A/N biiiiiiitch when I read this chapter I was like :o :0 :0 

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Sometimes when you love, you aren't aware of to what extend you can go. Sometimes you give too much without receiving anything. Sometimes, only sometimes, when you love and you're loved it's not like that at all. You spend your whole life next to that person trying to make them happy, trying to be a better person for them or trying to demonstrate how much they mean to you, but you don't bother making yourself happy, or trying to be a better person for yourself. You make it clear that you don't care about yourself and the truth is, if you don't care about yourself neither will that person, then you'll end up giving everything and not getting anything in return, it can be tiring really. Many of us have made that mistake and I can tell you with all sincerity....it hurts...it really hurts being the one that loves more.

The flight had been calm, for being the first. We arrived at the Vietnam international airport and, after a few people with oil in their veins, we managed to get down. I was so excited. I held onto Donghae's hand and pointed everywhere, everything was new to me and, on occasion, I couldn't help but jump excitedly. Hani and Sunmi would jump with me, though they did it out of courtesy since they had been there before. 

That trip was crucial for me, I fell in love with the sensation, I decided that's what I wanted for myself. I wanted to travel and go to as many places as I could, just like Donghae and the rest. I was going to be just like them, that's what I wanted. 

"We have to go get our luggage," Chanyeol said while he carried his backpack and held onto the ticket. 

"But before that, all this excitement made me want to go to the restroom. Hani let's go." I said a bit embarrassed while I left my small luggage on the floor. 

"Sure, I need to fix my slightly frizzy hair anyway," Hani said, fixing her red curls.

"More like lion mane" Chanyeol whispered.

"Says the one who's curls are more damaged than an indigent's armpit." Sunmi defended her friend and we all laughed. They always fought and they smiled while doing so, as if every 'stupid', 'idiot' or any other insult was really their love and affection for each other. Love and affection only they could understand, and the truth is, if you really looked at them, Sunmi and Chanyeol would make a good couple. 

"Yes yes we're all beautiful, Hani let's go," I pulled her from her arm urgently. "We'll be quick." And we left to look for the restroom.

"He's pretty basic no?" Sunmi directed towards Donghae who was watching us leave. 

"Simple or a bit of a dummy, but I love him," he smiled.

"I haven't seen you this happy about anyone before. Not even One-" 

"That was before," Donghae interrupted," and you can't compare them. I loved him a lot, yes, but he hurt me and it's something I can't forgive or forget, but Hyukjae...Hyukjae's different you know? I think something strong or powerful up there sent him at the right moment for both of us. He may not be as attractive as the guys I used to be with, and he may not be the smartest, or the most able, but he's authentic, he's sincere and I like that Sunmi. When he smiles or gets excited it's because he really is and he transmits so much joy....."

"It's true. He is very authentic. Sometimes I'm envious of him," Sunmi was next to Donghae with her arms crossed while she looked at the floor. 

"Envious of Hyukjae?" He raised an eyebrow.

"You might not believe me, but I'm envious of how he is. When I see him I remember my childhood. When I was 13 or 14 years old, when a guy would make me crazy, when they made me so nervous I would stutter or a simple memory was enough for me. I'm envious that every time he smiles it's because he's really happy, his eyes still have that shine, the shine I lost long ago. That shine that only appears when something makes you happy or excited, he doesn't have to pretend when remembering something tragic or cry at nights with the name of someone who's not here anymore. His pain is basic, simple. Teenager things." 

"We're technically still teenagers..."

"Donghae, we stop being young when we have to live through something that ages the soul, ours are way too wasted for being almost 20 years old. But I'm happy for you Donghae, I think his youth is infecting you."

"All of us..." he smiled.

"Guys!" Hani's voice broke the atmosphere they had,"Guys! We found the baggage claim area! But not the restroom so hurry up or Hyukjae is going to explote!" 

"Not true!" I defended my dignity,"but do hurry." 

"Let's go guys," Chanyeol took his backpack and walked over to us. 

"Ok we're going relax," Donghae took my bag from the floor and walked to us as well.

We walked past the elegant airport halls, everything seemed new and it smelled clean and cold too. I was thankful I took thick jackets, it really was cold, but that didn't take away from the beautiful view. Hani and Sunmi grabbed t