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I always meant for this story to be short, so the next chapter would be the last one.  

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Jihoon couldn’t help but snicker when Soonyoung started talking animatedly behind him. They were at the studio and Jihoon had to stop working, because the older one hadn’t stopped talking since he entered the room.

Jihoon felt shocked the first time Soonyoung entered the studio telling him he should return to the dorms. His heart broke, because he thought Seungcheol didn’t want to see him even though they had talked a lot about fixing their friendship. But to his surprise, Soonyoung confessed he had begged the leader to let him fetch Jihoon.

Things have changed from that day on, because Soonyoung changed from being just a faint a presence, to be everywhere. And Jihoon seemed to have changed from being just a good friend to the older, to be the center of his universe.

Just like Seungcheol, Soonyoung was a touchy person, but for Jihoon their touches felt different. Many members have asked him why he didn’t accept Soonyoung’s touches. He was even comfortable with being hugged by Jeonghan. And he couldn’t deny that Seungcheol’s touches were always soothing.

But the truth is that he had asked himself the same question.

Why? Why do you go away? Why do you reject him?

I don’t know.

Because it had been three years since their debut and even when things with Seungcheol were not completely fixed, he had let go of the romantic feelings he had for the other and started anew. Because the memories of kisses and night cuddles would remain as that and Jihoon was finally okay with it.

But as time has passed by, and he spent more time with Soonyoung sharing what they loved the most, he had come to another realization.

To the realization that Seungcheol felt like home, a soothing place to rest his burdened heart. They had known each other for so long and after everything that happened; Seungcheol was still a soothing presence by his side.

But Soonyoung.

Soonyoung was fire, was water, was lightning and thunder; and each touch felt electric and heart-pounding.

Soonyoung felt like music, made him feel up and down, made him feel proud and shy, but never left his head and heart.

But maybe Jihoon was just scared of messing things up. He didn’t want to repeat what happened with Seungcheol, this time he wanted to be sure.  So he had waited for Soonyoung to give him a clue of his feelings. But even with that green light after Soonyoung confession, Jihoon didn’t know if he should cross the line.

Other members had strengthened their bond and were already a couple, only known by the group; but Jihoon’s thoughts about putting the group in risk because of his feelings or his own sake, haunted him every night. He was still strict with song recording as much as Soonyoung was with dance practice, and maybe that was the reason the other never seemed to get hurt when Jihoon’s temper started to flare up. He was the receiver of bright smiles and laughs that he couldn’t help but reciprocate.

Soonyoung took his opinion about songs with the highest importance, as if only Jihoon’s words would make it successful and the younger felt more than appreciated.  That is why he wanted to show the other he was not stone-made, that he actually cared about what was going on with them and that if the other decided to leave his side, Jihoon wouldn’t know what to do.

It had been a few months since the confession, but it was never easy for him to express his feelings, so things had stayed the same. But he didn’t want to hide behind that shield anymore, didn't want to feel that knot in his throat every time his looked up at the other. His fears about his career, about his feelings, about what others could see or say had become a great wall, but he knew he could climb it if Soonyoung didn’t let go of his hand.

So he stood up from the studio chair and sat beside Soonyoung on the sofa. The older was a bit surprised as it was always him the one approaching Jihoon.

“Why do you keep turning my heart on and off
However you want?
I didn’t say I didn’t like it
I’m just worried
That you’ll get too tired
That’s how I feel”

“What do I do with you?
I look at you but I think of you even more
If this was all really a dream
What do I do?”

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The lyrics in the story are from Seventeen's song: Oh My!

And the English translation from genius.com

****kimminah89: Thank you for your comment! Sorry for all the sadness, I kinda like to write angst, but also to like to write about hope at the end of all that pain. Hope you stay for the last chapter ^.^