Dear Diary,

It still feels weird, but I HAVE to force myself to write! Jinki hyung still hasn't told us, but maybe it's my fault.

He was perfectly okay today, but I just HAD to run my mouth. I think that Kibum umma is rubbing off on me. Hehe, I can call him Umma now! He can't read this!  Mwahahaha! Anyway...

Today, I was watching some fancams after Jinki hyung had gotten off of the computer, since that was soe of the recently visited pages. Then I noticed how much thinner he used to be, but I'm still a stick. I told him that he looked like he gained weight, but I meant it in a GOOD way! He did his fake laugh, that for some reason only I can hear, and joked it off. I think I hurt his feelings, and it didn't help that Kibum umma agreed with me. I mean, he didn't gain fat, he gained... something. It's not muscle pr say, or fat, but it added to his squishyness and his manliness. 

I wish I could gain weight. No matter how much I try, I don't gain anything! I sit around and play video games. Is it because I dance too much? I wish I was squishy like Jinki hyung. I wish I was manly like Jinki hyung.

Ughhhhh!!!
    Lee Taemin