If you could go to the past and say something to the old you from 5 years ago what would you say? Would you give yourself advice? Warn yourself? Would you congratulate yourself? 

Personally, I would say 'be strong', those are words I would need in many occasions. Sometimes we need someone to tell us what we already know and it's not because we're weak or we forget it like it's nothing, it's because we're dumb, it's because we're human and we need it, we're naturally fragile and a word of encouragement gives us strength.

That night I came home late, but my parents didn't know and Sora wasn't going to say anything she was a good girl; sometimes she could even understand me better than my own parents, even when she was still a kid. Since the day she came out my mom's belly with big, curious eyes, watching everything silently without a cry, we new she was special. <>

My room looked the same, it seemed as if nobody had ever left it, the blankets sort of messy, my laptop still on top, waiting for me, the lights that hanged off the headboard blinked each in different order like always, my dirty clothes were thrown in a chair with the promise to be washed the next day <> my books were in their shelves, the plate with cereal was still in the same place I left it two nights ago and my cat was still sleeping in my desk. 

Everything was the same except for me. I came back from that marvelous encounter feeling as if I had been absent for years, being a different Hyukjae, but my room didn't notice that and that made me feel nostalgic, like when an adult returns to their childhood bedroom and their mom kept everything the exact same way they had left it, that nostalgic feeling and the sudden need to cry without a reason, something like that was happening to me. 

"What are you going to do with the flowers?" Sora's voice made me jump,"If mom and dad see them they're going to ask m."

"." I covered my mouth, I had just said a bad word in front of my little sister I'm a horrible big brother.

"Mom says that all the time don't worry," he calmed my conscience. 

"Thank goodness....I think," What was I suppose to answer? <> "Oh right what am I going to do? They're too many!" I began biting my nails.

"You can leave them here in your room, they never come here anyway," she looked out the window admiring Donghae's master piece,"Next time tell your boyfriend that a box of chocolate is enough." 

<> goosebumps covered my skin and I began to feel tingles in my stomach <>

"Can you help me bring them here?" I walked out the room with Sora behind me. We took at least an hour of our time carrying pots filled with baby breath from the garden all the way up to my room, which ended up looking like a white garden. I thanked Sora, gave her a big hug and $10 because even though she was an incredible kid, she wasn't an idiot and wouldn't do all that for free.

My parents gave sign of life until 12:00pm and that was a relief for me, I felt grateful they were heavy sleepers. The afternoon went smoothly with only a few comments and questions like "Does it smell like fresh flowers?" that my mom would ask. "Maybe it's you mommy, you always smell like that when you wake up," Sora knew how to get out of the topic and on the way, leave my mom with a big,"aawwwww."

Then mom called her friend who gave me the job immediately and said I could start working the next day. So now I was a Hyukjae with a job, good way to start a new life right? I was so happy I wanted to tell somebody... <> it lingered in my head causing an inevitable smile like when you hear your crush's name, you can't help but smile right? Even if you look like an idiot you can't stop doing it...has it happened to you? Well that was me at the moment.

I ran to my room, or garden (I didn't know what to call that place full of flowers that barely left space for my bed) took my phone and looked through my contacts for Donghae's number.

"Should I add a heart to his name?" I felt stupid asking myself that, but I put it anyway and called. My heart beat fast as my phone rang. Why was I like this? It was Donghae, the same Donghae I saw and spoke to everyday, what made him so special now? <>

"Hello?" His voice sounded through the phone.

"Hey," I started panicking and didn't know what to say.

"Hey love," my face went beet red and I wanted to hide it. <> "It hasn't even been a day and you already miss my voice? That's sweet, tell me how can I help my