Some people believe in fate

Others say it’s a complete bull

But that didn’t stop me

 

I know its weird

always thinking

 

‘if its meant to be it will be’

 

bull

 

we’re both cowards

Look at us now

 

Crying over spilled milk

 

“Are we going to be alright? What if this is our last chance an-

 

“It’s okay, I’m here. I won’t go anywhere. We’ll get through this, together” 

 

at least now, we both know where we stand

 

You told me everything

your thoughts

all bare

 

I feel like I’m on cloud nine

 

you stayed with me

and when I woke up, you’re gone

 

‘August sipped away Like a bottle of wine 'Cause you were never mine’

 

you were never mine

 

I guess its time to face the real world now

Last night was a good dream

 

Today

 

A new beginning

for the both of us

 

 

Incoming call

 

“Where the hell are you?”

 

“Home”

 

“Seungwan you know that its Joohyun wedding today, right?”

 

of course, she was with me last night

one last time

 

“It’s an afternoon wedding Joy, Seulgi is going to pick you up”

 

“Bold of you to assume we’re talking, Can you believe it? I kissed her and she's stared at me like I'm some crazy woman”

 

"Are you guys a thing? or not?"

 

"I've been giving her hints seungwan!" 

 

"okay okay no need to shout at me"

 

"whatever, I didn't call you to talk about my lovelife"

 

“So, I’m the one picking you up? that’s why you called?”

 

“Yes and no, I also called you because I just wanted to know if you guys are okay”

 

“who?”

 

“you know who”

 

“Its fine”

 

pain

 

“That’s good. I assume you finally got your answer?”

 

“yes, just sad though. We both could’ve hit it off if we weren’t cowards”

 

“agreed, but you did your best seungwan. I’m proud of you guys”

 

“proud? because we missed our chance? that we choose to move on with our own lives?”

 

“ if you put it that way? Look, you told her how you feel before right? when things aren’t that complicated, she had the choice that time. The second time around is when you are in Tokyo, you had your chance to move on. I’m glad you tried, you wouldn’t have met Sana. The fact that you brought someone Home doesn’t sit well with Joohyun, you remember what happened right? If I didn’t step up that day you guys would make a scene and bam! complete mess”

 

“Yeah, I still don’t like you called her my ex-girlfriend”

 

“She’s acting like one okay? to continue. I’m proud of you guys because despite of every push and pull you guys finally talked it out. Should I say it’s a closure? maybe”

 

yeah maybe

 

“Another question”

 

“shoot”

 

“She went there last night, right?”

 

“yes”

 

“I take it back, it is a closure”

 

“But we did promise each other one thing”

 

“that if the Universe allows u-

 

“Ah the Universe thing? you guys believe to that? whatever, I'm done talking to you”

 

“okay?”

 

“I’m at your door open up dumbo”

 

you hugged me real tight

 

“are you sure you wanted to attend the wedding?”

 

“Yeah”

 

I want to see her in wearing a wedding dress

It’s not ours, but being there counts

 

“How about I treat you for breakfast?”

 

“okay? this is the first time you wanted to pa-

 

“you can say no!”

 

 

 

I’m so nervous

I feel like crying again

 

Should I steal you from your soon-to-be husband?

It’s not too late

 

we cou-

 

Incoming call

 

Joohyun?

 

what the ?

 

“you’re coming right?”

 

“I’m actually here already, the ceremony is about to start why did you call?”

 

“I-I just wanted to hear your voice before... you know”

 

“nervous? me too”

 

“seungwan”

 

 

“I love you”

 

end of call

 

'Cancel plans just in case you'd call'

 

The doors opened

there you are

 

So much for summer love and saying 'us' 

 

You look so good

I envy him

 

'back when we are still changin' for the better  for me it was enough, it was enough'

 

this

 

You looked at me

I swear, I wanted to run with you right now

 

'Cause you weren't mine to lose   you weren't mine to lose,no'

 

I couldn’t stay still

kept on telling joy to hold on me

 

I might do something I’ll regret late-

 

“Do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, in sickness and health, to love, honor and obey, in good times and woe, for richer or poorer, keeping yourself solely unto him for as long as you both shall live?”

 

'but do you remember? Back when I was living for the hope if it all,

 for the hope of it all'

 

 

“I-

 

please say no 

 

 

“I Do”

 

 

Are you sure?

 

--

 

 

I don’t belong here

 

can I take you home with me?

 

What if you’re right?

that last night was our last chance

 

“There you are”

 

“Hi”

 

Let’s run away

 

“Joohyun, you’re so beautiful”

 

“I know, you can’t stop looking at me”

 

“is it not allowed now? since you’re married”

 

“Married or not, if its you then why not?”

 

“How about I take you home tonight?”

 

playing with fire

 

“tempting, but no”

 

“But I think you could kiss me right now”

 

“Right here? in front of everyone? in front of your lovely husband?”

 

“Why not? He deserves to know where my hearts belong to”

 

no

 

“I can’t believe you’re the same woman who said earlier ‘I Do’ to him”

 

“I wanted to say no but you came into my mind that time so I said yes. I remembered our promise”

 

you

 

“Are we just gonna talk all night here? we could do better you know”

 

“Again, I’m not going to kiss you in front of everyone”

 

“What about you come with me, There’s a bathroom nearby. They won’t notice us being gone for a couple of minutes”

 

Oh, dear Lord

Help me

 

“You just got married and you-

 

“do want to or not?”

 

it

 

and we went to the said bathroom

 

“Why is this bathroom so bi-

 

she immediately attacked my lips the moment I closed the door

 

“eager that much?”

 

you just hummed

 

If I know this what it feels like kissing you

I should’ve kissed you a long time ago

Suho is one lucky bastard

 

Sana

 

No

 

I stopped

before everything gets out of hand

as if its not out of hand already

 

“I didn’t know you have a thing for a married wom-

 

“Joohyun?”

 

Good thing I locked the door or we are both dead

 

“Yeah just fixing my dress, give me a minute”

 

and he’s gone

 

“What’s so funny?”

 

“Us”

 

Shut up

 

“We should go back”

 

stay 

 

”Seungwan”

 

“yeah?”

 

“I love you”

 

I know Joy will beat my if she knew what I’m about to say

 

 

“I hate you but I love you too”

 

--

 

It’s been...

 

How long?

 

A month?

 

no, I wish it was

 

3 years to be precise

 

Sana and I parted ways

She’s been patient with me

She’s the best, really

 

She deserves better

someone who will love her

someone who’s not holding back

 

 

“You came all the way here to Tokyo, just to say that?”

 

“I’m sorry”

 

“I should be mad at you, but we were friends before we even decided to date. I knew it from the start that you won’t be able to move on from her. If I were on your shoes, I’d be falling head over heels for her too”

 

“a good dream”

 

“Exactly. Look, I’m not mad you maybe just sad? but totally not mad”

 

“I’m sorry, you waited for me. I should’ve told you fr-

 

“Don’t blame yourself, we both decided to wait and see where it goes right? No need to be sorry”

 

“Thank you. Promise me you won’t date someone like me again”

 

“Like what? someone who believes in fate?”

 

“Shut up”

 

for the record,

 

I never regretted meeting you

even if it’s just temporary

at least we tried

 

 

Joohyun

 

 

I miss you

 

 

--

 

 

 

“What if no one shows up?”

 

“We will buy the whole store if no one shows up, right joy?”

 

“Don’t be so negative! people will show up, wait and see”

 

Today is the grand opening of Seulgi’s coffee shop

I hope you’re here with us

 

I almost forg-

 

“Unnie! I’m sorry I- where’s everybody? guess I’ll come back later?”

 

that’s Yeri

 

You would love her

She’s like you, but more annoying

 

“Seungwan-unnie! miss me?”

 

clingy too

just like you

 

everything reminds me of you 

 

“Get off me you brat, aren’t you supposed to be at school?”

 

If you’re here

you would be say the same thing to her too

 

“you’re no fun seungwannie  that’s why Joy and seulgi unnie is my favorite!”

 

this kid

 

“oh no, we’re just your favorite because Seulgi here spoils you too much”

 

If you’re here with us

you would join the banter

 

I miss you

 

I can’t stop thinking about you

 

I know

 

pathetic

 

I jus-

 

“Unnie”

 

“Huh?”

 

“you’re spacing out again, thinking about her?”

 

I hate it when they all look at me like that

like some pathetic teenager who can’t move on

 

I hate it so much

I hate you

 

for making me feel this way

for leaving me like this

for everything

 

I love you

 

 

--

 

a/n 

 

Didn't update this yesterday because I was busy screaming and crying lol,, I HOPE I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO CRIED WHEN WENDY SANG HER PART?! DAMN?? THE VOCALS?? 

 

movinggggg onnnn 

 

thoughts?