Chapter 38

Bom’s POV

I miss him. I miss him every day. I miss him every second. I feel miserable every time I get to remember him… us. I don’t even know how I’ll start to be happy, if all this time, he’s the only one who can make me so happy. I love him so much, yet I hurt him too much. I don’t know how I’ll be able to make it all up. I don’t even know if I am still righteous of him. I don’t know if he deserves to be trapped with such an indecisive girl like me. All I know is that I can’t control myself for loving him still, after all what I’ve said and done. I miss him… I miss him so bad. I miss everything so much. I miss us. I miss us…

“Yah~ Park Bom!” a snapping fingers wakes me up from my thoughts of regret, I looked up and saw my best friends with their school-worn-out-faces.

“We missed you unnie,” Minzy sits beside me, embracing me fully while Hyuna sits across us.

“Are you alright? You lost weight…” Hyuna scrutinizes my whole face as if she’s a doctor.

“Yeah unnie, does this baby makes you uncomfortable??” Our maknae poking my belly lightly.

I smiled at them and sip a mouthful of my banana milk shake. “I’m getting married.” I quietly announced, gathering wide eyes from my friends. I can perfectly see how happy they are basing from their looks. Hyuna scoots next to me, her eye smile not leaving her while Minzy pulls out her phone, ready to call someone.

“But it’ll be a closed wedding. Only our family and closest friends will be there.” I said as Minzy scrunches her face, ending the call that she made.

“Waeyo?? It should be the grandest wedding of the century! For God damn sake it’s a freaking Choi-Park wedding ceremony!” Hyuna pouts, taking a sip on my milk shake.

“Well, I understand you unnie. Getting pregnant in such a young age is a shame but you have Seunghyun oppa by your side! What’s the worry?? He’ll never leave you right? He loves you too much…”

“Yeah he loves you so why hide the wedding? And as if that’ll prevent your belly blowing up.” Hyuna spats.

I looked down, should I tell them that Seunghyun and I are over and it’s Siwon whom I’ll be marrying. Heck, they don’t even know that this baby is not Seunghyun’s. I’m somehow glad that my friends are still by my side no matter what. But will they stand by me if they knew what I have done?

“You silly girls… Just be there and give me courage.” I simply answered, messing up Mingki’s hair.

“I should be the bridesmaid and Minzy the flower girl.” Hyuna smiles, I wish I could smile like her.

“I’ll be the cutest flower girl and Daesung oppa will be the cutest ring bearer!”

“Dae oppa is invited right? Him and Seunghyun oppa are bffs!” She excitedly added.

I didn’t respond, instead I took a sip from my milk shake and rubbed my tummy. Hey sweetheart, don’t catch the pain. Let mama have it all, arasseo?

“Did you fit your wedding dress already unnie??” Minzy asks.

“No I haven’t and I’m not planning to wear one.” I straightly answered.

“What?? No~ Bommie! Wedding dress is every girls dream! What are you talking about?? No let’s go to my omma’s shop and try every dress possible!” Hyuna stands up, her eyebrows perking up at me, totally pissed.

“No dress will fit me, and besides the wedding will be a week from now.”

“Does Seunghyun oppa knows this ridiculousness?? Of course he wants you to perf