Chapter 10
I am not 'Okay'"Don't say sorry"
"i'm going to find a house on my own. i dont have to burden you and stay in your house with you anymore"
Chaerin berhenti mengunyah makanannya,
it's supposed to be a happy day for her sebab hari ni adalah hari pertama yang dia akan kerja kat office baekhyun
tapi bila breakfast dia yang indah terganggu dengan kata-kata Jong in yang tiba-tiba tu, dia jadi sedih
Chaerin tak tahu kenapa dia sedih, dia rasa yang life dia akan kosong kalau Jong in keluar dari rumah ni
"hello? kau dengar tak ni?" tanya Jong in yang tengah sapu butter kat roti dia
Chaerin anggukkan kepala dia beberapa kali,
"ye, aku dengar. and- goodluck" kata Chaerin sambil fake-kan senyuman dia
its does hurt,
i wanted him to be free, to find his own happiness
just like a mother letting her son to learn about the wolrd
but i want to be always by his side
but i know i can't, i'm not his
and he is not mine.
jong in hanya senyum,
"but actually Jong in, aku tak kisah pun kalau kau still nak stay kat sini. sebab aku dah biasa bila kau ada kat sisi aku" kata Chaerin sebelum sambung balik apa yang dia nak buat tadi
dan dia malu,
why did you say that Chaerin?
"wow, ingat tak bila first time aku datang sini? punyalah kau beria tolak aku. and now you need me?" tanya Jong in sambil senyum sinis.
"heii, its not like that-ahh nevermind"
Chaerin berhenti makan dan letak pinggan dia kat sinki
serious dia dah takde mood nak makan
"aku gurau jelah, at least lepasni Byun Baekhyun tu takdelah jealous sebab girlfriend dia duduk dengan lelaki lain kan?" kata Jong in
"yeah, maybe"
Chaerin tak dapat focus dengan apa yang dia buat,
tapi dia boleh bayangkan yang rumah ni akan kembali suram macam dulu.
macam sebelum Jong in merayu kat dia untuk stay
"but Jong in- i- i just want to tell you that- if you need me, i'll always here for you" kata Chaerin dengan nada perlahan.
secara jujurnya, Chaerin sedih
Jong in anggukkan kepala dia sambil tersenyum.
"okay my dear ex. oh ya, goodluck kerja kat office hari ni. i'm happy for you" kata Jong in
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"Jong in! kau nak tahu tak Baekhyun-"
langkah Chaerin terhenti,
dia tutup pintu rumah tu perlahan sebelum dia duduk kat sofa
how can I forget that Jong in isn't here anymore?
Chaerin gelak sorang-sorang
its been few weeks since Jong in pindah keluar dari rumah Chaerin
but Chaerin seems like she still can't move on.
she always talked to Jong in, before realising that she was just talking to herself
Chaerin cuma nak beritahu yang dia okay, dia okay since baekhyun ada kat sisi dia
dia cuma nak beritahu Jong in yang Jong in tak perlu risau tentang diri dia
but why would i have to tell him about my condition?
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"Babe" kata Baekhyun masa Chaerin berjalan masuk ke dalam bilik officenya.
lepas Chaerin tutup je pintu, Baekhyun terus bangun dari tempat duduknya dan peluk Chaerin dengan erat
nasib baiklah office Baekhyun ni macam private sikit so no one can see anything they do inside sebab Chaerin malu kalau orang nampak diorang hugging or kissing
"i know you miss me so much Byun Baekhyun" kata Chaerin sambil belai rambut Baekhyun yang agak serabai,
Chaerin masih dalam dakapan kemas Baekhyun,
mata Baekhyun tak lekang dari memandang Chaerin
yes, this whole week was a busy week for Baekhyun.
secara tiba2 company diorang banyak dapat tawaran project kerjasama dengan company lain
it does make Chaerin proud of Baekhyun,
both of them now are smilling while looking into each other eyes.
walaupun hari hari boleh jumpa, tapi Baekhyun selalu rindu kat Chaerin
lagipun diorang boleh jumpa setiap kali lunch je,
and lagi satu, diorang rahsiakan hubungan diorang
Chaerin tak tahu kenapa diorang kena rahsiakan hubungan diorang but if this do give benefit to both of them,
Chaerin tak kisah.
"what should we eat today BaekaChuu?" tanya Chaerin dengan nada ceria+gedik
imagining having sweet lunch with her boyfriend is making her to smile
"i don't think that i really have time to eat chaerin" kata Baekhyun sambil belai pipi Chaerin beberapa kali.
Chaerin senyum tawar,
dah tiga minggu Chaerin kerja kat sini and just minggu first je dia dapat lunch sama sama dengan Baekhyun
dan Baekhyun tahu Chaerin terluka, Baekhyun pernah janji yang dia akan temankan Chaerin lunch setiap hari
tapi apa yang dia boleh buat?
Baekhyun tak boleh sesuka hati bagi kerja dia kat orang lain,
He needs to be responsible.
"i am sooo sorry Chaerin. i dont know-"
"alright Baekhyun. janganlah risau" kata Chaerin
Chaerin tak nak Baekhyun rasa serba salah sepanjang hari just sebab tak dapat temankan dia lunch
macam hari tu, pagi tu Baekhyun janji nak hantar Chaerin lepas diaorang siapkan kerja
but malam tu baekhyun tiba-tiba pula ada dinner dengan family dia tinggallah Chaerin sorang-sorang kat office tu tunggu dia
the next day, Baekhyun tak berhenti cakap maaf kat Chaerin
Chaerin adalah terluka sikit, but its okay. dia tak terasa pun asalkan baekhyun is not leaving her side
"i am the one who should say sorry for asking you to have lunch with me." kata Chaerin
Baekhyun buka mulut dia untuk cakap but then lidah dia kelu bila Chaerin peluk dia dengan erat.
"take care of yourself first Baek. your body need rest too" kata Chaerin
"alright darling. again, i'm so-"
Chaerin letak jari telunjuk dia kat bibir Baekhyun
"if you say sorry again, i am not gonna talking to you anymore" kata Chaerin
Baekhyun hanya gelak sebelum dia cuit hidung Chaerin dengan lembut,
"okaylah cik Chaerin. kau pergi lunch okay. i'll eat after i finish my works" kata Baekhyun
Chaerin hanya angguk sebelum dia minta diri
but Baekhyun doesn't want to let her hands go
"baek, you need to finish your works" kata Chaerin
Baekhyun tak jawab dan dia hanya pandang Chaerin sambil tersenyum
tangan dia masih mengenggam erat tangan kecil milik Chaerin
"Baek-"
"shh,"
Baekhyun suruh Chaerin senyap, and sure she does.
"give me 5 minutes, 5 minutes just watching you before you go" kata Baekhyun
Chaerin hanya senyum dan angguk,
she doesn't know that baekhyun will be this sweet.
tapi jauh dalam hati baekhyun,
dia takut.
dia takut kalau satu hari nanti dia tak boleh terima yang dia perlu lepaskan tangan Chaerin untuk orang lain
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bila Chaerin keluar dari office Baekhyun, beberapa orang pekerja kat office tu memandang Chaerin sambil bercakap sesama mereka
Chaerin dah biasa,
since the first week she joined the company, everyone look at her weirdly.
maybe because Chaerin selalu keluar masuk dalam office the young CEO of this company,
and actually kerja Chaerin takdelah sampai dia perlu selalu jumpa Baekhyun
thats why semua orang selalu pandang serong kat Chaerin
Chaerin cuba untuk berkawan dengan orang orang kat sini but end up dia perlu menghadap kerja kerja yang banyak so dia takde masa nak berbual dengan orang lain
Chaerin tak pernah anggap yang orang lain ambil kesempatan kat atas dia as she thought that the jobs or works given to her is her responsibility
Baekhyun never knew that Chaerin will be this busy sebab dia sendiri busy dengan kerja dia sampai dia langsung tak keluar dari office dia
Chaerin berjalan menuju ke cubicle dia sambil memandang ke lantai, tried to avoid every eyes that watching her
dan tiba-tiba, dia terlanggar seseorang
"Chaerin!" kata Hera sebelum badan Chaerin dipeluk dengan erat
Hera memang hyper, kalau jumpa orang mesti dia nak peluk. disebabkan oleh itu, sekali lagi Chaerin jadi perhatian orang-orang kat office tu
"are you busy?" tanya Hera
"nope, i'm going out to have some lunch" kata Chaerin
"nice. i'm going to a new cafe near this building. wanna join me?" tanya Hera
of course, Chaerin angguk sambil tersenyum.
at least Hera buat chaerin rasa happy sebab dia ada kawan perempuan yang rapat dengan dia
tangan Hera kini mengenggam kemas tangan Chaerin dan mereka berdua menuju ke tempat parking kereta
Hera pandang sekeliling
i hope you never meet Mrs Byun, Chaerin. or else, you'll dead.
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"Baekhyun, i know you are busy. but atleast look at me when i'm talking to you" kata puan Byun dengan nada marah.
Baekhyun tarik nafas dalam2
he is stress. stress dengan kerja yang berlambak. and stress dengan kehadiran omma dia yang tiba2 datang dan serang dia dengan soalan2 yang dia malas nak jawab
"i'll go to your house omma. i am busy now. can we just talk later?" tanya Baekhyun, mata dia masih sibuk memandang ke skrin laptopnya
"Byun Baekhyun. i told you to discuss about your wedding with hera last week. but until today, i dont see any progression" kata puan Byun
Baekhyun pejamkan mata dia, cuba kumpul segala kesabaran yang masih bersisa
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