My non-greedy self~
RACIN 4 UCh.18- My non-greedy self
I didn't know where I was going now...
My feet were just taking me... guiding me to where ever...
Yet it wasn't just my feet...
It was my heart.
Telling me I should probably get lost. Nobody wants a person like me around...
A person who hurts.
I thought back to the people that I had hurted.
Kino... My best friend...
Yamada Senpei... The guy whom I can't give my heart to...
It was only 2 person... It couldn't get any worse...
What am I saying?
Yet deep inside of me...
The sinfulness was carved there.
I can't let go of.
I feel if.. If I hadn't met...
Kino...?
No... Yamada?
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Dai...chan?
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I let out a chuckle to myself.
No, it woudn't be...
I sigh...
Mayu! Stop it!
I grasp onto the strap of my bag.
I try to get myself back to my cheery self.
"Yosh! Alright!"
I told myself.
I strengthen my back.
Be happy! Be happy!
Trying to push the bad thoughts away.
But they won't leave me alone.
They were like some addiction.
Why am I so.. Negative?
I stare up the sky.
The sun hid behind the skyscrapers.
It was at its peak.
The stars were already starting to be visible.
Time was quick.
Perhaps too quick.
I glance at my watch.
8:55 PM
Too fast.
I should be getting home.
I don't want to.
I'm afraid of seeing mom and... Hiro-nii.
Do they know any of this?
The hurting I was causing...
.
Probably not.
I continue walking along with the crowd.
Wondering about life from now on.
What should I do?
Would there be a chance I'd be over this?
I sigh.
Am I just too selfish?
I stop.
The thought killed me.
I shook my head.
"No.. I'm not..."
Am I?
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My mind starts to play tricks on me...
Before I knew it...
I decided to let go of something.
Something important.
Something...
I didn't want to!
It wasn't balancing...
My mind told me.
"You're right.."
I said.
My shoulder was bumped.
"Get going!"
The guy continue walking forward.
I stare at his back.
He hid away behind other walkers.
Then he was gone.
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"Gomene... Dai.."
I really am...
This is the only way.. I won't hurt Yamada anymore... But... it will hurt you.
Demo...
It's just a bit, nee?
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Brainstorming like forever!
I finally came up with something!
But why is it so short?
I mean I thought it was long enough!!!!
BTW
Sorry for the late post! ^^'
I noe... this one is super short! Gomene!
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