You're P.O.V

**At the hospital**

I ran to my mother's room and pulled the door open smiling. But my smile faded. 'Where is she?!' „Eomma?“ I asked almost whispering. I dropped my bag, turned around and ran through the whole hospital crying but was stopped by someone. I couldn't recognize, who it was, because of my tears. But I recognized the voice. It was Meekyong eonnie, who told me to calm down and after a couple of seconds all that could been heard were my sobs. „Where is she?“ I asked her, not even giving her the chance to say something. „Hwayoung...You're mother...She...She's...“ She didn't finish her sentence and looked at the floor. But I knew what she wanted or didn't want to say. „No.“ I shook my head energetically. „No, it can't be. You..You said she still has a day.“ I said not believing what happened. „I'm sorry Hwayoung. I was sure-“ „Why?“ I asked interrupting her once again. „Why did she die so soon. You said she still has time. SO WHY?“ I yelled looking straight in her eyes. „Kim Hwayoung?“ A male voice asked. I turned in the direction from where the voice came and saw a doctor, who gave me the sedative injection. „Yes?“ I said quietly. „My name is Lee Taekwon. I took care of your mother. I'm sorry for that, but we really couldn't help her.“ 'Wow. He says that so calmly and in the past tense, too. And then he really wants me to believe him? How can I, if he talks about my mother's dead so calmly.' „Why did she die now?“ I asked him. „I'm not sure but it could be because of stress. Maybe she felt guilty or thought about big problems or because of a fight. In her condition she wasn't allowed to worry. So do you two had a fight, or did you tell her something, or maybe she told you something bad?“ he asked, still with his emotionless voice. He went on talking, but I didn't listen to him and collapsed on the floor staring into nowhere and remembering the fights we had. 'She died because of me. I fought with her about nothing and she died. It's my fault. If I had agreed with her from the beginning then, she would be alive now.' Then I stopped my thoughts and just sat on the floor don't hearing anything. Then everything got darker and soon it was black. When I opened my eyes everything around me was white. I found myself on the white floor and stood up carefully, because I felt a little bit dizzy. Then I looked around but everything I could see was white. Suddenly a little black patch appeared in the white and I heard an indistinct voice. 'This voice. It sounds so familiar.' I gasped, when I recognized it. „Eomma? Is it you? Eomma! Eomma, where are you?“ „Hwayoung. You...“ „Eomma! Where are you?“ „You killed me. You killed your mother.“ „Eomma, I didn't want it. I...I didn't know, you aren't allowed to worry. You didn't tell me anything. I didn't want to worry you. I didn't want to fight with you about nothing.“ „But you killed me though. Didn't you say you'd like to stay with me forever?“ „Of course I want stay with you, eomma. But how? Should I stay here and don't go to Seoul? I'll do this. If you want me to stay, I will. I will do anything for you.“ „Does it mean you would kill yourself, to stay with me?“ I didn't expect that question, but I said I prefer it if I would die and not my mother. So I think I have the answer. „Ye, eomma. Like I said I would do anything, if it makes you happy.“ „Is it like that? Then I'm sure you'll do it.“ And as she said that a pistol appeared right in front of my face. I gasped and stepped back. I felt somthing behind me, so I turned around and saw my mother. „Now you have the chance to choose. Do you want to stay with me or go to Seoul to your father?“ „I...I want to stay with you, eomma!“ „Then release the safety catch and pull the trigger.“ „W...What?“ „I said release the safety catch and pull the trigger if you want to stay with me. Or are you of a different opinion now?“ I just shook my head hesitantly and took the pistol. „So? What are you waiting for?“ my mother asked. I looked her straight in the eyes, then I did what she said and pulled the weapon against my temple. „Eomma I really do love you and I'll do whatever you want.“ I said before I closed my eyes and pulled the trigger, hoping it wouldn't hurt. But after I pulled it I couldn't feel anything, just the cold metal against my temple. I opened my eyes slowly and saw my mother with a disappointed expression. „Eom-“ „How could you? I said, you should go to Seoul and find your father!“, she said with an angry voice. „But-“ „And what are you doing? You try to kill yourself at the opportunity.“ „But eomma! You said me to do so!“ „So? I said my last wish, the only thing I want from you is to find your father. And you almost killed yourself and didn't even let my wish become true! You can be happy, that the pistol isn't real.“  she almost screamed still angrily. „But eomma I can't deal with it alone. I need you by my side. I'm not as strong as you think I am. I'm not as strong as you.“ I cried. „You have to.“ And then she began to vanish. „Eomma don't leave me alone! Eomma! Please, don't leave me alone! I don't want you to leave me! Eomma!“ Then I heard a loud 'bang' and woke up startling and screaming. „EOMMA!“ I looked around. I was in the hospital. „Hwayoung, you're awake. How are you?“ Meekyong asked. She sat in a chair next to me. I hugged her and started crying. „Meekyong eonnie!“