This would be the true test of our relationship.

Not the years apart.

They didn't matter.

All that mattered is that you remembered.

I couldn't care less about all the time I had waited or all the towns and countries that I had gone through on my travels.

All that now mattered was this.

Where we first met.

Where we first made eye contact and said hello.

I was shy and kept looking away and blushing. You were staring openly and kept asking me questions.

I had never met anyone even remotely like you.

We ended up being that terrible cliché of high school sweethearts.

Lovebirds they called us. You never see one without the other being far behind, they always said.

We were so in tune with each other.

What happened to us?

We graduated together.

We moved in together.

We went to university together.

Somewhere along the way, I don't know exactly where, we drifted apart.

So slowly that neither of us noticed.

At least I didn't notice.

Maybe we grew too comfortable.

Too dependent on each other, we were just always there.

We got complacent.

Thinking that the other would be there for us forever.

Maybe that’s why I couldn't handle our separation.

I used to be strong, independent.

Our relationship then made me depend on someone other than myself.

It made me dependant on you to be my other half.

The half that opened me up to feelings. Now for years I've been numb.

Maybe I've been subconsciously searching for my other half in my travels.

Searching the world.

Trying to find what I had lost.

But did I really lose you?

Or did you just leave me?

That’s what makes me wonder.

Late at night, when my thoughts of you keep me awake. I wonder.

What made you leave me?

You looked so distant as you packed your bags that day.

You didn’t leave anything for me to contact you, no address, no phone number, nothing.

But me.

Being the lovesick fool that I am, stayed.

With only your promise that you’d return I stayed.

I wonder now if that’s when I should have left you.

Why did you make me stay?

Why did you ask me to do that?

You left me.

And then I got stuck.

Stuck between awaiting your return and my own desires to leave.

I tried my best but I couldn't do it. I couldn't stay.

So I left town as well. I took the cowards option.

Were you trying to test how much I loved you by leaving? Is that what it was?

I guess I'll never know.

Please don't hate my characters as much as I do!!

They are frustrating me so much right now. They only tell me their story when they feel like it and its annoying me so much!

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Love always! Belle-unni ^^