Joy POV

It's hard. It's hard pretending that you still don't love him, it's hard to have everyone hate you, it's hard to stay mad at the one person who was able to make me smile. Did I over react? He was just trying to help me, maybe I did this? I poured my emotions to him and he had converted into anger. It would be a lie, if I said Sungjae didn't deserve it but I didn't want the whole world to know that I was cheated on. I hate feeling weak, and looked down on others. If I get another pity email, I swear I will kill the next person I see. What am I saying? I would never do that, I may be cold hearted, rude, and not emphatic but I've always had my limits or I used to. What's the point of my stage name if no one likes me, if I don't even like myself. I don't deserve the name "Joy" but for some reason my soul and body is still latched onto it.

My phone started ringing again, as my manager kept calling me, I ignored obviously feeling down as my notifications keep popping up of hate Comments on my social medias. I throw my phone to the other side of my bed, and curl underneath my covers. I just wanna sleep forever, I have all this free time now, and my manager isn't even going to let me stay in bed for a day...or 4. Not a single job has come in because of the scandals, the only thing they want from me are interviews or a press conference to say something like I'm pregnant or me and Taehyung are married or that I cheated on both of them. My company, Sungjae's and V's already disclosed that all of the rumors were false, but they aren't giving up which even made me lose a couple jobs. Ding Dong. Ugh! Made if I ignore it they'll go away? Ding Dong. Nope I was wrong. I kicked the blanket off of me and kicked the air in frustration. I got off of my bed and went to the door, without even checking who it was I opened it.

"Now's not the time." I said plainly and closed the door. I started to walk away from the door, I didn't lock it after closing it, so the visiter went inside anyways.

"Oh come on, you've been in here for a week!" The person said as placed down some groceries on my kitchen table.

"Leave me alone Hyejin." I said as I plopped back onto my bed. Hyejin, or better known as Hwasa follows me to my bedroom and looked at me disappointed.

"Joy, I understand what you're going through but I finally have a day off, and you promised you'd spend it with me." Said Hwasa, as she say beside me.

Hyejin is a part of this awesome girl group called 'Mamamoo' and before they released their new song 'Gogobebe' I promised her we'd hangout on her free day. I was going to say no but then she gave me puppy eyes and I can't say no after seeing that. "Fine! I guess a little time in the sunlight will be good for me?"

"That's the Spirit!" Cheered Hyejin, she then leans in to give me a hug but stops halfway before getting off the bed and pinching her nose in disgust, "But first, you need to take a shower."

After taking a shower, doing my daily morning routine, and putting on clothes that weren't my pajamas, I headed out with Hyejin in my car. We soon reach to a shop. As much as I didn't want to get out of the car it didn't matter to my best friend Hyejin because she practically dragged me outside. I didn't have my hat or mask, so I was a bit uncomfortable. Before we enter the shop, and talk to Hyejin.

" What if someone recognized me?" I asked her worried.

"Then all the hard work you did finally payed off."

"I shouldn't have came outside today, I should have waited until the scandals died down." I kept my head down, because I was worried people would notice me.

"Joy! Jo-sooyoung listen to me!" She said, I raised my head a bit higher, "What happened before, it ok. But you cant drag yourself down, the only way you can answer these solutions is to live your life, and not give a heck about others. So I need you to come in that store with me and have the time of our life's today." Hyejin said firmly. I nodded my head slowly, she then grabbed my wrist and dragged me into the shop.

It took a little bit of time to kinda forget about the scandals but soon we were able to fool around until we got kicked out the store, we bought a few stuff though, some cool sunglasses, matching hats and shoes. We went to a nearby park and sat on one of the benches behind a huge water fountain. Hwasa left to get us some ice cream, I looked at the scenery in front of me, not paying attention to my surroundings, soon I felt Hyejin sit next to me. I turn my face to my side,  and see a guy wearing all black, with a black cap and black face mask, hyejin was still over at the ice cream confections truck. There was something about him that made him seem familiar. He was faced towards me, he lowered his mask, and it was Seokjin from Bighit, he placed a finger over his lips to signal be to be quiet. He