01 Luhan's Letter
You Left Me HeartBroken
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chapter1: Luhan's Letter
to my Only bestfriend,
when you received this letter of mine maybe I already left.. I'm sorry..
I'm sorry I left without personally saying goodbye, I hate goodbyes..
I don't know how to face you personally because I'm afraid to cry infront
of you it'll be the first time that you'll see me cry and I also don't want to
see you cry. so I think this letter will be fine to bid goodbye.. I'm living to
China today and the reason? I am sick. ___-ah your gege is sick!
I don't know what sickness is this but don't you ever worry they said
it can be cured and Doctors in China will take care of me..
My mom personally send me to China because I have an uncle there who is a
doctor,I told you that before right? hehe.. I really want you to come with me but
your studies will be affected, I don't want that to happen and you're afraid of
hospitals right? so I choose not. If you will ask why I also didn't tell you
anything about this sickness of mine... it's because you'll over react -.-
and I know you'll scold me for not taking care of myself..
just pray for my fast recovery okay^^,
I promised you when gege is already well, I'll comeback to you and there is
something I want you to know. I want to say it to you personally but I want it to
happen when I'm already in good condition.. Study hard okay and don't entertain
any suitors, I should be the one to picked the right guy for you because I have
a good taste :) haha..
so until again? :D we will definitely see each other again ____-ah, I just
don't know when.. just hold on and your bestfriend will be back... I love you!.
ps: Don't you ever cry huh! if you cry I can feel it, I'll be hurt too..
how can I recover if my only bestfriend is crying, remember I'm not yet dead.
and you don't want that right, so for your Luhan gege, promise me you'll not
cry again..
Your loving&only besfriend,
Luhan:'))
I fold Luhan's letter and wiped again my tears. Whenever I'm sad I always read his letter to remind me that I should not be sad and not to cry again. It's been two years already since my bestfriend Luhan left, I'm still lucky that I managed to stay in school for two years without the presence of Luhan.
I wonder how's he? is the operation successful? the last news I got about him is when I called his eomma, Luhan's mom said that my bestfriend will undergo some operations because his condition got worsen. I even begged my own mom to let me go to China to see Luhan but she said no to me, because I'm too young to travel alone and they can't accompany me for some certain reasons. After that I lost all my contacts with Luhan's family, I even tried calling his number but he would'nt pick up. I miss Luhan, I miss his sweet voice, I miss everything about him. Why it took him so long to comeback? Luhan gege your bestfriend is still waiting for you please comeback.
My classmates once told me that Luhan is already gone so I should stop waiting for him. I can't control myself and immediately punched her face, yes it is a girl -.- who is she to judged whether my bestfriend is alive or not. how dare she!! argh! I will not forgive her.. because of what I did all of them didn't talk to me anymore, afraid of getting hit by my fist. I became a loner and made me want to see him more.
but as the days passed I began to lose all my hopes, hope that Luhan is still coming back, hope that Luhan will keep his promise and hope that he is still alive. I tried to move on, I will erase some part of him in my life and I will continue my life without him. but that does'nt changed the fact that he's still my bestfriend and the fact that I still have feelings for him. I will not erase him permanently in my life just some part of him :')
Now, that I already graduated and became a professional fashion designer my parents allowed me to travel abroad they even told me to go to China and find Luhan but this time I am the one who said no.
"eomma I'm not going to china okay? I'll just remember Luhan and I don't want that." I said lied.
"oh really honey?" my mom asked suspiciously
"eh eomma??"
"honey, I don't believed you. You still want to see him right? I knew it even if you wouldn't tell, everynight when you're sleeping you always called Luhan's name and being a fashion designer is not really your choice your doing that for Luhan right? because he wants to be an idol someday that's why you choose to be a fashion designer. am I right honey? oh I know you well, I'm your eomma remember?" my mom explained. argh! Mom why you always bring Luhan as the topic -.-
"but eomma Luhan's g-gone! how can he be an idol? tsk!" I defended
"haha.. you said so honey.." my Mom teased and kissed my forehead
Tonight is my flight to Seoul, South Korea my hometown. I was assigned to work in one of the biggest company there I just forget the name of the company.. Sorry I have a memory gap sometimes. I bid goodbye to my parents and they do the same. This is my first time to travel abroad so I am really nervous. Before I finally entered the plane I took a last glance at this country, I sighed
"goodbye USA, goodbye Luhans memories:'))" I said and a bitter smile can clearly be seen in my face.
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