Lisa's POV "Don't even think about going somewhere like a club or something. Where even are you?" I cringe as Bambam started scolding me. Like I need that right now. I sulk to myself. I called him earlier as I bawl my eyes out. Nothing is going right for me and it's beginning to kill every hope that is stored within myself. All the problems with Blackpink, Chaeyoung's condition, and my mom's last call had taken a toll on me. It was too heavy of a burden, I ended having a breakdown which I try to avoid every now and then. Should I leave? Yeah, maybe Mom would start to care. "Somewhere, away, away from everything," I mumble, my voice caters no emotion, lifeless like there is nothing worth looking forward to. "Lalisa..." Bambam whispered. "Where are you? I'll pick you up." though I can't see him, I know he was worried. I can sense it in his voice. A series of feeble sound escape my lips as I try to stop myself from sniffling. "Don't worry about me Bam. Call you soon." I told him before ending the call not giving him the chance to stop me nor ask another question. The last thing I need right now is for him to give me some pep talk. Of course, I'm aware that he meant no harm and that he cares for me but I need to figure these out for myself. Time, that's what I need and I need it alone. Initially, I tried calling Jungkook but he didn't answer. He must be busy since they were having a concert in Macau. Well, thankfully he didn't because I had never shared anything personal to Jungkook, not even something that relates to my family. For the past two years that we know each other, all we ever did was bicker and fight. Anyone who has seen us throughout those two years would be shocked to know how our relationship had suddenly escalated. That's why I ask him to keep it a secret. It is true that we are not officially dating but we both know we feel something about each other. Besides, Jungkook barely even knows me. He doesn't even know what my favorite color, my real name or even my favorite food. Everything is a mess. Our comeback... My life... Me... We just debuted but I'm not really sure if we'll be able to come back. Chaeyoung was called the other day by YG Sajangnim and her condition was checked. And the fact that Jimin hasn't even contacted her after their fight made everything even worse. Chaeyoung is a little sensitive right now and I totally understand. The other problem now is my Mom. She called me a while ago and she didn't deliver a good news. My mom and I rarely see each other after I went here in Korea to train as an idol, all the more after Blackpink had our debut. She told me she's looking for a guy that will suit me in the future and get ing engage with someone I didn't know. I told my Mom no, that I can find someone on my own but she said I can't marry anyone unless she approves it. To add it up, she decided to drop the bomb on me through the phone while I am in a different country, away from her. How fair is that? I just became an adult, why