I love my job

but working like this late? ugh

I’m getting that vacation leave

I know my boss won’t say anything about it

Considering I’m her best worker here

not bragging just stating facts

Incoming call

I had to check who was it first

you wouldn’t know if it’s joohyun

or just Joy being Joy

“hey joo, what’s up?”

“first of all, did you just got off from work? second, really seungwan-ah? joo?”

I had to laugh to that

 “why? I think it’s cute. I never question you when you called me ‘my hamtaro’

“you look like a hamster!”

” then back off to my joo!”

“fine call me whatever you want”

then can I call you mine?

NO SEUNGWAN STOP!

” Why did you call?”

“I was wondering if you’re free tomorrow”

I’m guessing your boyfriend is busy

and you want me to take his place

“yes why?”

“I have an extra ticket for an art exhibit...um I was hoping you know”

Bingo

“sure, send me the address and I’ll see you there”

“great! you’re the best seungwan-ah!”

anything for you

“as much as I want to talk to you, sorry but I need to end this call... I-I have some work to finish”

“yah don’t overwork yourself you just got home, I’ll see you tomorrow okay? goodnight!”

“Goodnight, Joo”

I need a drink

crazy how I feel like the night I confessed to you never happened

I’m starting to think that it’s just a dream

but why does it hurt so much

(flashback)

“I love you”

“you know I love you too rig-

“N-no Joohyun, I’m in love with you”

“seungwan”

“I’m so sorry I left you, I had no choice. This thing I’m feeling for you isn’t healthy and fair for you, I’m supposed to be your friend Hyun. I can’t stand looking at you being happy with someone that isn’t me, you’re so happy with him and I keep on wishing it was me. I’m sorry for not telling you this sooner Hyun. I-I’m so scared that I just decided to ran away from you”

this is it, this is me trying

I’m taking my shot

“and If you feel weird about it which I totally understand, you can leave and never look back. We can pretend none of this happened and move on with our own lives”

please say something

“I’m sorry, seungwan”

atleast you said something before you left

but the thing is you never left

A week after you came back

like nothing happened

it’s okay Joohyun, I understand

(present)

“We’re spending the New Year’s Eve at Seulgi’s place. it’s a big party better get yourself ready who knows you might find someone interesting there”

“I want to say yes but I can’t joy”

“excuse me? Did you just decline a party? It’s a Big one! you’re going to regret not saying yes to me!”

“I made plans with Joohyun maybe next time”

“she has boyfriend, right? why not spend it with him?”

“she spent Christmas with him and He’ll be spending his Eve with his family”

“so why can’t Joohyun come home to hers?”

“She wanted to spend it with me first then she’ll just catch a train in the morning to see her family”

“you guys are weird”

“what about it? were doing great, so far”

“I think it’s a bad idea, she now knows how you feel about her, isn’t that weird enough to go back to being friends? did she even told you how she feels about it? no right? its weird for me”

I wish it was that easy Joy

“it is weird but you know we’ve been friends for like what? 12 years? I don’t want to throw that away, never again”

“well, if you change your mind you can bring her too you know”

I didn’t

because I have a feeling this will be the last time

us spending time together

“The food is ready!”

“put that down first and come here take a picture with me”

we look good together

“only 2 minutes left huh”

“yeah, I’m so glad I’m spending this eve with you”

we’re at our old shared apartment

you insisted to spend it here instead of mine

because in your own words

‘this place hold memories of us’

can’t say no to that

it witnessed our highs and Lows

I miss this place so much

“say seungwan, what is your last wish before this year ends”

I wish for your happiness Joohyun

“I wish for another year with you”

you look like you’re about to cry

“I’m not going anywhere”

and when the fireworks lights up the sky

I promised myself that I’ll move on from you

a fresh start

I took a glace at you

you look good tonight

I could look at you forever

“seungwan”

oh, now  you're staring back 

I can't read your eyes 

“yes Joohyun?”

“I-I”

tell me

“nothing, I-I just wanted to say thank you”

is that what you really wanted to say?

“no need to thank me Hyun, Now come on let’s eat before the food gets cold!”

laughter filled the room 

some things are better left unsaid