Kyuhyun fumbled inside his bed sheets for the fifth or the hundred time if he might say, since he lost counting how many times his sleep was disturbed, that if you want to consider just closing your eyes as a way of sleeping, it’s being six hours now that kyuhyun went to his bed for a rest from all the thinking his being having all day long, but it’s seems that this night is going to be challenging

He twisted his form to every direction desperately trying to find a few hours of slumber, he even tried to force himself by bearing his head under his pillow, after all his attempts to sleep went unsuccessfully a drained groan left his mouths as a sign of defeat, kyuhyun finally decided to wake up and to overlook the idea about sleeping this night, he opened his swollen eyes gradually while dragging his ached body out of the bed

Kyuhyun let out another sigh the moment his red swollen eyes met with his reflection in the mirror in bathroom, the dark circles under his eyes seems to be increasing after another sleepless night that will be added to the other previous ones

It’s been four night without asleep for kyuhyun now, look like his mind and heart likes to make him suffer or he’s a masochist who enjoys torturing himself with useless thoughts and sleepless nights, but all of this happing is against his willpower. Actually its being years since kyuhyun felt this way and to make is worst it’s the same person who is causing all this hectic feeling all over again

Jongwoon, the person that kyuhyun wants to avoid the most, and the person who is keeping appearing in his life and brining all this foolish and the pointless feeling in to his beaten heart, the first time kyuhyun have had felt those feeling, it was magical and sweet, the second kyuhyun met jongwoon again those feelings were innocent and full of hope, but they end up only hurtful and painful, but the third time is just heartbreaking and unbearable

kyuhyun have had promise himself to not let those feelings to affect him and get himself fooled again, but all the promises and rules goes to drain the moment jongwoon appears in front of him, those feeling are way too stronger than him, kyuhyun hate jongwoon but at the same time can’t stop himself from having those feeling towards him too

It all begins years ago when kyuhyun saw jongwoon for the first time, it was when his dear mother was still alive getting hospitalizes, he did visit his mom every day after school, and he had a usual scheduled routine he performed every day, first he will tell her about his day, second he will sing for her a song she requests, kyuhyun loved the way his mother face lighten up every time she hears his singing voice, she used to tell him all the time after his finished song that he’s the cure to all her pain and sadness, her angle, her light, it was a blessing from the sky when she had him

One day kyuhyun was w