My heart keeps pounding very fast. I can't stop myself from stealing glances at Jinyoung, wondering why he's doing this thing to me.

What is on his mind? What is he thinking?

There's no need to wonder, Yoonshi, you are a 'friend'. I scolded myself.

Besides stealing glances, I was also simply wishing that he had a very big umbrella.

A beach umbrella, perhaps? In that way, our shoulders won't be brushing each other.

“Hey, Yoonshi.” he said, his voice is like a melting chocolate.

“Hmm..”

“Are you avoiding me?” he asked me.

Is it that obvious? “What?” I asked, feigning surprise.

“We didn't take lunch or snack together this week. Whenever you saw me, you always fled. You're avoiding me, right?”

“O-of course not!! Why would I do that?” I denied, quite flustered.

“Really? I'm relieved.” he said, smiling so brightly and looking refreshed.

I sighed in relief. He believe it. Of course if I said the truth, then he'll be asking why followed by me telling my feelings for him, which I don't like to happen.

And that's stupid.

I again looked up to him. He looks so happy. Why? Is he really bothered by me avoiding him?

“You know, I was nervous and somewhat upset when I thought you avoided me. I thought of a lot of things. Like, Did I do something wrong? Is she mad at me? “ he said, he seems down.

WHY? I ask myself. Why act that way?

He stopped walking and faced me. I looked up to him, then his hand gently touched my cheek. I'm quite sure that I'm blushing brightly.

“Did I really do something to hurt you?” he asked me, sincerely as he looked into my eyes. “If I did, I'm sorry and I really don't want to hurt you.”

I don't know what to say.

Speechless.

I believe that my mind just stopped working.

Well, a minute or so passed, we still continue to stare at each other. Then, Jinyoung quickly looked away.

AAHH!! Shame!! I was so shamelessly staring to him.

Is this it? Does he think I'm special for him?

He keeps me confuse!! Not just my mind, but my heart as well.

I heard him sigh, then took a deep breath.

“Anyway, Yoonshi, I'm really happy that you're not mad or anything since you are my friend.”

HA!! That's it! A friend!!

Yoonshi, you are just a friend. There's nothing so special about that!! You are hoping too much.

“It's not like I'm your only friend.” I said, trying not to sound that I'm not deeply hurt.

“Well, I do have friends, childhood friends, and I didn't actually made new friends in high school. You are my first friend.”

I ignored him.

Quite happy on what he said then that makes me a little special?

Seriously, don't raise your hope even a little bit, Yoonshi!

“-But I'll be upset if you act as if you are avoiding me. You see, you always make me smile.” he continued and smiled at me.

Upset? Really? On what he said is probably true. He seems down when he thought that I was avoiding him.

YAAH!! I can't continue to avoid him if he looks like that, hurt.

Fine, avoiding him is useless. I won't continue doing it. But that means I will be helpless falling in love with him again.

As if I wasn't in love with him already.

Finally, we reached my house.

“We're here.” I said, turning to him. “Would you like to go inside? Tea, juice?”

“Thanks, but no thanks. I should be going now.”

“Really?” I looked at the sky, it is getting darker. “Well, you better get going, then. Thank you for taking me home.”

“You're welcome. See you on Monday?”

“Okay. Bye, take care.” I said, as I ran to our door, then waved good bye.

He waved and left.

Dear God, can you make him not this sweet? So I won't be hurt so much because I'm falling deeply in love with him.

I sighed and went inside to take a warm bath.

A/N: I need ideas!! HELP!!! Thanks for support!! I love you all!!