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Tomorrow will be the day Sunghoon back to school but he appears not to be happy anymore. The feeling now is like, in this city, there’s no one by his side. Going and backing alone across the familiar streets and stores, his soul recently is busier with disturbing thoughts. Human, everyone all wish to live in a security that has no worry, but the more we grow up, the more we must realize that the dreams sometimes are just dreams.
Keeping his head down and looking at the white scarf which is making his neck warm, Sunghoon is at fault with Jaejin so much, although he will say how many apologies, he cannot also make up for the wounds in Jaejin’s heart. It has been few days since Jaejin didn’t contact also not call at Sunghoon’s house to play, that’s enough for Sunghoon to know how much Jaejin was sad and tired. His legs are walking then suddenly and unconsciously stops at the square with the opposite fountain, it makes the memories about that day appear in Sunghoon’s mind. He becomes woozy and looks at the colorful lights flashing then off like a lively image song which appear at his sight, his lips slightly tighten, his heart is really cold.
- If I could make up for him a part, it would be good.
Continuing to go, Sunghoon accidentally sees the figure of someone on a quite familiar bike which is moving towards him quickly. The light from the street lamp makes this figure blur.
- Kang Sunghoon.
- Jiwon hyung?
- ...
It’s unexpected that two people see one another again, Sunghoon is absolutely not ready for this moment. He turns his body to the right then steps back like trying to find a hiding place inside the clothes shop right behind him.
- It’s has been a while we didn’t see each other, but you still try to dodge me?
- ... Nope, I just...
- Let me carry you home.
Seeing Sunghoon refuse persistently, Jiwon tries not to turn himself into a surly guy in Sunghoon’s eyes. He grabs Sunghoon’s wrist and draws Sunghoon towards the saddle behind then says with his deep voice:
- I won’t break into the place you live. Take your seat.
Thinking thoughtfully a while, Sunghoon keeps silent and sits on the saddle obediently. He doesn’t want to bother Jiwon, but Jiwon is determined like that, so he also has no other choice.
- Where do you live?
- I’ll back there myself.
- It’s accidentally become like this, just let me carry you.
Sunghoon slightly says "yes" then be silent. He’s scared but he doesn’t know what the reason is. He wants to grab Jiwon’s shirt and ask Jiwon to stop, but the statement just running into his throat have been slipped off at once. It would so good if he could act and say definitely like the day when he was at the corridor.
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Carrying Sunghoon right to his house, Jiwon’s heart is suddenly and strangely agitated. The time when Sunghoon came to the attic of Jiwon’s house, rented it as a boarding room and stayed close to Jiwon everyday is just like yesterday, but now, in an instant, the meeting has become difficult like this, it’s a part because Sunghoon said that he was no longer like Jiwon so he kept dodging Jiwon all the times. It’s has been a long time that Jiwon wasn’t small-minded when thinking about the silent movement of Sunghoon or the matter of being refused by Sunghoon, because he himself was always trying to think that he must leave the past behind to go on. However, the memories between Jiwon and Sunghoon also belong to the past, they’ve still drifted in Jiwon’s mind that he didn’t know when they would stop. They seemed to becoming deep injuries.
- Thank you. Goodnight hyung.
- Wait.
Jiwon calls after Sunghoon who is quickly leaving.
- Back to the attic and stay.
- ...
- You’re here alone, who will take care of you when you’re sick? Last time you still had me, but now how do you intend?
Sunghoon smiles and replies:
- I’m okay. I don’t wanna bother you. You should come home, it’s late at night.
- Shooing me quickly like this? At least you should say more a bit.
- So strange... Maybe I’m not close to you anymore, so I enjoy keeping my heart calmer.
Jiwon doesn’t reply, or to be exact, he has nothing to reply. He has never stopped thinking about the fact that how much Sunghoon was tired when being close and giving Sunghoon’s love to him because he always thought of himself. Jiwon was surly with Sunghoon when he was failed in confessing with the girl he liked. Jiwon led a girl, who was not close to him, to his house and chatted in front of Sunghoon’s sight just because he wanted to cover the loneliness of a selfish guy but he didn’t realize that how much Sunghoon was sad.
- You should go home. You must go to school tomorrow.
Having just turned back, Sunghoon can hear the sound of kickstand and then it is the sound of shoe putting on the ground very slightly, but he doesn’t want to stop only because of being curious. Unexpectedly, a hand holds Sunghoon’s wrist and draws him stepping back that makes him turn around. Having not yet regained his self-possession, Sunghoon realizes he has been in the tight embrace of Jiwon.
- Let me go. Here is a boarding-house, you know?
- Because I was indifferent to you, so you left and said that you’re no longer like me, right?
- ...
- A sentence ‘I love you’ will cannot make up for the times I made you sad, right, Sunghoon?
Not knowing how to reply to Jiwon, Sunghoon grabs Jiwon’s shoulder and pushes Jiwon back, the world in his mind is like being disordered abruptly that he cannot arrange his troublous mass of feelings. Sunghoon isn’t accustomed to this sincere and sweet manner, here is not Eun Jiwon whom Sunghoon has known…
Two people shyly stand opposite to each other and slowly let everything fall into the quiet space.
- I don’t wanna talk about that thing now.
Sunghoon proactively raises his voice. He really needs time to be familiar with what has just happened. From the day he moved out, Sunghoon has never stopped thinking about Jiwon. How were Jiwon? Did he stay up late or drink alcohol? Was his studying still good? But dodging Jiwon was the only way that Sunghoon could do. The matter that Sunghoon refused Jiwon’s love was not the reason, it’s just because although he could meet Jiwon, he wasn’t happy enough to chatter like he of the past.
Keeping his head down and being silent, Sunghoon thinks that Jiwon will keep being stubborn and want to hear the answer from him, but then Jiwon only says that he understood.
- Think about it tonight, and answer me tomorrow.
- I...
- I don’t want you to tell lie to me, except the fact that you didn’t like me anymore wasn’t a lie. Tomorrow I’ll find you soon. Goodnight.
Having done said, Jiwon backs to the bike then suddenly stops. Looking up at the sky, he breathes out a heavy breath which covered his mouth. Jiwon is annoyed so much. He only wants to hug Sunghoon so long that he can get rid of this annoying feeling, but… he can’t do it. He thinks he is afraid – he worries that Sunghoon will feel uncomfortable and worrisome. Moving his toecap on the ground, Jiwon stands there a while later but says nothing that makes Sunghoon not have the heart to leave again.
- Did you refuse Jaejin?
- ...
Maybe Sunghoon answered.
- He blamed on me that why I treated you like that. He wanted to feel hatred for me... because I didn’t give you the love you wanted but you still refused him to choose me. Sunghoon... If Jaejin said it, did you say with him that you still liked me?
Not waiting for Sunghoon to reply, Jiwon smiles and repeats the ‘goodnight’ statement again then leaves immediately.
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-2-
Being dozing off and then hearing a sound by his side, Suwon knows Jiwon arrives. He is lazy to open his eyes, so just raises the hand inside the drawer and takes out an envelope, then puts it strongly on the table and says in whisper:
- Your love letter.
- Ignore it. I have a thing to ask you for help.
Jiwon gives the letter back to the old spot, then grabs behind Suwon’s neck to make him sit straight. Jiwon is nurturing in his mind a plan, although it’s quite beyond the acceptable limitation, Jiwon thinks it’s still necessary after a second thought, but he needs a person to support him. Right from the start, Jang Suwon has been the only choice.
- You’re so annoyed, Eun Jji-Jji.
- I’ve talked to you about this before.
Suwon scratches his head, his face is furrowed with annoyance. He’s in a good sleep but then being waken up, so it’s obvious that he will not have more excitement to help. Thinking that, Suwon looks at Jiwon like wanting to make mincemeat of the opposite person.
- Help me, I’ll remunerate you.
- A new computer game?
- !@#$/&
Suwon bursts out laughing when looking at Jiwon’s face which is full of dissatisfaction then hurriedly gives the conversation back to the main topic. Jiwon suddenly shows his worry, looks around carefully then puts his mouth close to Suwon’s ear and says.
- Yep, I know... WHAT??? ARE YOU CRAZY?
Witnessing the panic and rounded eyes looking at him from dozens of people inside and outside his class, Jiwon immediately covers Suwon’s mouth then drags Suwon towards another place.
Suwon doesn’t want to do that. It seems to be easy but it’s not real and it even can make the listener have a heart attack right on the spot; in a word, the best word which can be used for that action is ‘crazy’. Did Eun Jiwon have somewhere unusual in his mind?
- What did you shout out loud for?
- I asked if you were crazy.
- Yes I’m crazy. This’s the first time I’ve intended to do it.
- It’s look like a hidden camera. But why do you aim at that person?
- Every action has its purpose.
Jiwon doesn’t want to say much, to be exactly, he’s lazy to say. Now Suwon must help Jiwon, if not, Jiwon must find another way.
- If you don’t say clearly, I’ll not help you.
Hearing that, Jiwon can’t prevent his very long sigh with the discouragement. Maybe this time, it’ll be difficult to persuade Jang Suwon easily, but if Suwon doesn’t support Jiwon, Jiwon will must give up the entire plan. Why can Suwon treat his friend ruthlessly like this?... Jiwon smacks the lips and thinks thoughtfully. He ignores Suwon’s face which is elastic and crooked because the fidgety feeling in Suwon's heart is like having escaped and spread to all body’s parts. Jang Suwon’s nature has still been sceptical up to now. If there’s no clear reason for the request to help, he’ll never help.
- I’ll talk to you later, ok?
Suwon blows the nose, pushes Jiwon to keep distance from him then turns his head to another direction.
- You’re really abandon me?
- Why are you fragile so bad?
Jiwon knits his brows and looks fixedly at Suwon, then disappointedly turns on his heels to prepare another plan.
- So... I’ll only help you this time.
Suddenly hearing a good news, Jiwon immediately stops like a bike being hurried braked. He bares his teeth in a grin because of excitement then says thank to Suwon in a serious manner.

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Coming back to class with a ‘forest’ of vague thoughts, Suwon slightly involves his neck’s joint then stands with arms akimbo and looks at the school yard. Oh here is the main character! His face looks like he's not in possession of his senses much and he walks with deliberate steps as if he had just gotten up then he had to go to school at once. Suwon shakes his head and feels tired because he is not clear what weird intention Jiwon is nurturing. Jiwon essentially doesn’t say much; he mainly does everything himself, not worry about others’ affair and also not want other people to worry about his matter, he’s exactly a kind of autism like this, so Suwon was really surprised this time.
Backing to the seat and slowly taking out the books, Suwon realizes the letter of a moment ago falls from the desk’s drawer. ‘Eun Jiwon has been a lady-killer since the day he was born that he didn’t share with me even a little’. Anyway, it’s due to the fate. Suwon smacks his lips and picks the letter up, wipes the cover which is full of dust. Suddenly opening his eyes so widely, Suwon looks at the letter and shouts out loud:
- To Suwon?!
Even if when Suwon is banished to a deserted oasis, he still feels this moment is unbelievable. He embraces the letter and runs as fast as a light outside, then looks around although he knows it’s very useless. That’s absolutely unbelievable. This is the first time there has been a person sending to Suwon a love letter!... Or did someone mistake Jiwon for Suwon?
Suddenly feeing that his thought can be true, Suwon shakes head and takes a last breath. He continues to wipe his nose painfully then stands still there. However, maybe the curiousness appears that cannot prevent Suwon’s fingers from opening that beautiful cover stealthily.
"No matter what, Jiwon won’t read this."
- … To Jang Suwon. That’s Jang Suwon but Eun Jiwon!
Dazed...
- At the first sight, your face didn’t give me any good impression, but after that I liked it so much. You’re very wonderful and cute, Suwon, I hope I can see you more.
Distracted...
Suwon slaps his palm on the forehead then pinches his cheek, then he can only mumble to himself that this’s not a dream. Deciding to go along the corridor, he tries to notice of people around to see if someone is looking at him stealthily. Obviously, this action is very weird, but he’s so curious and crazy that if he cannot find out that person, he thinks we will not sleep well tonight.
- Sunghoon, haven’t yet gotten out of sleep again?
Why is there someone with the entire dialect in this Seoul? Suwon’s legs are like being forced to stop by a certain invisible influence, his eyes in an instant look at a small figure walking towards his side slowly. Does that voice belong to the boy who is going with Sunghoon? And that shining smile...
Suwon hears his heart beat strongly.

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-3-
Being taking time to have a nap at the playtime then suddenly hearing the sound of music echoing his his ear, Sunghoon keeps silent and listens carefully – a romantic song like a whisper to the singer’s lover. There are some people who enjoy the sweetness like that. They always listen to songs with their lyrics being full of love when they are by their lover’s side, and for Sunghoon, if two people can be together to share about happy and sad affairs in one day or more simply, someone can use his or her shoulder to be a hold for the remaining person and then they will together see the sunset is the best thing, because until someday when their relationship has something happen that makes them far apart, romantic songs will quickly become sorrowful and harassing melodies, and no one will want to listen to them again, that’s so regretful.
- Sunghoon...
- Jaeduk hyung?
Kim Jaeduk, a friend whom Sunghoon has just known in the boarding house comes from Busan. He’s a dialectal professor who is very attractive, cute and kind. Sunghoon raises his shouder and gets up, makes a smiling face to reply Jaeduk then asks glassily:
- Is there any matter with you?
- The school is holding a surprising music festival. Do you want to see a bit?
Feeling that he is also rather interested, Sunghoon nods his head.

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The festival has just started with some songs from the loudspeakers but the school yeard was crowded, it’s even happier than the last time when there were some students holding some free performances here, Sunghoon suddenly wants to join by a song but then he’s shy. He and Jaeduk go towards deeply inside the stream of people who are holding the balloon and dancing, look at the stage and their heart are thrilled undescribably. Sunghoon is obvilously and really keen on singing and dancing. Thinking about that dream, Sunghoon unconsciously runs his eyes around but he doesn’t see Jaejin or Jiwon. This moment, Sunghoon wants to find Jaejin more, because Jaejin was the first person supporting Sunghoon's dream, Jaejin even said that he would be with Sunghoon in the same band afterwards. Maybe those statements were said because Jaejin liked Sunghoon, but Sunghoon always wants to trust them.
- How’s your feeling?
Jaeduk is excited and jumps highly.
- I like it. Do you want to go there a bit later?
- Do you want to do it with me?
Sunghoon doesn’t hesitate and he agrees with both hands. No matter what, if he can be known by many people, he will have more chances to develop his future.

Being enjoying the music happily, a hand suddenly touches slightly on Sunghoon’s shoulder that makes him startled.
- Are you Kang Sunghoon?
- You’re Jiwon hyung’s friend.
- Jiwon met with misfortune.
- What do you say?
- Come to the empty land behind the row of classes, quickly.
Looking at Sunghoon run like the wind within less than two seconds, Suwon squats rapidly and shows his miserableness as if he was about to crying. He wants to run away and never meet Sunghoon again.
"The hateful Eun Jiwon!"
Just remembering there is a person standing next to him, Suwon sits up then immediately creates a cool appearance.
- Hi.
- H... Hi.
- What’s your name?
- But… there is someone meeting with trouble, isn’t there? Why you’re so calm?
- Hmm... actually, I was forced to say it.

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Running towards behind the row of classes like what Suwon has instructed but when Sunghoon turns around, he doesn’t see Suwon anymore. Sunghoon is completely fell into the panic. This area is very large and the plants are luxuriant, how can he find Jiwon? If Jiwon is in danger when someone comes here late, what should Sunghoon do? He might feel conscience-smitten during the rest of his life. No longer wanting to hesitate, Sunghoon runs fast to the quiet forest which only has the sound of dry leaves because of being stepped on by his shoes, it rustles.
- Jiwon hyung!
No one responses.
- Jiwon hyung ah.
- ...
- You must be alright.
This is the first time Sunghoon's come here because the school banned students to patronize this place. Is it because it’s very dangerous? So what did Jiwon hyung come here for? Touching his hand on the lumpy rough timber, Sunghoon is utterly exhausted and bends his body to get out of breath, then he continues to step forwards that he doesn’t care what will happen. If Sunghoon finds out Jiwon, Jiwon will be okay. Last night Jiwon said that he would listen to the answer from Sunghoon in this moring, didn’t he? He must be unhurt at least then Sunghoon can only say the answer to him.
Running for while and he more doesn’t know where he is coming, Sunghoon squats on the ground when he was quickly tired-out. He glances at every sweat running along his face and falling on his hand which is quivering incessantly. He cries with no sound.
- Sunghoon ah.
- Jiwon hyung!
Realizing Jiwon makes all feelings hidden inside Sunghoon’ heart immediately explode. Sunghoon is in tears, runs towards Jiwon and hugs him tightly, then starts bursting out crying. Sunghoon cries loudly, like a child and like wanting to make up for all the times when he must control himself so that he didn’t shed any tear at Jiwon’s sight. The hand grabs Jiwon’s back as if he’s scared that Jiwon would disappear again, Sunghoon prevents his hurried breath but he hasn’t yet stopped all his whimpering sounds which is slowly choking his chest up.
- Yep. It’s me.
Remembering the moment when he hid himself aside and witnessed Sunghoon wander everywhere to find him and call his name continuously, Jiwon realizes his heart clenched. Eyes moistened with tears, Jiwon thinks he is much at fault with Sunghoon but actually, he feels moved more than that. Setting this joke is just to find out Sunghoon’s real feeling a bit but Jiwon has unexpected that until the end, he made Sunghoon panic and tired like this. If Sunghoon knows this is only a joke, how will he react? Ignoring that thought, Jiwon smiles and looks at Sunghoon’s eyes when the child is observing carefully Jiwon’s arms to see if he was hurt somewhere. His mind is about to going crazy because of happiness, so he decides not to say the truth with Sunghoon anymore.
- I’m ok.
- Maybe you’re not grazed somewhere.
- Yep. There’s nothing. My foot… just aches a bit.
Holding Sunghoon’s back then hugging Sunghoon more tightly in his arms, Jiwon slightly leans his chin on the child’s shoulder, shakes his head and says softly:
- I said that I would meet you today, so could what matter happen to me?
Keeping silence few seconds, Jiwon decides to go to the main affair. His heart suddenly beats strongly as if he was about to facing a decisive moment that makes his hands both sweat and quiver. The whole Jiwon’s life, apart from the day Sunghoon moved out the attic, he never trembled like this. Since a certain moment, Jiwon’s life has seemed to having only Sunghoon.
- Sunghoon ah, if you’re worried about me like that... so do you still like me a little?
Hearing the sudden question from Jiwon, Sunghoon slowly lets go his arms which are squeezing Jiwon’s body then steps a step back. If Jiwon didn’t remind him about that, maybe he would forget what he had just done. What Sunghoon did and what he said haven’t been related to each other until now. It even makes Sunghoon embarrassed more when he is facing Jiwon at this moment. Trying not to sigh, Sunghoon lightly turns his face to another direction, his palms slowly roll. How he can reply Jiwon when he even isn’t clear how he felt during that time.
- Jiwon hyung...
Sunghoon purses his lips and hesitates.
- I...
- A child mustn’t tell lie.
- I’m not a child.
Jiwon both nods head for agreement both wipes Sunghoon’s cheek bathing in tears that makes Sunghoon bend down and look at the ground because of shame. The calmness from Jiwon now is a fear for Sunghoon. Jiwon would rather knit his brows with anger then scream to Sunghoon’s face so that Sunghoon can know what Jiwon feels.
- So you’re an adult and you can tell lie, right?
- ...
- So tell lie to me. Sunghoon, tell lie that you still like me.
The more Sunghoon keeps silent, the more Jiwon is worried. Maybe because of his indifference and selfishness so he couldn’t know what Sunghoon has been thinking, and maybe because of them also, Jiwon unintentionally lost Sunghoon and then his heart has never stopped feeling regret. If it was like that, Jiwon cannot miss the chance today to redeem his mistakes and to let himself know that he must be clear about Sunghoon’s thoughts and feelings before he says and does something related to this child.
- Do you intend to keep silent always?
Hesitating for a while to wait for Sunghoon to say something in patience, but time just passes rather wastefully, Jiwon decides not to wait anymore. He slowly puts his hand in the pocket and takes out a silver ring, then gives it to Sunghoon in front of the child’s astonished wide eyes.
- Be my lover. You don’t need to back to my attic, I’ll come there with you.
Looking at Jiwon’s face really serious which makes Jiwon's essential cool appearance outstanding, Sunghoon’s heart suddenly agitates. When Jiwon is in silence and focus on doing something is the moment Sunghoon see him the most beautiful, isn’t it? It’s like the first time when he was just a new student who was like a fish out of water, at that school yard, he saw Jiwon climb the wall and saved a kitten. Jiwon wasn’t like an angel, but in Sunghoon’s mind at that time, he became an angel.
- You... you’ll come there to stay with me?
- Yes.
- It’s not necessary, Jiwon hyung.
- So before that, accept me, will you?
- ...
After few seconds in shyness, Sunghoon moves his trembling hand towards Jiwon’s sight making Jiwon briefly surprised. Smiling with his fully happy face, Jiwon doesn’t hesitate more. He wears the ring for Sunghoon, hugs the child tightly and then keeps thinking that he has reached the highest step of the heaven.
- From now on, I’ll never make you sad again.

I said that this story had 14 chapters in origin, but I'll consider if I should translate the rest of this. From the chapter 10, it'll be a new journey about the love affair of JionHoon so I can stop here, but I'll be at fault to J-Walk because there's nothing clear about their relationship until this chapter.

I'll consider. Thank you for your support during that time.