Dear Mark,

I had dream about you last night.
We were walking at the grass near the lake. You took my hand and intertwined it.
It felt so real. I don’t want to wake up because I know it was a dream.

My mum told me to go to the tailor and pick up Haewon in her house. I refused and she slapped me hard. On my cheek.

I ran away from home.

I went to the lake. Our lake.
Sitting below the big pine tree. I cried. Hard.

I don’t know if I can do this anymore. Before you left, I told you I would be alright without you here. I am big boy.
But now.. I take those words back.

I need you to be right here with me. To hold me tight and never let me go.
This is the voice of my aching heart. Please believe me, it’s true.

Please say you’ll come home sooner. I really really really need you.

Love,
Your sad Jinyoungie.

P.S: It’s day thirty. I am not fine.