Chapter 5: Thank You For My Broken Heart

Without You, I'm Nothing [Will Discontinue]

Lisa’s POV

I saw her again...after nine ing months of trying to redeem myself and be a better person again, she shows up and act as if nothing happened. Why? Why is she still trying to tear me down? Is finding out she's been cheating on me with most of my college classmates or having her caught in the act going down with another girl in my own bed and leaving as if it's 'okay' or humiliating me by forcing me to do it with her every time her urges arise in public despite knowing there are cameras around not enough? I hate her. I ing hate her. But most of all, I hate myself for falling in love with someone who NEVER felt the same. I've spent two years of my life for nothing then she has the nerve to show up at our company and expect me to help her? What the is that?! No! I did not find myself just to go back to the miserable person I was months ago. I will not let her rule over me again. I am much better than her and I believe I was given the chance because I know I am better off with someone else... I just wish I have the courage to tell her. Argh! Why do I have to be so weak?

Rosé’s POV

We got back inside the room and I saw Jennie looking at Lisa as if making fun of her. I have been trying my best to calm my down because of Lisa and her dad; but I am so close to killing someone.

"Like I said I like the presentation but I like the one who presented it better. Should we agree with this proposal, will she be personally handling me?" Jennie asked Mr. Manoban and I just have this urge to pull her hair and drag her out of the building.

I guess Mr. Manoban saw my reaction and raised an eyebrow before answering the evil  (sorry I'm just fuming with anger at her), "Well normally we would assign one of our producers to our clients but if they request a specific one, we make arrangements. Are you requesting Lisa to produce your music?"

"Ye -" Jennie started.

"Hell no!" but thank God Lisa finally spoke up. "I'm sorry dad but if you haven't noticed, this is Jennie effin Kim, the one who made me who I was nine months ago…remember?"

"I understand that, but this is business. You know we always grant our artist's request. That's one of our assets as a company. I'm sure you've both move on from the past"

"No dad! I really am sorry but I won't be able to stand being in close proximity with that  and I will NEVER produce her music" Lisa continued to defend herself and I won't deny it, I'm really proud of her.

Jennie and her companions just watched as the father and daughter exchange their words in amusement.

"You wouldn't want to let your company down, right? I mean, let's face it, you already know how good I am and once you produce my music I'll bet you anything that your company's numbers will skyrocket than never before. And don't worry, I will always mention you, I mean, you'll be the reason for my success. Who knows, we might still work out" Jennie said with a smirk on her face. Out of respect to Lisa and her dad, I tried my hardest to stay in my position. Lisa doesn't deserve to feel the way she felt the past months; she may be a as well but that only comes out when she is provoked; and she doesn't easily cry except when she's really fed up.

"You still love me Lili, and I know that. I am that awesome! I know we've had our in-differences in the past and I know I wasn't the perfect girlfriend to you but I've changed baby; we can start over again." Jennie continued and I couldn't believe what she's saying right now.

"Are you ing kidding me? Start over your !" I place my hand on my mouth as soon as I said those words. They all looked at me and I felt my heart beating really fast.

Jennie scoffed. "I ain't talking to you Blondie so just shut up"

I couldn't take it anymore. I had to stop her from saying another word regarding how she wants Lisa back in her life. I had to do it now or my best friend will never be happy. I'm not saying I will be the one to do that but what the hell, I'll take my chances. It's now or never RoséI told myself so I took a step forward but making sure I'm also facing Lisa.

I took a deep breath…here goes nothing.

"You never made her Lisa happy. I mean, there were moments, yeah, just moments when Lisa would really be happy but at the end of the day those happy bubbles in her head pops and she's goes back to being miserable because you never really cared about her. It was always about you! You are that selfish and insensitive not to feel that Lisa wants you to notice or even care about even the little things that happened to her. Oh remember her birthday a year ago? She was expecting you to take her on a date but where were you? At a freakin' gig! You even greeted her a day late. Like seriously, you're so caught up with your 'so called fame' that you didn’t notice the one person who will always have your back with or without fame. You don't know how to appreciate the things she does to you and god, you really don't deserve any of them. And on your anniversary, Lisa made reservations at this restaurant you once said you'd love to take her, she had it all planned out but again, you were MIA! I really don't know what kind of spell you put her under to love you the way she did but man, I am so happy that you two are over. " That was a just a small part of the speech running through my head and they were all dumb-struck because they didn't expect the meeting to turn out this way. I'm sorry but I just have to let it out or I will explode.

I saw Jennie laughing and it pissed me off a lot more than she already did.

"Just say it already, you're in love with Lisa but you're afraid because she might not feel the same so you're stuck being the best friend because in that way, you get to be around her but I get to be in bed with her" she said.

And here it comes…

"Yes. I'm in love with Lalisa Manoban and yes I'm afraid that she doesn't feel the same. I love her enough to see her be happy with someone else. That's her own happiness and I can't force that. I mean, who am I to stop her? I'd rather just be in the background and be her best friend in that way I still let her feel my love. I love her enough that it hurts me every time she goes to me and talk about how you hurt her and couldn't do anything but listen. I love her enough that I chose to be just her friend even if it hurts me as hell because I wouldn't force myself on her just so I could satisfy my needs. I love her enough that I put aside my own feelings because I don't want to take advantage of her. I love her enough that I'm willing to wait forever even for the tiniest chance that she might feel the same."

Then I faced Lisa who hasn't said a word again. "And I'm taking my risk now to tell you, Lalisa Manoban that I am in love with you, I always have and I always will. I don't expect you to feel the same nor be pressured by it. I just want you to know that I do" with that I end my speech and I looked at all of them for their reactions. I saw Mr. Manoban and some of the guests smiling except for Jennie of course and when I looked at Lisa she was wearing a straight face. I couldn't decipher what was going on with her mind; of course I wished she'd feel the same but I already prepared myself if she won't.

Lisa’s POV

I was still in a state of shock after Rosé confessed her feelings to me. I was taken by surprise that she felt that way all along. Man, why was I so blind to see that? I mean, I never really thought of her more than a friend...until a few months ago. I have to say though; she looks really hot defending me over Jennie. The look on her face as Rosé said her speech was something I will never forget because for the first time ever, I saw my ex get scared and it's all because of my best friend, Rosé. They were looking at me now and waiting for me to say something.

"I don't know what to say. I mean, Chaeng, you really are a special person in my life and to be honest I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you by my side. You really are the best….and I would lie to myself if I said I don't feel the same…because I do. I mean, I guess I just realized that I'm in love with you the day I got back from my vacation. And I know this answer was way past due, I kissed you that night because I really wanted to and not because I thought that you were someone else"

Whew! I didn't care that my father was there nor the fact that Jennie, my ex girlfriend was there in the room to witness our confession. It was like a slap in the face to her actually, I just hope she gets the message, I mean, she's not stupid. I really wanted to kiss Rosé right that moment but I thought that it would already be too unprofessional of us to do that so I stopped myself but as soon as we're alone I definitely would.

I saw my father smiled and mouthed 'Finally!' and I couldn't help but chuckle. I held Rosé’s hand and looked at Jennie.

"So, I decided to produce your music but I'm getting Rosé as my co-producer. Two heads are better than one and it will help fasten the work. That's my deal: take it or leave it"

"I am just requesting for you Lisa, I didn't say to include your sidekick"

"Like I said Jennie Ruby Jane Kim..." I snickered because I know she hates her full name "...if I am going to produce your music, I'm working with a co-producer and that's Rosé. Now if you don't like that, I'll have Park Bom do it"

True enough, it pissed her off because she greeted her teeth while looking at me."Fine. I'd like to do a run on this song I'm currently working on. Can we hit the studio now?"

And just like that it was settled. We wait for Jennie’s team to leave then proceeded to the third floor where the recording studios are located. We got inside and Jennie gave us the drive which contains the song she was referring to and we hooked it up in the system as she got inside the booth. She gave me the go signal and I played the music.

Oh, ey

You don't know, babe
When you hold me
And kiss me slowly
It's the sweetest thing
And it don't change
If I had it my way
You would know that you are

You're the coffee that I need in the morning
You're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring
Won't you give yourself to me
Give it all, oh

I just wanna see
I just wanna see how beautiful you are
You know that I see it
I know you're a star
Where you go I follow
No matter how far
If life is a movie
Oh you're the best part, oh oh oh
You're the best part, oh oh oh
Best part

It's the sunrise
And those brown eyes, yes
You're the one that I desire
When we wake up
And then we make love
It makes me feel so nice

You're my water when I'm stuck in the desert
You're the Tylenol I take when my head hurts
You're the sunshine on my life

I just wanna see how beautiful you are
You know that I see it
I know you're a star
Where you go I follow
No matter how far
If life is a movie
Then you're the best part, oh oh oh
You're the best part, oh oh oh
Best part

If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
Won't you
If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
Love me, won't you
If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
Love me, won't you
If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
If you love me won't you say something
If you love me won't you
Love me, won't you

I couldn't help but be curious about the song Jennie just sang. It was really good and I can't help but wonder why she wrote it. I mean, I know mostly her songs are about heart break even when we were together but this one was different for some reason but I don't want to know anymore. I was spacing out again because Rosé’s hand was waving in my face.

"Are you okay?" she said as she held my hand.

I was kind of startled when Rosé held me. It seems like I spaced out again and not because of Jennie but because of the song.

"Huh? Yeah. I…I was just thinking of the song and what we should do about it" I answered Rosé and she just nodded.

We had her sing it a few more times before deciding on the final outcome of the song. Once it was settled, she left the room immediately and finally I got my alone time with my Rosé. I hugged her right away as soon as Jennie walked out the door. I guess it was also long due because we really haven't been alone for a few months now and it felt really good. I got lost in her warmth and wished we could stay in that position longer.

She pulled away after a few minutes and looked at me. "I missed you Lis. I mean, I'm sorry for what happened and it's a good thing that Jennie still decided to stay with us. I just couldn't imagine what your dad would've said if we lost a client. It was unprofessional of me to do that but I'm glad I did cause now I can finally do this"

She cupped my face and closed the gap between our faces. When her lips met mine I saw fireworks and it was the most wonderful thing. It's like everything was meant to happen that way for us to end up together. I know now Rosé is the one for me, although it took us forever for this moment to come, it was all worth it. I know Rosé will never hurt me, I mean there was just one time after my birthday but it was basically my fault. Rosé is the only person who really understood me and I know now just how much she loves me. I can't wait to start this chapter of my life with her not only being my best friend but now also my girlfriend. I guess I have to thank Jennie for breaking my heart before because I wouldn't have realized that the person I'm meant to be with has been right in front of me all along.

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A/N: Song used – Best Part by Daniel Ceasar

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existslikePristin
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Chapter 12: Hey, sorry to hear about the writer's block. I'm a little bummed out I didn't find this earlier, because this is pretty good so far!
I hope you get all cleared up!