"The Pain I'm Enduring For You"

Nothing was making sense. Wooyoung's head was overwhelmed these days and he felt like he was going crazy. He couldn't talk much about it, actually, he couldn't talk about it at all, he was afraid that he'll end up hurting them, he couldn't risk his friends getting hurt because of him.

His mind was taking him places, dark places he never thought he will have to think about but here he is, sitting on his bed with nothing other than his messed up thoughts. In his hands, he had a pile of papers, some looked old others brand new. At first sight, they looked like nothing important but how wrong can we be?

It's been going on for weeks now, Wooyoung was receiving these very disturbing letters. "I love you but I hate the others," kind of letters, whoever wrote them made sure to repeat the same sentence every time just to make Wooyoung feel that he was the only special onebut also, to make him feel like it's a threat to the rest of the team. This person wrote down details, details about Wooyoung's everyday life with the members, their schedules, where they went, what they did, and even what they had for lunch. Wooyung became paranoid, looking over s' shoulders every day, looking around himself for any clues that could lead him to this psychopath without hurting them.  

But it's getting the best out of him, he's tired. He doesn't know for how long he should be keeping this to himself, for how long will he be hiding all the nervousness?  There isn't a day that goes by without thinking about reporting these threats but he's also afraid. What if it backfires at him? What if this psycho shows himself and hurt one of his friends? He made so clear that he didn't like any of them.

The door to his shared room with San suddenly opened, Wooyoung was forced back to reality by San's sudden entry. He quickly put the letters away and San just casually passed by looking for his left-behind phone "We're getting take-outs," San said, "What do you want to eat?" he asked making Wooyoung stare for a second 

"You're going by yourself to get it?" he was worried, San can't just go by himself with this psychopath out there following their every move 

"No," San shrugged, "Seonghwa is coming along too, why?"

"Can't we just order or something?" Wooyoung scoffed trying to make it a casual conversation, trying to hide the reality behind his concern 

"The weather is nice outside, we thought we could go for a walk bring the food and come back," 

"Well," it was nothing but a casual and normal conversation but Wooyoung was deeply worried, this person was getting under his skin, getting his way around his mind, Wooyoung was clearly becoming paranoid "Can I come too?" he asked "Sure," San replied almost immefiately while reaching for his jacket. 

Sure, it wasn't a special request or anything San was more than happy to have Wooyoung tag along with them and go for a walk except that Wooyoun was acting strange the whole way to the restaurant. Seonghwa noticed how the younger would look behind and around himself as if he was expecting someone to be there "Everything's alright Wooyoung?" Seonghwa asked making the younger perplexed "Who? Me?" Wooyoung looked around himself once more "Yeah, I'm fine," nothing much was said after that but Seonghwa could clearly see how strange Wooyoung was acting. San came back as soon as he placed their order and the three of them sat down at one of the tables waiting