Squishy
Dear Diary,![](http://th08.deviantart.net/fs71/PRE/i/2012/277/9/3/dear_diary_by_iloveanime12-d5gt2th.png)
Dear Diary,
I did something I knew that I shouldn't have. I was on the internet and I look at some fancams, some older, and some new ones. Then, I read the comments. There weren't many, but a couple of people said that it looked as though I had gained weight. I know that I shouldn't let it get to me, but all I see is "fat". It bothered me. It doesn't help that some of my old clothes are too tight now.
I've always been self concious for a while. It didn't help when Key or Taemin compared my weight before to what it is now. They would say that I got bigger, and I would always smile and laugh it off, but my heart would always feel a pang. I haven't cried about it, but I do get sad. I have tried working out, but I'm not the type to lose a bunch of fat. I should go on a diet, I'll ask one of the noonas to help me. Maybe I need to stop eating fried chicken. How does Park Bom stay so thin eating all that corn? Then again, maybe she's just lucky?
Why am I so squishy?
Lee Jinki
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