"The smile is fake"

"what the hell are you doing?" tanya Chaerin bila Baekhyun dah memecut keretanya dengan laju,

Chaerin tak tahu kemana dia akan dibawa, 

but Baekhyun is ing creepy now

dia bukan macam Baekhyun yang semua orang kenal,

ada lingkaran hitam di bawah matanya yang kemerahan macam orang tak cukup tidur,

Baekhyun nampak tak terurus

dan Baekhyun yang kat sebelah Baekhyun ni tak senyum langsung,

you're not my baekhyun,

"stop the car Baek!" 

dan macam biasa, semua yang Chaerin cakap hanya sia-sia

Baekhyun dah nekad, dia nak bawa Chaerin jauh dari sini dan lari,

nothing will stop him.

Chaerin turunkan tingkap kereta tu dan keluarkan badan dia

"what are you doing? masuk!" kata Baekhyun sambil cuba tarik badan Chaerin

"stop the car or i'll jump Baek" kata Chaerin

there's no fears in chaerin's face, dia dah tekad. kalau Baekhyun tak berhentikan kereta ni, dia akan terjun.

"okay. okay!"

Baekhyun akhirnya memberhentikan keretanya di tepi jalan,

Chaerin terdiam sekejap sebelum dia pandang muka Baekhyun,

"chae-"

tiba-tiba  Baekhyun rasa pipinya sakit,

air mata juga mula berlinangan di mata Chaerin

"how could you do this to my bestfriend baek? how could you?" tanya Chaerin

air matanya mula mengalir di pipi,

Baekhyun nampak serba salah, hatinya luluh setiap kali dia nampak air mata chaerin

rasa sakit di pipinya tak dihiraukan lagi

"Chaerin, i've been looking for you but you run away from me. i tried to call you and you never answer. i slept outside your house until i found out you're not home. why did you do this to me Chaerin?" tanya Baekhyun

Chaerin tak menjawab,

selama beberapa hari ni dia cuba untuk busykan diri dia

dia tolong Hera prepare apa yang patut dan apa yang Baekhyun cakap tu betul

Chaerin dah pindah rumah,

tapi tak siapa pun tahu mana dia tinggal sekarang.

"talk to me Chaerin. talk to me" kata Baekhyun

Chaerin alihkan pandangan dia ke luar tingkap,

"let's go back to the hotel. your wedding-"

"look at me Chaerin,"

Chaerin tak tahu,

hati dia sakit, hati dia pedih.

but that's doesn't mean yang dia masih nak Baekhyun lagi,

Chaerin dah maafkan semua orang, lagipun dia faham kenapa Baekhyun dan Hera buat macam ni

"you dont have to be worry about me Baek. i'm okay. i am-"

"no, you're not. you're still in pain. tell me that you still love me Chae. i'll take you far away from here. build a new beginning with you" kata Baekhyun

yes i am still in pain,

and i'm proud of my heart,

it's been played,

stabbed,

cheated,

burned and broken

but somehow it still works.

a lot of things happened to me,

people leaving me, hurting me, played with my feelings

i dont know why i can be this strong,

or i am just dumb?

"Baekhyun, Hera is weak. but i am strong, strong enough to see you and Hera to be happy." kata Chaerin

Baekhyun gelengkan kepalanya,

seriously dia tak kisah pun pasal Hera atau sesiapa

apa yang Baekhyun nak adalah Chaerin

dia nak mulakan hidup baru dengan Chaerin

"i won't let you make Hera cry during her big day Baek. can you please-"

"do you even love me Chae? is it easy to let me go?" tanya Baekhyun

"no.."

"then why? why did we have to be in pain when we can be happy together?" tanya Baekhyun

"because i dont want to be selfish baek. kau terfikir tak perasaan orang lain? kau fikir tak apa yang diorang rasa? kau nak parents kau malu?" tanya Chaerin

"but all i want is you-"

"i want you too but i can't. i don't deserves you baek. the idea of us being together will just giving pains to others" kata Chaerin

ye, dalam hati ni cuma ada kau je Baekhyun

"we need to be selfish-"

"Baek, pernah tak kau terfikir pasal parents kau. they want the best for you. your mom is a great mom, she is nice. she never hurts me even though she knows that i'm taking you from Hera. so please Baek, considered it" kata Chaerin

akhirnya Baekhyun yang menangis,

"you can cry now Baek, but i Don't want you to cry infront of them" kata Chaerin sambil kesat air mata baekhyun

let everything out Baek,

you can be sad or weak when you're with me.

but you need to be strong,

please just smile when you walk into the hall baek,

please

"but i love you so much Chae. it's hard" 

"Hera sacrificed her love for you and why not you did the same for her? she is my bestfriend Baek. Don't let her down" kata Chaerin

Baekhyun akhirnya dapatan tenangkan diri,

lepastu dia anggukkan kepala dia,

"i'll make her happy. for you" kata Baekhyun

Chaerin hanya senyum bangga,

even though it's killing me, but all i have to do is smile

if you think letting you go is easy, its not baek

you dont know how much tears fall for you.

"try to love her. i know both of you suit each other" kata Chaerin

.............

"but Jong in, Baekhyun tarik Chaerin tadi. and sampai sekarang i tak nampak bayang dia." kata Hera sambil memandang sekeliling,

dia tak kisah kat tetamu yang dah berbisik-bisik 

hall ni dah lama dipenuhi oleh tetamu yang datang dari pagi tadi

and sepatutnya wedding ni berlangsung satu jam yang lepas

"i know. but boleh tak you jangan panic?" tanya Jong in sambil cuba tenangkan Hera

"macam mana i tak panic? what if-"

"stop berfikiran negatif. Baekhyun will come shortly. tunggu je"

Jong in pegang tangan Hera sambil
bagi dia kata kata semangat

but deep inside, Hera rasa nak nangis, but dia cuba tahan.

dia masih berharap yang Baekhyun akan muncul melalui pintu utama hall tu

tak lama lepastu, suasana kembali kecoh bila Baekhyun muncul kat depan pintu tu sambil tersenyum

He is smilling

lepastu dia berjalan ke arah Hera 

"can i take her hands now?" tanya baekhyun

Hera masih lagi dalam keadaan terkejut,

betul ke ni.. Baekhyun?

Jong in angguk dan tersenyum,

"i let you take her hands from long time ago Baek. its time to show me that you worth for her" kata Jong in

"i'm sorry-"

"how many times did you take her from me is the proves that she is your destiny Baek. no matter what, Hera will be yours. you don't have to be worry. i am okay" 

Baekhyun hanya angguk

"you Don't have to be worry too. i will take care of her. Don't forget that i am better than you right?" 

Baekhyun akhirnya memegang tangan Hera sambil tersenyum,

"baek-"

terserlah muka blur Hera masa dia pandang Baekhyun

dan Baekhyun tersenyum sambil cuit hidung Hera

"Don't say anything hera. anyway, give me a chance to make you happy" kata Baekhyun

Hera tersenyum,

"of course"

Jong in hanya memerhatikan Baekhyun dan Chaerin berjalan bersama sepanjang aisle yang dihiasi bunga-bunga putih

when Baekhyun hold hera's hands back then, its hurt

but its not anymore,

because sometimes you can be happy even just by looking at other people's happiness

but where is chaerin?

Chaerin mengintai sekejap ke dalam hall tu,

bila dia rasa keadaan semua teratur barulah dia masuk,

dan bila dia masuk, semua orang dah menjerit sambil tepuk tangan sebab Baekhyun dan Hera dah sah jadi suami isteri

senyuman Baekhyun dan Hera manis, and Chaerin tahu senyuman tu tak palsu

that's mean they're starting to accept everything right?

and everything will be okay.

tanpa Chaerin sedar, bibir dia pun menguntumkan seny