BANG YONG GUK’S POV

I drove….as fast as I could

I drove… didn’t pay attention to anything.

Your sentences, your angry voice when you heard me talked about Himchan…I would never forget.

It deeply hurted me, you knew?

I the radio loud so that I couldn’t hear anything. I wanted to erase you completely in my mind.

There was our song on the radio: “ Rain Sound” and rain was outside.

That was our favorite song.

I smirked myself…. Why did God treat me badly like that?

I smiled…. But I couldn’t held my tears. They fell down like a stream on my face.

Suddenly, I wanted to touch the rain drops. So I opened the car windows.

There was a blowing wind so that I felt cold… deep in my heart.

Is this sound of the rain, your voice?
Is this a sound that calls to me? Am I the only one thinking of you?
Will this rain comfort me?
Do you know how I feel? I keep thinking of you
 Yes, it was perfect for thinking about you Junhong ah!

I whispered to myself: “ Let him go Yong Guk ah” but my mind didn’t. Your name kept repeating in my mind. Our happy moment kept replying like a sad film. I cried again. I speeded up.

Everything blured in front on my eyes because of  missing you. I couldn’t see anything. Just run away faster and faster.

Untill I bumped in to something or exactly some one very hard.

That collision brought me to the realistic.

I got out of the car in panic.

I approached the one who lying  on the road.

Suddenly……..

There was something in my throat.

My heart beated harder and harder.

Tears on my eyes fell down more and more.

It was very difficult for me to breath then.

Junhong ah….It was you.

Junhong ah…. It was you who lying on the road unconsciously

Blood…blood was around you.

What did I do huh? What did I do to you?

Junhong ah… please wake up, I begged. Please tell me that you were still alive.

Outside the window, the sound of the rain rings
I remember the memories of us
I can’t live without you my love

There were you and I who met each other on the rainy day.

But why were you there in my arms too cold?

That was my fault. I killed you Junhong ah. Please don’t forgive me.

The rain was heavier.

I picked you up and hurry bring you to the nearest hospital.

“Please God bless him” – I prayed.

You were sent to the emergency room. There were many doctors around you.

I was left outside. I sat in a bench insensitively. Panic was in my face.

I kept asking myself what I did to you?

Maknae ah…you had to be fine...or I would die with you.

I looked through the ER’s door. In that room, you needed to fight with the Death.

“ Try your best maknae ah…you will be alive”

I covered my face by my hands. My shoulders shaked very hard when I thought about you.

*****

“ Hyung ah, what is your wish huh?” – It was your sweet voice. At that time, we were sitting in the roof wishing when a shooting star acrossed.

“ It is a secret maknae ah!” – I replied and didn’t forget to put a light punch to your nose.

“ Arddd, too selfish” – you frowned and put your hand in your nose. I just smiled when I saw your action. It was cute maknae ah, you were very cute!

“ So what is your wish maknae? Don’t tell me that’s also a secret” – I laughed out loud.

“ No darkness” – You replied.

“ Huh?”- I was a little surprised.

“ Yup, I have prayed for no darkness in our life. I’m so scared of the darkness”

You leaned your head on my shoulder. Your eyes were on the sky.

“ Don’t be afraid maknae, I will always be your light.” –Put my hand on your hair, I whispered.

*****
 

“ God please, don’t lead him to the hell, I beg you! I will be the one who go with Death instead of him”