle attention anyway. I was contented with my life, I had a family, I kept good friends and school works didn’t stress me out. I was 17, scared to reach the next year where I would try to act as an adult so people would treat me as one. Romance? Nah. I got loads of crush though, but they don’t seem to notice that I exists. I’m fine with it, really. My life was in perfect equilibrium I couldn’t ask for more, until it wasn’t. I woke up one day with a note on my desk. My parents were gone; no explanation was given to me. They simply said that when things start to fall into place again, they would come back. For two years I waited, I tried to calm myself when thoughts on their whereabouts cloud my head. I tried to firmly grasp at the hope that one day everything will go back as they were. 

So how am I surviving?

         The Lees adopted me, turns out my father entrusted me to them. Do you know how that made me feel? My parents planned this all along; everything was ready when they left. Everyone was prepared for that change, except for me. Did they not think that it would only take minutes to tell me what the hell was happening? How could they just leave me groping in the dark?

       Well enough with the past, two years had gone by and I have found a new equilibrium. But this equilibrium isn’t what I wanted. It took away my chance at that thing people branded as love. What’s worse than being a random fan girl is being related to your bias. Those daydreams about making out under the rain became playing scrable with your family. Those deafening scream on concerts became laughers in clan reunion. In short I needed an intravenous injection of adenosine to allow my heart to go back to it's normal rhythm. This is all because my brother is giving me a hell of palpitations. 

School is coming up, i'm glad that writing this story is making me review my previous subjects. Who knew that Tae Min would make me want to flip my hand outs. 

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