Your face haunts me.

Hollow and pale;

It used to be so vibrant.

It laughed and joked.

It made me smile

Now it makes me weep.

Reminds me how long I...

...I haven't seen you in years.

It hurts.

Your ghost stays with me

And normally I'd be glad for...

...For your presence again.

But it hurts.

I can't make bonds

With new people.

I'm afraid you'll be angry.

That you'd resent me.

That you'd be jealous

Or possessive

Like you never were in reality.

That you'd hate me.

For moving on.

For forgetting you. 

But I won't.

I can't.

You're too important.

But I'm selfish.

I want you to stay with me

But I want you to free me.

To stop haunting me

So I can live instead of you.