YoungMin's hands are being hold by JongIn on one side and I hold on the other, he happily jump up and down while we walk towards the forest. YoungMin is in a good mood because earlier I told him that we will be going to the forest, he squealed in delight, he is happy to see Lay. He doesn't know that we will part way soon, I see JongIn with a frown. He must be upset too, I feel like a bother to him.

We stop in front of the forest, my brother pulling on our hands to go in but we don't take a step forward. "Noona~ Hyung~ let’s go!" He whine and fussing. 

"YoungMin, you're not going in there today" I explain, pulling his hand to make him stay still. I crouch down to his eyes level, "Minnie..." I inhale, preparing myself to explain to my five-year-old brother.

JongIn crouch down beside me and hold both of YoungMin's hands, "YoungMin, do you like staying around Hyung?" He ask and I look at JongIn in bewilder, what is he saying? My brother nods, looking down at both of us. "Then YoungMin will be staying with Hyung for a while but YoungMin, your Noona have to go somewhere" JongIn calmly says to YoungMin, he pull his hands out of JongIn's holds and cup my cheeks.

"Noona is leaving Minnie?" YoungMin brittle say; I put my hand over his. 

"Noona is not leaving you, I'm just going to be gone for a while but Noona will definitely come back for you" I feel teardrops drop on my hand; I look up to see YoungMin crying and biting on his lips.

"Don't cry. I don't like to see you cry. YoungMin..." He sniffs. "Promise Noona that you will never cry when I'm away, I'll be sure to make JongIn-shi inform about you." I smile brightly at him even though my tears start to fall down as well. JongIn stay silence beside me and listen to us.

"Okay. I promise not to cry but Noona have to come back soon." YoungMin says and hug me around my neck; I run my hand down his back. "I love you, Noona" he whispers in my ear and he snuggle his head closer.

"I love you too. Be a good boy to JongIn-shi, okay?" He nods.

I stand up and look down at YoungMin wiping away his tears, I look at JongIn who go stand beside my brother "I promise to take care of him as my own little brother" he softly says. I smile toward him. 

"I trust you" I wobbly say, "Thank you". 

I turn my front toward the forest, walking my way in. From the behind I hear YoungMin whimpering and JongIn comforting him. I hold in my tears and walk faster.

I stumble my way in the forest; the snow make me trip but temperature is not as low as yesterday. There's no sign of Lay coming to meet me which disappoint me; I don't know my way around the forest like he does. I curse under my breath; I should've planed things more carefully.

I walk pass by trees and through it, I see an opening field. I remember that Lay's house is in an opening; I change my direction and walk towards the opening.

When I walk in the opening zone, I have a hard time catching my brea