Dear Mark,

Please accept my apology for my outburst. I am really sorry because I mad at you.
The thought of having to spend days without is killing me. I missed you so much.
Sometimes I can crying in the night, silently. I don’t want my mum knows me crying because of you.

My mum is stressing me out about this wedding preparations.
Haewon went back to her parents yesterday, they said she need to prepare herself before the wedding.

My mum’s making me to go to the tailor, fitting the suit, and choose the wedding dress for Haewon. I chose dark blue one for my wedding suit. It’s your favorite color. I don’t pick any dress for her, what for?
But, I have a thought that maybe someday I will wear the dress for myself and you’re with an amazing suit. Hahaha.. I need to make myself happy with these silly thoughts.
Of course I can’t wear it or maybe do you want to see me with a dress? *wink*

I don’t want to get married. I don’t want to make such a false hope to Haewon. I haven’t even got to know Haewon well.

Suddenly I have the thought of my first love.

After my grandma died, I often visit the lake behind my old house. Throwing the rock to the lake and daydreaming.

I saw someone sitting on the grass, the sun was glinting his brown hair.
White canin showed off when he laughed.
With my unconscious mind, I didn’t know that maybe I have fallen for him. Since I was 7 years old.

He is you.

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