Travelling
TravellingWhen I awoke, I woke to the reality that is my everyday existence now. A world without you.
A nurse came in to find me crying into my pillow. What’s wrong? She asked me. The world I replied.
You see what I became without you? Nothing. That’s all I was anymore. I wasn't anything because you weren't there.
The nurse patted my back as my sobs turned into hiccups.
She then proceeded to ask me useless questions such as if I had anyone I wanted to contact, where did I live?
The police came in and asked the same questions.
I had the same answers for all of them.
I had no one and I lived nowhere because I am nothing.
None of these people could get it through their heads that I was telling the truth. They all insisted that there must be someone.
Yes, I wanted to scream at them, there is someone but he is never coming back.
I heard them all muttering in the hall, contemplating what they should do with me.
I had, had enough. I was leaving. I tore out the IV drip and all the other machines they had me hooked up to and I walked out.
Clad only in the thin hospital gown I made it into the hallway. No I told them, I am not staying here. When asked where I would go I replied anywhere but here.
But apparently my act of wanting to get away from them made them more convinced that I wasn't nothing.
I was something to them, I was somebody.
I have no idea why.
They seemed to think as you did. That I was worth more.
No one had thought that about me in years, not since you.
They refused to believe that I was nothing. It was quite strange in a way.
They made me feel.
Something I hadn't done in a long time, or at least tried not to do.
And so.....
I stayed.
I stayed here, here of all places can you believe it?
I got a job and a little flat of my own here, in this town and I stayed.
And once again I waited for you.
The publican said you'd always come back to the places where you left our picture and so I stayed and waited.
For you.
Again.
Hoping this time you would come.
That this time I would have the patience to wait for you.
Somehow without me noticing I stared to live again.
I laughed at bad jokes. I spoke to people about us. I told the publican my story of us and how I was now waiting again.
He smiled when I told him this and told me if I ever decided to stop waiting, he'd be more than happy to take your place. It surprised me at first when I got here how many offers like that I got.
But none of them mattered, because none of them were you and I told them that and they seemed to understand that I was serious about that.
Eventually the whole town knew our story and I was generally regarded as off limits.
They all knew what you must have known. That I was waiting for you. And that I would remain only yours.
Time passes and I made friends.
More time passed and I stopped marking how long I'd been waiting for you.
Once again my thoughts of he's coming back, he'll be here soon.
Turned to he's forgotten, he's never coming back.
I don't know how long I spent in this frame of mind.
But still I stayed. Dying a little more inside each day. I stayed and I waited, only living now for the chance to see you once more.
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