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Reaching hand to turn off the alarm-clock vilolently to prepare for a new day beginning, Sunghoon sits up and checks one more day in the calendar. Unbelievable. It’s has been one month passing. Tomorrow will be the day Sunghoon continues to pay for boarding fee, but Jiwon’s mom has been staying at hometown, maybe she hasn’t already arranged the schedule to back here, Sunghoon heard that Jiwon’s dad is sick rather seriously. Rising shoulders to help himself completely wake up when the dreamy images of Jiwon are still hovering in mind, Sunghoon limps and steps toward the room’s door then hears a noise in the living room. Has Jiwon gotten up? Anyway, today is weekend, Jiwon clearly can sleep more a bit. And Sunghoon, he absolutely gets up early to prepare breakfast for Jiwon.
- You come in.
Thunderstruck when hearing Jiwon talk to someone, Sunghoon stops opening the door. His legs suddenly quiver and he stands still to wait for the signal from that person.
- Did I bother you?
- It’s me inviting you.
That person is a girl! What is the reason for Jiwon when he must invite a girl to come in home in the early morning? Sunghoon admits he has a bit surprised, nope, actually he’s very surprised. About three months ago, Jiwon was failed when declaring his love to the girl he seemed to spend whole his high school period to pursue, the person whom he said that she was very important to him, why now he can...?
Sunghoon slightly pushes the door and steps out then half opens his eyes to look down. This person, he definitely has never met, but she looks like a girl often dancing passionately in nightclubs, she wears a dazzlingly bright red tank top and a too short jean. Sunghoon is naturally uncomfortable because he must witness this image, but that’s the girl Jiwon led to home no matter what their relationship is, so Sunghoon doesn’t have right to meddle. Turning back and stepping into bathroom, Sunghoon tries to rub his face strongly to make him more and more in full possession of senses. Looking at himself on the mirror stagnating water and opaque, he doesn’t know why he can’t smile to welcome a new day like the way he often does. He said that as long as the person Jiwon like was a girl, it would be okay, why does his heart constried now? But is that girl really the girl Jiwon likes? Why is Sunghoon suddenly not optimistic? Sunghoon turns off the tap with water runs very fast then immediately feels a quiet atmosphere. It makes the resound of two glasses colliding become remarkable. Are they drinking wine? Strocking hair to the opposite side then taking the last breath, Sunghoon knows he can’t hide here forever, so he returns.
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What Sunghoon thinks is not wrong. It must be red wine like in a romantic party, it’ll be enough if there are a couple of candles and twinkle night, and a prospect that two people embrace each other in their arm. Knitting his brows to show that he’s not satisfied with what happens in eyes, the sadness abruptly rises up and crushes every corner in his heart. Eun Jiwon can give up the girl he used to love easily but the person he chooses next is still not Sunghoon. So, should Sunghoon be sad or happy? Wearing quickly new clothes with the new coat which mom gave to yesterday, Sunghoon decides to dodge from this place a moment. Of course he doesn’t know where to go, but he just goes.
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Drinking a very small gulp of wine just for fun, Jiwon starts feeling bored. This girl has nothing fun, apart from drinking wine, she has always said if two people loved each other in the future, they would travel in this place and go shopping in that place. That’s so fearful for a girl who is only a freshman at university calculates about material, Jiwon controls himself not to shake his head because of disappointment. Slightly turning to another direction, Jiwon startles when realizing Sunghoon stand on the stair and look at him. He just keeps looking at Jiwon so long but doesn’t say anything, then turns forward and continues to walk. Jiwon also can’t ask, because his head is empty now.
- Who’s that?
- … Just a boarder.
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Having just left home and prepared to take the bike, Sunghoon is indeliberate to see a letter enclosed to the brake cable on bike’s neck. Sunghoon is curious because he doesn’t know those who sent it to here, even not basing on the post office, if that was an acquaintance, he or she could make a phone or leave few messages on SNS, why did he or she must do like this? No matter how surprised, he should check the letter. Sunghoon slowly steps toward the position of envelope then sees that the receiver’s name is his name but there’s no sender’s name.
- Who can do this affair?
Shyly opening the letter, all what Sunghoon sees is just a brief sentence.
"X Park’s gate at 2 o’clock this afternoon. From a person who always follow you."
Everything becomes little by little vague like the sender’s information that makes Sunghoon suddenly puzzled. He knits brows, looks at the letter attentively then doesn’t know what to do. A person who always follow him? In this world, his family is the only one, and this person is absolutely not Jiwon. Sunghoon sits on his heels right at the park beside the railing, his hands tremble when holding the paper, his head also starts forming so many thoughts. If he’s not careful, maybe he’ll fall in danger, but if that person is a good one and he or she’ll really wait for Sunghoon, it’ll be much poor.
Sighing in confusing then hearing the giggle of the girl sitting beside Jiwon that they look so happy, Sunghoon quickly takes his bike and leaves. He will think about the letter later.
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Sitting in the coffee shop having few customers beside an artificial lake with a very big fountain at midday, in his ears is the melodious sound of famous wordless songs: Turkish March, For Alise, then goes to Moonlight Sonate, abruptly all sadness inside Sunghoon’s soul become sweeter. Now, forgetting Jiwon temporarily seems to be good. In the past, Sunghoon could blame Jiwon because Jiwon didn’t want to talk to Sunghoon when he was sad, but this time, Sunghoon can’t do that, since by nature, it’s time for Sunghoon to realize that he has never been a true friend whom Jiwon is willingly to share with, a more important thing is that because the world of two people has never been related to each other. Nevertheless, Sunghoon still really wants to stand in front of Jiwon and says clearly his thought that Jiwon completely disrespects him and more disrespects his love, and then? Leaving Jiwon will be the best choice. Sunghoon started having those intentions on the way to here but maybe he hasn’t had enough braveness to do them.
Remembering the letter folded neatly in the pocket, Sunghoon is confused and takes it out to see again. Finally, does he should go? Sunghoon puts his chin on palm and be thoughtful, throws his dim eyes to smooth and shining mirrors used for making of window. It’s only two hours left but Sunghoon’s mind is too difficult to think.
- Your Iced Americano with twice of syrups.
The waiter’s voice pulls Sunghoon back to the present. Drinking coffee in mouthfuls then continuing to smack the lips and thinking, he can’t see the time has been passing much fast.
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Closing the door strongly, Jiwon frowns in annoyance, sprawls idly on bed and shouts out loud into the atmosphere. That girl, the more she talked the more she revealed her evil-doer nature of a gold-digger. She’s still a student but she has that bad idea. Don't think that Jiwon is so innocent that he can’t realize. Formerly, actually it’s just two years ago, when Jiwon’s family was still much well-off compared with today, there were a lot of girls who were ready to get rid of their face to pursue him but it turned out to be because Jiwon’s family was rich. This world until when has scattered into Jiwon’s mind many things really scary.
Putting arm on forehead, Jiwon remembers Sunghoon has left since this morning. When two people’s eyes look at each other when Sunghoon went down the stair, although Jiwon always looked fixedly at Sunghoon until Sunghoon continued to walk, he couldn’t understand anything, and now when he’s alone like this, that eyes become an obsession in him. Sunghoon appeared he had something sad. And Jiwon, he also suddenly feels he was wrong but he’s helpless.
"Why did you do it with a person loving you?”
Sunghoon has never asked, but supposing that Jiwon had to hear that question, what would he reply? Jiwon starts fidgeting, but he can only reassure himself then tries to sit up and steps toward the door. He doesn’t mind his appearance that not gives a bit damn, and cusory. He sluggsishly leaves home and decides to find something to eat and drink, if he can find out wine to get drunk then coming home, it’ll be also alright. He thought that finding at random a girl to chat all lengths of time would help him improve his mood somehow, but the loneliness following him turned out to be clearer. Why does this life suddenly turn back to him like this?
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Sunghoon hesitates and stops in front of the gate of entertaining park. Here is the meeting place that makes Sunghoon’s heart beat faster, as long as having a small leaf falling down his toe can also force him to fall unconscious because his heart stops beating. His decision to come here is like betting on fortune, now he only needs to see that secret person will be God or ghost.
Having waiting for a long time but not seeing anyone, Sunghoon quickly leaves his bike at the park and buys an entrance ticket. He can’t stop his curiosity anymore.
- Are you Kang Sunghoon?
Sunghoon quite startles when even the bodyguard knows his name, he can only hums and haw then nods head.
- There’s a person asking me to give you this.
It’s another letter.
Sunghoon is worried. He holds it then moves every step to go deeper to inside. This area is large but there are few people making Sunghoon more and more feel difficult to control his fear which is rising up in his mind. Hurriedly opening the paper, Sunghoon blinks his eyes under the bright and sunny sky having warmed his strands of hair for a moment.
"Go straight ahead. There’s a person waiting for you."

Both going and looking for the subject, Sunghoon is vigilant. He rolls his hands into hard fists then hides them behind the shirt’s surface, his heart hopes that there’ll not anything complicated.
- Kang Sunghoon.
Somewhere suddenly echoes the voice of a male that is soft strangely. Sunghoon steps one more step then turns around, and it’s unexpected that the person at his sight has a good-natured face which also piles up full of light affection. However, Sunghoon obviously doesn’t know who he is.
- Who are you?
Sunghoon rises his small voice.
- A person always follow you.
- So… so what’s your name?
A warm smile like a sunshine at the end of day making Sunghoon quite amazed.
- I’m Lee Jaejin.
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"Why did you say that you’re the person following me?"
"Don’t misunderstand that I always stealthily follow you. It’s just because I’m afraid you’ll be unhappy because of that cold Jiwon."
"You know Jiwon hyung?"
"Friends from childhood. Both of us know the changes of each other.”
Sunghoon didn’t want to ask Jaejin clearly about Jiwon, because if Jaejin really wanted to tell, then he would tell. About the matter between Sunghoon and Jiwon, Sunghoon has never wanted to be angry with Jiwon because of Jiwon’s treatment, even if at the first days, Sunghoon appeared to be very difficult to exist in those eyes. Humans all have the emptiness in heart that they can’t express to people around them. From the day Sunghoon realized he liked Jiwon, he penetrated that feeling, but he didn’t choose the solution like Jiwon did as no matter what happened, the fact that expressing something inner would help himself relieved. However, when Sunghoon says that he doesn’t want to be angry with Jiwon, it doesn’t mean he is not angry, Sunghoon doesn’t want to ignore the affair of this morning, although that thing by its nature wasn’t related to him completely. Jiwon torments and tramples on Sunghoon’s affection when letting Sunghoon witness that moment. Did Jiwon feel good?
Making his mouth elastic to relax and pouring down annoyance, Sunghoon smiles with himself when his mind unintentionally reminds about the meeting with Jaejin today. It looked also interesting. Jaejin was a person who had outspoken but strange speeches, but he’s very good-natured and kind that had something opposite to Jiwon’s nature a little. Sunghoon was with this new friend played some games, frequented souvenir stores and Sunghoon was given a small key fob but he couldn’t refuse although he tried. But… why Sunghoon always doubts about the sentence in that letter: A person who always follows you.
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Looking forward then immediately knowing that he has arrived home, Sunghoon can only try not to sigh. Having to leave means having to back, but it feels like Sunghoon hasn’t yet been ready to meet Jiwon again. Standing for a long moment, Sunghoon accepts to park his bike and open the door.
Stepping inside in the light dark covering the whole living room, Sunghoon sees Jiwon sit in front of the TV screen broadcasting a music program like a statue which has no excitement, but how can Sunghoon know what Jiwon is thinking of? Sunghoon also doesn’t want to raise voice. He bases on the dim light to to the attic lied in the kitchen.
- Where did you go all day?
Jiwon’s voice makes Sunghoon stop walking. It feels like Sunghoon hasn’t heard Jiwon’s voice for a long time, and maybe if he dodges Jiwon only one more day, Jiwon won’t want to mind about him anymore. Sunghoon doesn’t know why he can think like this, maybe because he believes that in the depth of Jiwon’s heart, Jiwon has never liked him.
- I was just go out a moment.
- Where was it?
Sunghoon opens eyes widely when realizing in Jiwon’s voice, there is a ‘taste’ of a drunk, it’s drawl and annoyed somehow. But it’s also because Jiwon is sleepy? Sunghoon shakes his head. He told himself that he must not think much about Jiwon...
- Why don’t you answer?
- I come to my friend’s house.
- Coming to your friend’s house but you went out from the morning to the night, you didn’t tell me anything or called my mom.
- Maybe your mom was worried about me but no matter how, I’m still a boarder. I don’t expect that she will be busy both because of me. But you...
Sunghoon suddenly stops, the inner feelings which are continuously assembled, although he has tried to push them back to inside but they overflowed that makes his corners of the eye burn.
- You don’t pretend to mind about me. Essentially you’ve never respected me.
Sunghoon walks out at a stretch on the attic. He doesn’t look back to take notice of Jiwon and look at Jiwon’s face amazed with his eyes are following every Sunghoon’s gesture.
Jiwon turns off the TV screen and lies down on the armchair then sighs with depression. A moment ago, he only drank little of wine at the food stall to more absorb the strong taste of heady bouquet that he hasn’t tried for a long time, but now his stomach is not good. Keeping himself steady, Jiwon goes to the kitchen to cook some gruel to eat for sure, maybe it can also help him sober.
Realizing the phone number of this morning girl calling into his phone, Jiwon smacks the lips then pushes the key to turn the phone off. After thinking, he can’t really understand himself. He had just been acquainted with a girl, even if he hadn’t yet known what his affection to her was, but he led her to his home and entertained her by all enthusiasm more than with a lover. Jiwon bursts out laughing, he even doesn’t have any lover to entertain. Many people who likes Jiwon, whether Jiwon likes them or not, are also hurt by him. Is the answer for that action really because of the lonely and stunted soul that Jiwon has told to himself since this midday?
Waiting for the pot of gruel to boil, Jiwon is suddenly too weary to put something into his stomach. Holding his head high and seeing the attic, he can’t control his heart again and goes up.
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Standing in front of Sunghoon’s room for a while, Jiwon decides to knock the door. Once then twice… Is Sunghoon busy inside? Jiwon patiently knocks again more strongly and finally, Sunghoon appears. Jiwon smiles and looks straight at Sunghoon’s round and big eyes where is appearing very clearly Jiwon’s image.
- Help me to observe the pot of gruel.
Sunghoon may hesitate.
- I’ll go down a bit later.
- Just go immediately. What must I do if it boils?
- Use two chopsticks to put on the pot.
- Go down quickly. Eat with me.
Jiwon holds Sunghoon’s wrist and drags him outside the room. After that, Jiwon shuts the door and continues to say:
- I don’t want to eat alone.
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Two people sit opposite to each other, both look at the bowls of gruel with smoke spiraling up but have no feeling with them. All of them are all tired, but Jiwon doesn’t want to sleep now and Sunghoon only tries to respect for Jiwon – the son of this house owner.
- Today did you really meet your friend? - Jiwon suddenly asks.
- Yes.
- So... could I ask you a question?
- You just ask.
Sunghoon still doesn’t hold his head up.
- You came to your friend’s house and you blamed me for not having respected you, those matters are related to each other… Right?
Sunghoon doesn’t reply and still keeps his head down. What Sunghoon is thinking about Jiwon and the relationship between two persons, Jiwon just want to know obviously. Jiwon holds the spoon and stirs his bowl of gruel meaninglessly and freely with the heart of a guy who is waiting for the answer, but time just passes in silence making his heart more annoyed. Why? Thinking of Sunghoon’s attitude that seems to unintentionally testing his patience and even looking down on him, Jiwon immediately grinds his teeth and beats strongly the spoon down on the table then says out loud:
- Are you kidding me?
- They’re not related to each other.
- You tell lie.
- Up to you.

Having done said, Sunghoon stands up and leaves but it only few steps that he is hold at once by Jiwon’s hand. It feels like Jiwon is using all his force to keep Sunghoon’s arm, Sunghoon’s face blushes crimson. He clenches his teeth and tries not to scream but he is afraid he will be quickly so hurt that he can’t breathe anymore. Jiwon also more and more can’t control his anger, so he even uses the stronger force then turning Sunghoon to his direction easily.
- Let me go!
Looking at the child standing opposite by the sharp eyes mixed with painfulness, Jiwon suddenly hears his heart broken. Until the end…
- Did I do wrong?
- Let me go, please!
- I was wrong… I’m sorry.
Realizing Jiwon’s hand quickly put behind the scauff of his neck, Sunghoon once again panics that he doesn’t know doing anything to react, and his legs keep standing still like being freeze on the cold floor.
- What are you doing?! Eun Jiwon, you…
Can’t say the whole sentence, Sunghoon is stunned when realizing Jiwon’s lips have touched his lips slightly in an instant. Facing the sudden situation, Sunghoon panics and closes his eyes tight, each finger also immediately curls up. His nose slightly knits, his face is furrowed then at once turned into elastic, he trembles when feeling his heart like having just lost a beat and then quickly beat strongly and continuously as if someone beat the drum in there. His body is little by little hotter and he can’t control it that makes him frightened. What is happening? This is absolutely not a dream, right? Sunghoon shouts out loud and pushes Jiwon strongly then steps rearwards hurriedly. He raises his hand to wipe the stain of sweat on forehead. He is breathless from worrying that Jiwon will come near again, then he realizes goose-fleshes on his arms are emerging and his head has just spin with emptiness. There’s no other way, Sunghoon turns around and runs towards his room.
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Sunghoon closes the door strongly and sits right by the desk’s side because if he keeps going then he can trip over something and fall. Raising his sleeve to wipe his lips incessantly but he can’t delete that obsessive reality, Sunghoon breathes hard making his eyesight become dim. It turned out that Jiwon was not sleepy but he got drunk, he was so drunk that he could act unbelievably. Countinuing to wipe the corner of eye when his mood is too troublous, Sunghoon hits his forehead on the table and predicts about a night he can’t sleep.
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Jiwon lies down on the bed and tries to find the most comfortable posture when his stomach hasn’t yet been much better, as he didn’t eat all that portion of gruel. That kiss... whether it was a moment Jiwon was interrupted of fail half-way or not, he also doesn’t know, but the special taste of that lips are still existing clearly in his mind. Kang Sunghoon is also really special like this.
"She must have been very happy when knowing you like her. Outside there are many people like you but there’s no result."
"You cannot be sad because of a person so long. I’m here to share with you. Don’t hesitate to say with me."
"I’m not a child. I absolutely understand thoroughly."
"Does Jiwon hyung think that someday I will complete the thing I hope? Making you moved."
Why does it become like that? Jiwon... to Sunghoon... his affection is more and more not clear.