Hearing his voice, my once-erect went down like some shrunk plant. Well, the excitement is gone now because I forgot---I ing forgot that there is a man named Jung Yunho and he is still pursuing me. I forgot to tell him that I'm dating Team Manager---oh god, why am I like this?

While in the middle of wailing over my stupidity, I think I made hyung upset. Was it because I got too distracted? Was it because my immediately shrivelled like a coward? He did not say a word after the call I made, and it feels so awkward because he did not took a look at me once. I tried to touch him again, but he suddenly walked. 'Please put your pants inside and wash up.'

I complied, but then I asked, 'Will you be joining me then, hyung?'

'Yes.' He replied, before moving out with that same look which I've seen in my previous relationships, making me panic deep inside.

He's ing sulking!

I immediately removed all my clothes and threw them in before running inside his shower like a fool since it's so cold. He sat on the end of his tub, , looking at the water slowly filling it up. Boy, I wanna but the atmosphere says otherwise. That sulking look on his face is still there, and I'm really panicking deep inside because I'm also worried at the same time I'm confused. I want to ask him a lot of questions about his sudden change of behavior, but I cannot do so---I know he'll get mad at me. Silently, I walked inside his white-tiled floor and stood beside him. He knew that I was by side because I saw him flinch but I wept real Jesus tears because he decided not to look at me. Team Manager...hyung... don't my heart bleed!

'Hyung?' I asked, tone gentle. He did not say a word and continued ignoring me. 'What...happened?'

I expected him to answer immediately, like the usual, but he instead ignored me again, which made me cry inside. Unbreak my heart....

'Nothing.' He finally spoke the moment he entered his tub, make me open my eyes immediately. He still did not look at me, though, but I guess that's enough... 'I just...'

'Just...?'

'I...think I'm not worthy of dating you...'

W H A T ? !

THUNDERCLAPPING   W H A T ?!

YOU, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, NOT WORTHY OF DATING ME????

IT SHOULD BE ME WHO FEELS THAT!

I froze, speechless. I was stunned by his words, shocked by his thinking. Those words immediately shot me point blank, giving me no chance to prepare. His words broke my heart that I really wept real Jesus tears, rolling one immediately on my face. Trying to be that passionate lover in dramas, I cupped his face and turned it to me. It might sound like I'm joking, but hey, I'm serious on this one. 'Hyung, why are you thinking like that? I should be the one talking that.'

'Eh, but...' He trailed off, looking around to find words. Being the brat, I gave him a little peck on the lips, making him surprised. 'But... I feel so inferior to you... you're young and...'

'Yes, I'm young... but I fell in love with you, so? You love me too, right?'

He nodded. I gave him a smile while rubbing his cheek with my thumb. 'Please don't think like that. I... I...you're the most important to me, hyung.'

To my surprise, he giggled. I got dumbfounded when a tear rolled down from his eye. 'Why does it sound like you're proposing to me?'

'Do you want me to?' I laughed. To my surprise, he pulled me, making me fall into the water. I immediately shook my wet hair away from my face, only to see a beautiful, laughing expression from him that astounded me. 'You look like a dog, Dae-ya.'

Again with his triple kill...! I felt mental nosebleeding hearing him call me like that. Holy , baby....

Remembering his words a while ago, I couldn't help but to feel sad about it. Is this how he feels after dating me? Does he feel insecure about himself? Without saying anything, I cupped his face again, giving him a kiss, but this time in the forehead.

You don't know how beautiful you are. I love you.

That's what I wanted him to hear from me.

I stood in the elevator, looking silently at the reflection its metal doors made. I wanted to scream "hey, it's a me, a fool!" but I don't wanna embarrass myself in front of the security camera.

Team Manager Kim and I managed to sleep together (not , ok) and it's heavenly! The smell of Kim Minseok is everywhere! I felt so high just laying at his bed and AAAAA , let me tell you how he sleeps while not drunk! He has the tendency to ing hug! Although it's a bit hot and that I don't even hug Sehun or Baekhyun in sleeping, I let myself be wrapped his arms, because this opportunity won't happen again anytime soon! I enjoyed every single moment---I treasured it deep inside me because being with him is my ultimate goal in life aside having money and have a relaxed life.

Now, as I mentioned before, there happened to be a one blocker and that pissed me off. Well, I am the one to blame after all. So I've decided to come talk to him face to face, so that everything will be finished and I can go back and finally be with Team Manager Kim! Thinking of him enlightened me, because it's my first time landing at the sales department, and I don't know anyone besides him. The moment the elevator door opened, I immediately went outside and looked around for him.

Luckily, he is there, with his bright face looking at me like an eager puppy. He then ran towards me, asking, 'Hey, Jongdae-sshi, what's up?'

'Sunbae, can I talk about the call last time?'

The moment he heard me, the brightness of his face fell.

'Oh, sure.' He replied. 'Let me just tell our gen manager.'

While he went, I stood there and waited. To my surprise, the president of the company---I heard his name is Son Hoyoung?---walked around, along with his long line of people following him. They remind me of those in historical dramas, though. He has that smiling face, as if it's natural in his face. Also, I noticed Director Kim beside him. Anyways, what's taking him so long?

I couldn't help but to listen as President Son was talking to the director, nodding off to some terms that I've heard while looking away (because I don't want them to think I'm listening to them, which I am).

'Director Kim, you seem to be familiar with Director Zhang. I saw you talking somewhere after our meeting earlier.'

Director Zhang? Since when did we have a new director? I asked myself while furrowing my eyebrows. Ah! I remember, this guy's face on the lobby's monitors, he must be the new Finance director. Also, is Yunho-sunbae's manager that busy?

'My apologise, President. I just had a ta---'

'No need.' I saw him smile. 'Please be with him until he gets familiar, Director Kim.'

I saw the director dumbfounded as the president left along with his long line of people, making me also dumbfounded. Ah, what am I doing, listening to other people's conversations? Also, what is he taking long? Holy , I'm about to throw hands.

'Jongdae-ssi!' Finally, after what felt like years, he is there, running. I want to be pissed, but seeing him all smiley again, I decided not to. So we went to the smoking area, and fortunately, no one is there, making this confrontation less embarrassing. We both sat, and I suddenly felt the urge to be nervous.

Hey, Kim Jongdae, what are you getting nervous for? Ain't you happy if this gets done? You're brave a while ago now you're a ? Come on baby, open your mouth, say it now!

'Uh....' I managed to start by giving a sound, but I couldn't find the right words despite my brain speaking to me in proper sentences.

'So, did you think hard?' I raised both of my eyebrows at him. 'Uh... yes...I did...'

'So?'

The anticipation in his voice and his eyes were making me feel guilty, you know. I'm gonna keyboard smashing everything in an instant if he could forgive me, because I know he'll feel betrayed, but what can I do, the one I really loved also loved me...

'....'

HOLY WHAT AM I DOING??? Am I on drugs? Why am I acting like I hold the placard of the winner? I was staring at my own self in disbelief until I finally got the courage to tell him the truth.

'Sun...sunbae... I'm sorry.'

'Eh?'

He looked at me in surprise. He was taken back. He is shooked. He looked like what he thought was right was actually wrong. The light in his eyes immediately vanished. I don't know why I wrote that but it felt like it. Panicked, I explained, 'You see...I...Team Manager... he...he confessed to me and ...'

'I see.'

I feel my whole body shook in fear hearing him say that. It's just the normal tone but the aura is like a parent who knows your secret and still asks you despite knowing. 'We're dating now.'

'Oh, okay.' He gave me a smile. 'But that doesn't mean I'm giving up, though.'

HUH?!