SCENE: Paano ayusin ang LQ/ misunderstanding?

 

a/n: ito po yung whole kaganapan ng very first serious lq nila (wala pa si baby Eira nito), nakwento na to ni Rina sa Special Chapter #4 pero not full. Extra lang pi talaga i2 ng ktap kaya ipost ko nalang para makita niyo paano sila mag-usap if lq hehe

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(CONVO LINK)

 

 

Pagod ako sa mga pangyayari. I went to Manila to observe a jaw surgery in person which took almost half a day to finish. Then, the next day I was invited to be a speaker in a university for freshmen dentistry students. It has been a full packed day for me, I set aside all the worries for almost a week now because of how occupied I was.

 

Winter had been avoiding all my questions the whole week, she's replying to update me na okay lang ang lahat–but I know may problema. And, the message I received today from Rj just proved it. 

 

So I said I've had enough, that's it. I'm going home. Ngayon at ngayon din.

 

Uwing-uwi na agad ako after receiving that text of Rj na Winter was so drunk she passed out. As in sobrang lasing to the point that she can't even walk. 

 

Bago ko pa mabalitaan yan she was straight on ignoring all my messages a day before that happened. I was confused kung bakit? Why would she do that? 

 

My wife's always fast on replying, kahit na maikli lang yung messages niya nung mga nakaraan, she never ignored me completely. That day was an exception, lalong lalo na kasi hindi naman mahilig uminom si Win.

 

Maybe tama yung nararamdaman ko these past few days. Nagrereply siya but I can feel the coldness. Akala ko guni guni ko lang yon or it's the feeling of loneliness, however, I wasn't wrong.

 

So I packed my clothes, booked the earliest flight I could find, and was almost speedrunning all the other appointments I had—which thankfully puro meals with professors, surgeons, and hospital owners lang naman.

 

Most of them were inviting me again to be a guest speaker, yung iba gusto pa akong i-hire as a professor in different universities like UE and SWU, parehas malayo sa wife ko. Sinabihan ko nalang na I'll have to think about it, okay lang naman sakin mag-turo.

 

Going back, successful naman yung paghahanap ko ng earliest flight to CDO. Sleep never visited me habang nasa eroplano because I was thinking of Winter.

 

When I finally got home ang nasa isip ko lang ay to confront her. I was also worried na baka wala siya sa bahay dahil hindi ko naman sinabing uuwi ako, pero naabutan ko naman siya sa garage namin.

 

 

She's just staring blankly at the unfinished painting she had been working on, hindi ko alam kung ilang oras na siyang nandito. Though I can confirm that her tools were untouched.

 

"Winter. Let's talk."

 

Hindi niya ako hinarap agad. Except alam kong narinig niya ko. She must also be surprised that I'm here. I'm sure she heard me talk with Ate Seulgi sa may sala pagkarating ko kaya I doubt she wasn't expecting me. Iniwan ko lang yung mga maletang dala ko sa sala and went straight to her.

 

"What was that? Naglasing ka daw sabi ni Rj sakin? Bakit hindi ko alam, Win?" I said again, she's still not answering at hindi niya pa ako hinaharap.

 

"It was nothing. Nakauwi ka na pala, you didn't text me. Musta yung surgery?" she finally spoke.

 

"What's the use of texting if you had been ignoring me? What's our problem ba Winter? What happened?" I said. I just stayed in my position, nakatayo sa likod niya with some distance. For some reason I couldn't walk closer. I felt like kailangan muna namin ng safe distance while talking this out.

 

I heard a sigh.

 

"Wala, nothing important." She answered.

 

Napapikit ako. May mga kailangan pa akong asikasuhin sa Manila pero mas ginusto kong umuwi nalang because of what I heard. Hindi ko naman siya sinisisi, I'm just frustrated.

 

I thought may masamang nangyari. I was so damn worried that I couldn't even sleep properly.

 

Tapos ito?

 

She won't even tell me a thing. Do I look like I can read minds?

 

"Win, umuwi ako agad para sayo. Yet here I am, still figuring out what the hell happened."

 

"Hindi ko naman sinabing umuwi ka. See? It's just an inconvenience na umuwi ka pa para sakin lang. Kaya nga ayokong sabihin sayo, Rina. Kasi alam kong kahit anong pigil ko sayo hindi ka naman makikinig. And right now, you just proved my point." she answered, ngayon hinarap niya na ako and I can see the pain in her eyes.

 

What happened, Win?

 

"It's because I want to know what's wrong, Winter.  Hindi naman ako naiinis na umuwi ako para sayo, because you’re my wife. How many times do I need to repeat to you that you always come first. Ang sakin lang naman is palagi mo nalang nililihis yung topic kapag tinatanong kita sa messages. We're already married yet you still won't tell me .”

 

Nakita kong napapikit nanaman siya at napahinga ng malalim. Hindi niya ako matataboy ulit, not again. I'm still not breaking my eye contact with her kahit ilang beses pa niyang iwasan yung tingin ko.

 

“Hindi mo naiintindihan yung pinanggagalingan ko. I don’t want to be an inconvenience, Rina.”

 

“Kung ganyan pa rin yung iniisip mo then you also don’t get me.”

 

"I just don't want to worry you for something na hindi naman importante."

 

"But I'm worried!" I wasn't expecting na mapapalakas yung pagkasabi ko niyan. I was also surprised na I raised my voice at her, she must've been taken aback base sa slight na paglaki ng mata niya.

 

I felt guilty…I was about to take it back, pero lumalamang pa yung frustrations ko ngayon dahil I'm still clueless kung ano bang nangyari. Bakit kami napunta sa ganito?

 

I heard her sigh again. This time hinarap niya na ako ng maayos. 

 

"Now's not the right time to talk. You and I are both worked up, we'll never get each other's point." She calmly said. "Let's take a breather muna, pwede?"

 

I nodded. She's right…We need to cool down first, lalo na ako. Mas lalo lang akong nag-guilty because of how Winter handled the situation in the softest way.

 

“I’ll..I’ll just wash up first.” I said.

 

“I’ll be driving muna, I assure you I'll be back in an hour.” sagot niya naman.

 

Sino naman ako para pigilan siya to drive, kaya I nodded nalang. “Take care. Get back in one piece.” 

 

"I will." 

 

Hindi ko na siya hinantay umalis kasi ako na yung naunang maglakad papunta sa loob ng bahay. Ate Seulgi was just washing some dishes when I arrived.

 

"You guys good?" She asked.

 

"Not yet, nagpapalamig muna ate." 

 

"Maaayos rin yan, may icecream nga pala sa ref. Pahinga ka muna, mabilis lang naman yun magpahangin si Wintot." 

 

I just smiled at her at nagpaalam na muna paakyat sa sarili kong room.

 

I need a cold shower.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Winter’s POV

 

Okay.

 

May kasalanan ako.

 

And I know na hindi kami magkakaintindihan ni Rina kung parehas lang mainit yung ulo namin, so I suggested magpalamig muna.

 

Kahit sabihin pang kailangan namin mag-usap, hindi pa rin gagana kung ang nasa isip lang naming dalawa ay ma-validate yung sari-sarili naming nararamdaman. It's just not going to end up well kung ganyan.

 

Yes, I had been avoiding her and I know na mali ako sa ginawa kong ‘yun. Pero ginawa ko pa rin, shunga lang. 

 

That's why I’m not gonna run away from that, ineexpect ko nang papagalitan ako ni Rina dahil diyan. Kaya I’m clearing my mind right now because gusto kong hindi ako pangunahan ng mga sarili kong reasons to why I did that. I'm going to be full on transparent sa misis ko.

 

Akala ko talaga I can keep my cool. Pero to be honest with you…gusto ko nalang maiyak when I heard her voice kanina. I didn't even realize I was already missing her this much until I felt her presence just beside me. 

 

Gusto ko nalang bigla maging vulnerable with her, flash h