Oblivious

Chiao's Notebook

She's not patient.

She's easily triggered.

She's short-tempered

And impulsive.

 

What was good one day

May be horrible the next.

Tastes, desires, interests;

Most are transient.

 

It's hard for others to understand her.

 

She's hardheaded

And one-track minded,

When she gets stuck 

On one thought process.

 

Sometimes deaf and blind,

She doesn't know

That someone loves her.

She doesn't realize she's loved

 

Despite her temperament.

 

She doesn't know

That others know

That she is also good

And sweet and thoughtful.

 

She cares with a big heart.

It's just guarded

By large metal bars

That choke and stifle.

 

But one person sees through any facade.

 

She knows there's

Vulnerability and sadness.

She sees the frustration too.

She wishes she realized

 

That an outburst of anger

Doesn't change the inside

Of this person.

Inside, this person is golden.

 

Maybe the only way she would see it...

 

Is if it was written down

For her to read,

Anytime she feels doubtful.

Of herself and of others.

 

Even if others would give up,

She will always have

One person who knows the real her;

Who will stick by her,

 

To lend her the patience she lacks herself.

 

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C_a_r_o_LL
#1
this story is awesome!!!
KauType #2
Chapter 25: Tea is no Substitute makes me think. Was Chiao thinking of Hong Hua or of Carol when she wrote this one? Maybe the lines were even blurred? Both girls left Chiao. Though her girlfriend left in "slumber" by her own death, Carol left when Chiao was kind of sleeping-ish, right? Sniffle, can I hug Chiao now?
soupah #3
Chapter 24: Yes! New Chapter! More HongHua. Always HongHua. Poor Chiao :(
soupah #4
Will you be updating this with new entires any time soon?
therries #5
Whaaat?? Naughty deleted scenes?!?? Lol you've got my attention! XD I can't wait to read that! I'll be reading the rest of your stories in the meantime. I love your writing! <3
missterious
#6
@therries thanks so much! welllll i dunno if you read rated fics but there IS a rated offshoot in the works. basically the so-called 'deleted scenes' that i decided to leave out to have the fic rating more nc17/pg than xxx :) so if that's something you might enjoy, stay tuned!! and chiao's notebook is ongoing, so you'll still be able to be in chiao's head for a while ;)
therries #7
I just finished Nerds, Dorks and Jerks <3 I love that you continued on with this offshoot of Chiao's Notebook! It was nice to see her perspective and emotions during certain events in the main story. I wish it didn't end though!!! lol I would have happily just kept reading chapter after chapter X3