a few weeks later:

Naeun:

Myungsoo is sleeping next to me, right now. What? He came back?

What did he arrived here?

‘Myungsoo-ahh.. How about appa’s condition, right now?’ I ask him.

He doesn’t reply.. but smile instead.

‘tell me.. and how about the U.S branch? Is it getting better?’ I ask him again. He ignores my questions and closed his eyes.

‘Yahhhh- Kim Myungsoo, what’s wrong with u? Tell me..’ I ask with tears. What’s wrong with him, really? Why doesn’t he reply? I’m dying because of curiousness right now.

‘Myungsoo.. Myungsoo..’ I cry louder ..and louder until I hear someone is knocking my door. I opened my eyes and look around the room. None of the Myungsoo is here.. it’s a dream again. It makes me cry even more.

‘Naeunnie, can I get in?’ omma asked.

‘Nae, omma..’

She walked to my bed and sit on it.

‘Are u ok?’ Omma asked.

‘I’m..ok,omma’ I replied with my hands wiping my tears.

She looks at me and pull me to her body. She hug me tightly as my real mom did and it makes me cry again.

‘I’m sorry..’ She said.

‘It’s not anyone’s fault.’

2 months has passed.. but he didn’t come back yet. I didn’t keep in touch with him.. because I just don’t want to bother him with his work. I have to be strong.. In this period.. The one who always stay by  my side is my friends.. my parents..mom-in-law sometimes, Myungsoo’s friends also encourage me. Everyone is telling me that I lost too much weight. Maybe it’s possible since I usually skip my meals.

Myungsoo: 

In these 2 months, I feel like dying. I missed her even more than my mom. I miss our sweet-times. I used to see her shining face every morning.. but now... I used to like American-girl, when I was in high-school, but not now. I don't think there's someone who's better than my wife.