Genre: High School, Psychological, Fluff

Uses a lot of curse word...

 

 

 

"I can't fall in love... rather I'm not capable of doing so"

 

 

School is always repetitive.
You sit there on that one chair they told you to sit on.
You try to open your ears and mind and absorb each lesson.
You find your friends, talk to them about how ty this school is.
You eat, breathe, smile, laugh, drink...
It's not like living is special.

 

"Jungkook I like you please accept my letter," a random girl confessing.

"Otoke? I'm poor, I don't have money and time for this, I can only take you to eat street foods and walk and walk wh--"

I'm talking but she cut me off

"Uhmm... actually I think I'm not also ready to date, see ya"

She's leaving.

 

Well if you are lucky enough to have a face like me, you'll at least get a confession twice every week. *chuckles
But the result is always the same when I say I'm poor or I like playing games too much they all back out.
Well, to be clear I don't even reject them, they just happen to not like me.

 

"Coming from the rooftop again? Another confession?"

That's Suga my best friend, he is cool and probably the most chill person I will ever have. I like being with him, I don't need to do anything much or to say anything much. We just eat and sleep all day if we are together.

"Yeah"

"So what's your reason this time?"

"I'm poor"

We chuckle.

"You scare her with your street food dates again"

"Hyung, should I date someone for real?"

"I don't know it's you, how am I suppose to know if you want it"

"Is dating Jimin worth it?"

"Since our relationship is long distance, I think it fits us well"

"Don't you want to have someone who is closer, so you can do things always?"

*smacks head

"Dating is not just about grinding yourself together, pabo"

I chuckle.

 

Class starts as our teacher entered the classroom. Time for me to be loyal to my routine.
And just like that, the day ended.

 

"Jeon Jungkook?"

Our teacher calling me.

"Yes, teacher?"

"Can you help me with something?"

Obviously, I can't say no.

"Yeah, gladly"

"I have some books here, I borrowed from the library"

Hell yeah, where else can you borrow books, canteen?

"Can you help me return these?"

No, because I wanna go home and have my late noon tea.

"Yes, teacher I'll take care of it"

 

What a mess, ugh, what time is it? it's almost 6. When can I go home? Running errands . Wait I don't even know if the library is still open.

 

Oh! It's still open. Weird no one is here. I should have...

...

...

...

 

"Sorry, go ahead and continue what you are doing, I actually don't care"

 

the girl is almost . I forgot about that golden rule that you should not enter the library this time or you will see the school's ing god Kim Taehyung, making out with some random girl. So it's true. He must have a very active life. He'll grow old fast if he keeps on using his strength in that way.

 

Jungkook pull yourself together. Oh god! He is really a ing god, that's hot.

 

, I should go home, I'll take the other way. So I won't run with my teacher again. This part of school is kinda eerie. I bet this where they beat the school losers. Oh well the hierarchy but it's not like its doing bad to me. So I don't really care.

 

*sounds of a person throwing up

 

My thoughts these days are oddly right. So someone got beaten up. I should ru--

 

"Who is it?"

A big voice. .

"It's you again, are you following me---?"

.It's Taehyung. He looks different from the one that I saw in the library he looks like a mess. Is he sick? Why does he keep on throwing up?

"Are you gonna watch me like one of your favorite films? Leave!"

I didn't know he has a gangster side. Oh well, what do you expect from a guy who changes his girl every day?

*loud thud

Oh , he fainted.

 

 

So how many more weird routes will I take today to finally get home?

 

"Uhmm, can I just leave him to you, Ms. Nurse?"

"Hey, what's your name again?"

"Jungkook"

"Jungkook, don't leave your friend here, the school is about to close, just wait for him to wake up and help him go home"

This is wrong. First, he is not my friend, Second, it's not my duty to take him home, Third--

"Okay"

 

Nice sleep huh. Wake up, I need to go home.

 

"Stop staring at me, as if I'm the subject of your thoughts"

Oh...

"If you are feeling okay, I will go home"

"Can... can you help me get home? I know its weird for me to ask you. We don't even know each other by name. But I feel really weak"

Say the magic word.

"Okay... please. Please help me get home"

Daebak, he sounds like he can read my mind.

"Do you live far?"

"Not too far but manageable"

"Should I contact anyone in your house to--"

"I live alone"

"Okay, I'll just call my mom to tell her I'll be late home"

 

Just like what he said. His house is not that far but he didn't say he is living in this condo. It's few blocks away from my house. Have I ever seen him before around this neighborhood?

 

"I've seen you a few times, you live near right"

His husky voice though.

"Why didn't you tell me, you know I live near"

"I'm actually not sure"

"Can you walk?"

"Barely"

 

He is not heavy and I can feel he is embarrassed to be too reliant on me.

 

"Which floor?"

"7th Floor"

Last floor. Rich.

 

"The view here is amazing"

"Yeah"

 

Awkward silence.

 

"So do you have a medicine? You can take to feel a little bit better?"

"It's in the red cabinet"

Never seen this medicine before.

"It's a calming medicine for panic attacks"

"Water?"

"Please"

 

"You can leave now"

Another magic word you should be saying now.

"And Thank You"

*smirks

"At least can I ask what's wrong with you?"

Awkward silence again.

"Nevermi--"

"Panic attacks... triggered by romance..."

Is that a joke?

"No I'm not kidding, my... my body rejects romance... panic attacks--"

He fell asleep.

 

 

NEXT DAY

 

It's been almost a week since the last incident with god Kim Taehyung... I didn't hear anything from him. I never saw him around my neighborhood. Wait what if he is dead? , if the police go to his house and he is dead, I'll be the subject for questioning... the medicine what exactly is that. I remembered him telling me weird stuff about it. It's a calming pill for panic attacks... triggered by romance. Absurd.

 

"Hyung?"

"What?"

"Do you know Kim Taehyung?"

I hope I don't sound so curious there.

"Hmm.. the library dude?"

"Yeah"

"I actually studied on the same elementary as him, well he wasn't a library dude that time but he is really popular"

"Why? You like him?"

How to even like a person.

"Nah... I ran into him like the last time, he is really making out with a girl in the library"

"OH! That's news, well even though people call him the dude, no one actually has seen him doing so. And all the girls that he used to date, says he is a boring guy, he just literally date them and they get tired of him"

"What do you mean?"

"Well, girls date him to put on as a display, you know make the other girls jealous to have a boyfriend like him... tall, talented, nice and ridiculously handsome"

"But I really saw him there, the girl is almost "

"I don't know... and I don't really care"

"Okay"

, I'm getting worried. What if he is really dead.

 

 

Jungkook is lost in his thoughts when Suga tap his shoulder.

 

 

"Your Taehyung is there"

"Oh"

So he is alive... and surrounded by girls again. Why do I feel relieved there?

"Jungkook... Yah Jeon Jungkook"

"Hyung?"

"Do you really like him?"

"No hyung... but yeah just a little bit curious"

"Really"

"Okay, I know I on this but how will you know if that certain someone is getting in you?"

"You wanna them?"

"For Pete's sake, Hyung is that the first feeling you had with Jimin? To get under his pants?"

"Well yeah"

"I hate that honesty"

"But as I spend more time with him, I realize that getting under his pants will be the last thing I want from him. Whenever he said that I make him happy that gives me the urge to make him happier. Male romance isn't normal. But I don't really care. I'm more than thankful that he accepted me"

"That's... that's probably the longest talk I heard from you about him"

"I have more to say but I will miss him more if I say another single word"

"You will see him tomorrow? Are you excited?"

"More than that word excited... I'll go home now Jungkook. You take care"

"Yeah Hyung"

"I never ask you this... but are you gay Jungkook? Can you possibly like a male"

"I actually never thought of it"

"Okay"

Suga Hyung is leaving when I felt the urge to say this.

"Actually I don't really care. Maybe I just want to love... female... or even male"

Hyung is smiling at me.

"I'll go now"

 

Yeah... I actually don't care.

 

 

"Jungkook"

That same husky voice. He is smiling he is probably a lot healthier now.

"Yeah... I'm good now"

I thought the police would be coming to my house saying you're dead and they'll question me for that and that sound like having a fair twist in my life.

"No, I'm not dead"

You sound like you can hear my thoughts.

"Your eyes say it all"

Heol

"Do you have anything you will do today? Cram school or stuff like that?"

"I don't have, I have it every weekend"

"Good, how about I treat you to dinner?"

Why is he asking me out?

"Just want to show my gratitude for the other day"

Ah...

"So are you okay with that?"

"Okay"

"Good, what do you want to eat? Asian? American? If Asian North, East, West or South? If Amer--"

"Something like Pizza"

I cut him off before we go around the world menu.

"Okay good, I'm also craving for it"

He is so enthusiastic.

"Aren't you going to call your mom to tell you will be late home?"

"She's not home"

"Ohhh..."

"How about a sibling?"

"My brother is studying arts in somewhere in Europe"

"Your father?"

"He is working in Europe with my brother"

"Oh..."

"Yeah, actually we have a weird set up. My parents aren't divorcer if it sounds like that"

"I get it"

"So probably you will also someday go to Europe like them"

"I don't like anywhere, I just like it here. My brother is talented as in the art that's why he is there. But I don't have anything like that"

"Maybe you have, you just don't realize it"

He is cute when he smiles like that.

 

"Taehyung! Are you going somewhere?"

"Ye--"

"Can you help me out, you know my friends are asking me to bring you along again..."

Blah blah blah... this girl is helpless.

"Actually I am going somewhere with him"

"Is it even more impor--"

"Yes, it is. You see I owe him something and it's payback time... so later bye"

AH... so there will be later. 

"I'm sorry about that"

"No need to"

Awkward silenced

 

"So is she your girlfriend for today?"

"Ah... so the rumors reach you"

I sound rude there

"No it's okay, I'm used to it"

"Sorry, I might be asking something rude"

"Ask me anything... I just feel like having a humane conversation here"

"I actually don't know what to ask"

"Then let's start with the girlfriend thing. To be honest I don't really go around and date different girls everyday like what most of the people think. I just help them out if they have situations like that"

"What kind of situations?"

"Situations like they wanna brag about something, be famous, or just make their other friends jealous"

"Weird set up huh"

He is cute when smiling. Really cute.

"Yeah... but honestly, it's a good thing they come needing for me... cause no one else will"

He sounds sad there.

"Here we are, I hope you will like the food here. Let's go on the rooftop!"

 

"What do you want to order?"

"All the expensive stuff"

"Okay"

"Hey wait! I'm just joking!"

"I thought you are serious there"

He looks like a cute puppy when he is lost.

 

We are done with the ordering.

"So Jungkook... is that your friend you are always with?"

"Suga-hyung? Yeah, he is. My only friend in high school. We used to be three, but the other one transferred out"

"Oh! Are you dating someone?"

"I'm not"

"But you always get confessions"

"Hey you know I've been wanting to ask this. You seem like you know more stuff about me, more than I know"

"Hahaha... I sound like a stalker huh"

"Why do you even know my name?"

"You told the nurse"

"Suga-hyung?"

"I've seen you earlier"

"Calling my mom"

"Last time, you did so I thought you might need to do it again"

"The confessions"

"One of the girls who seek for my help confessed to you, she got rejected though. The food is here!!!"

This guy can make me smile.

 

"What else?"

"Why? Why do you live alone?"

"My father died when I was a kid and my mother remarried"

"Your rich living like that alone"

"Well my father is rich and my mother remarried to another rich man. He wanted