( ^ u ^ ) Ayyy guise~

Here’s Junhee’s POV and the first timeskip’s after the dinner which is three days before the at hospital scene. I wasn’t sure if Taewoong’s doctor girlfriend had a name so I just used her name (not sure of the spelling though lol) ^^ The next timeskip is Junhee back at home, trying to text Siwon.

I wanted the doctor to show up and I’m making it seem like she fell for Taewoong but something happened so, yeah. XP And I liked her character~

Enjoy~!

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9. Misconceptions Of A Friend

I went back inside the apartment after sending Yunjae off. It’s odd that I felt like I was not myself these past few days. I wonder if it’s about me figuring out what I really need in life. Yuchun was already in his sleepwear when I met him while I was on my way to the bathroom.

“I’ll be sleeping now. We have to wake up early as usual.” Yuchun reminded me with his usual friendly smile, passing by me as I stopped in front of the bathroom door.

I looked at him as I hew went upstairs, telling him gently before going inside the bathroom, “All right. Goodnight.”

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I was at the hospital, exiting a children’s ward after checking them up and Yuchun’s currently performing another surgery so he might not come home with me tonight. As I was walking, I noticed Taewoong hyung’s doctor, Ms. Lee Ju-yeon entering the door leading to the staircase where the chair of truth lies. I’m not really aware if she knows me or not, but I thought that I should follow her, seeing as she looked like she needed someone to talk to.

Speaking of someone to talk to, I haven’t heard from Siwon or Yunjae since the weekend before. I started to wonder how they were. I was thinking of visiting Siwon when I have time.

I entered the fire exit and closed the door behind me. I carefully made my way down, but it wasn’t quiet enough as she turned her head to my direction, looking at me with wet and surprised eyes as she was already sitting in the chair of truth.

“Ah, you’re one of the new nurses, right?” She asked, quickly rubbing her eyes and smiles at me as if nothing’s going on with her.

I nodded and then sat down beside her, “Yes, ma’am. Kang Junhee’s my name.”

Ju-yeon shook her head, speaking again with that smile of hers, “No need to be formal when we’re alone. I prefer noona anyways.”

“Ah, okay…” I sighed, nodding. This may be the first time I ever spoken with her personally without work involved. She seems to be a nice person and reminded me of someone I know with the way she speaks.

“Oh yeah, I remember now. You’re one of Siwon-ah’s close friends.” She told me cheerfully, placing her hand onto my shoulder.

I looked at her with surprised eyes, responding as I also lightly smiled, “Yes I am. How did you know?”

“Taewoong oppa told me…”

I curiously gazed at her face which turned her smiling face into a lonely-looking one again. Ju-yeon noona looked at her feet, hugging her knees. Seems like she went here to the chair of truth to pour out her emotions. I could tell that noona seems to have felt something saddening from someone.

“N-Noona, do you want me to leave you now? It seems like I caught you in a bad time and I wanted to see if you’re all right.” I carefully told her, staring at the blank space in front of me.

She spoke again with that tone of voice as if she was rejected, “No, it’s okay. I think it’s better if someone would hear me out. Is it okay with you?”

“Sure.”

“Thank you.”

I faced her slowly, seeing noona sat up straight with her hands resting on her lap. “I’m no fortune teller, but I could tell that you have a problem related to love… Am I right?” I said to her softly, crossing my legs with my arms over my chest.

“You’re good.” Ju-yeon noona lightly chuckled, speaking again, “Though not really sure if it’s love, but I did get rejected by the guy I like. Taewoong oppa.”

“How did it happen?”

“I told immediately told him that I like him after our first outing together, but he said that he can’t accept me because he still has someone in mind…”

I feel like I could empathize with noona here. I knew how that felt and speaking of having someone in mind, I wondered if hyung still thought about Siwon? I remembered that a few days ago, Siwon told me about her feelings still wandering inside her heart. I could say that Taewoong hyung and Siwon’s feelings are like mine at the moment, still searching for that spark or that red thread at the end. I always wondered why I’m considered to be good at figuring out other people’s feelings and hearts when I don’t know mine that well.

“All I could say is that things like this come and go… It’s hard at first, but when you think about it, you’d get to find someone who’s willing to be with you.” I said to her solemnly, meeting her sad gaze with mine.

She gave a gentle smile and then placed her hand onto my cheek, slightly teasing me as she spoke, “Omo, I never thought a guy could be that deep… Are you married or something?”

I smiled back at her and said, “No, but I do have someone in mind. A special friend of mine.”

“Aigoo, I got rejected again…” Ju-yeon noona joked, pouting as she folded her arms over her chest. “I’m sure she’s going to be a lucky girl for having you.” She added with a sweet smile.

I just let out a small laugh, grinning at my new friend. Somehow, it felt like I was talking to one of my friends again, like Siwon or Yoojung. I really missed hanging out with them, especially when I go with them to H.O.T. fanmeets or concerts.

She stood up and said before she made her way out of the fire exit, chuckling a bit, “Well, thanks, but as soon as we work together, don’t call me noona, okay? Especially in front of the head doctors.”

I nodded in agreement, answering her as I followed her out, “Got that.”

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“Siwon-ah, are you still busy with work? Maybe I could stop by and cook for you.”

I texted and sent Siwon the text, feeling a bit worried about her since she often overworks herself or maybe she’s drinking to put her worries away. Either way, I’m really concerned and worried.

“Don’t worry so much, Junhee. I’m just at home, doing what I usually do. ^__^”

I sighed in relief after seeing her reply. At least she still puts smileys, which means she’s doing all right. I texted her again, asking if I could call her up.

“Ah, that’s good, just don’t stress out yourself too much. Anyways, can I call you right now?”

“Sure, call me up if you want.”

I immediately called her up after seeing her response, and after a ring, she immediately picked it up.

“Junhee-ah, do you miss me that much?”

I lightly laughed hearing her words, replying, “I do. We haven’t been seeing much lately too. I really missed going to H.O.T. events with you.”

“Thanks for reminding me… I really missed that too.”

“Siwon-ah, do you know Taewoong hyung’s doctor?”

“I do, in fact I did meet her a few times and encouraged oppa to go out with her since she seems really nice and I could tell that she likes him by the way she stares at oppa.”

I sighed, leaning my back against the couch, “I see…”

“Why did you ask about unnie anyway?”

“I actually became friends with her just recently and told me about hyung not accepting her because of someone else.”

Siwon responded to me after a few moments of silence, sounding a bit surprised, “Oh, really?”

“Yeah… I am wondering if it’s still you he loves. Don’t worry… I’m sure you’ll be able to know how you really feel soon.”

“I really hope so… And you, I want to know something about your feelings.”

I didn’t respond, waiting for a continuation of her sentence.

“Junhee-ah, do you like someone now? Be honest okay.”

“I do.”

“Is it someone else or is it Yunjae still? I won’t get angry, I just want to know as your friend.”

I rubbed the back of my head, trying to think clearly about myself. It’s true that I’ve been letting my feelings go since I knew about Siwon and Yunjae’s relationship. Friendship is always first for me before a love life. But as I think harder, I can’t help but see Yunjae’s face inside my head. I was hoping that this would only be admiration or whatever, but I couldn’t lie to my friend and to my heart. I really am not myself nowadays. It’s like someone’s taken over my mind and heart. Or maybe it’s the other way around?

“Junhee-ah, are you still there?”

I took a deep breath, responding to her, “I’m here.”

“Sorry, don’t answer it if – “

“I still like Yunjae somehow… I could still feel something whenever he goes and hangs out with me.”

“I’m really glad that you’re honest to me after all these years… Junhee-ah, if only I could kiss you right now.”

I felt her smiling through the phone as I heard her voice, “Of course, there wouldn’t be a reason for me to lie to my best friend.”

“Pabo, you’re too nice, you know that? Okay, I’m hanging up now… Gotta work, bye!”

“Bye and fighting!”

After hanging up, I placed my phone back to my pocket and stood up from the couch. I felt like how I felt before, but better. I was happy to be honest with Siwon after all these years. I wouldn’t lie to her even if it’s about my love for Yunjae. I’m just wishing her luck and praying that she’d figure out her feelings soon. Of course, I also wish myself luck in finding out if I could like Yuchun more than a friend and forget about being in love with Yunjae. It’s so not me to be thinking much on things like this though.

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( = o = ) Zzz

Finished this at 1:30am… Good thing there’s no classes tomorrow morning.

I felt like this chapter was missing something, but I couldn’t think much… ( Q _ Q ) My creative juices aren’t doing well with homework in the way…

Anyways, I’ll make sure Yunjae’s POV’s gonna be interesting… Stay tuned~ *^^*