"I believe you'll let me in, right?"

"But I've hurt you. I've made you cry, gave you pain. And on top of that, I've left you." I look at her with nothing but only gloominess inside my eyes as I continue, "Why do you still believe in me, after what I've done."

“Do I still need to say it with words? Because I believe deep down inside you know the answer already." She takes my hand and moves her thumb in circles, caressing me lovingly.

"I'm broken. I cry myself in order to sleep that sometimes I don't even know why did I cry. Whenever I look up at the sky, my eyes will mirror my heart immediately because I know only the clouds and the clear blue horizon can see me. I find it hard to feel any kind of emotions that being truly happy is such a foreign feeling for me."

"I wasn't like this, being cold and avoiding everyone. I had many friends, lots of people knew me with how easily I mingle with everyone. My personality was playful and really friendly to the point that I was never be left alone. But that's why I found it hard day by day, trying to hide the pain inside while facing them with a smile on my face."

"I didn't want to let them know I'm sad and depressed, I didn't want to turn the happy atmosphere to a gloomy one because of me. I succeed in hiding it until one day, I just couldn't anymore. I told my mind to keep smiling but my lips just couldn't move anymore, my eyes just couldn't light up anymore and I just couldn't find myself to joke around like I used to. Everyone was shocked and asked me if I was alright and although I told them I was fine, I lied."

"I was exhausted already, I started to avoid everyone and only buried all of the bad feelings inside until I eventually felt numb. Too numb to even feel anything. That was what made me became the way I am today. I said goodbye to everyone and even myself."

I do not know