“So... why did the great Kim Sojung invited me instead of her friend from the states?” I said trying not to sound overconfident that she had wanted to spend more time with me rather than with her annoying, clingy friend from the states. But the fact that she didn’t brought Nayeon, is a pretty much factor that this is indeed a date for the both of us

I laid my elbow on the wooden table and my palm support my chin as I lean closer to her with a smirk. And god, her smile never fails to make my heart beat faster than it usually should.

She stirred at her iced americano and stared at it, but her smile not leaving her face.

She mumbled “Just because” before taking a sip on it. Meeting her cold brunette eyes that slowly turned into the warmest and sweetest expression as she lift her head up made me lose my focus at everything, I was lost and was trapped in that orbs of her

The orbs that never fails to lure me in without making any effort. Never did it fail to catch my attention and make me a prisoner of it

Slowly feeling her warm hands sliding on top of mine, sent shivers and tingling sensation throughout my body. There’s something... special in her that nobody has...

“It’s only me and you so please stop mentioning Nayeon” Her hand, interlocking with mine and her smile—her bitter smile as if she was hurt that I kept mentioning Nayeon whenever I could

It’s not my fault that I do it. I just couldn’t help but to get curious on why she chose to hang out with me instead of her. Having no idea if I was just an option in this date or if she really have meant to bring me rather than her... Anxiety and jealousy slowly creeps upon me, fearing that I am just nothing but an option and nothing but someone who entertains her when the person she really have wanted to be with rejects her

“Can’t blame me”—I flashed a faint smile and slowly retracted my hand on the table and placed it on my lap—“She’s a pretty close friend of yours after all. You guys know each other too well”

Trying not to sound hurt nor affected d by my statement, I swallowed my saliva that was building up due to the suffocating and dense the atmosphere lingering around us

She let out a deep sigh and her eyes traveled around the room before stopping to look at mine—“You’re at it again”—She sighed once more, but this time it was heavier than the last one

“You’re such a bipolar, Hwang” Hearing her said that made my forehead creased, though I knew that she was kidding.

“What?”

“What should I do to show you that I’m yours?” Now a weak smile was shown, the hurt she was feeling was evident

Obviously, she was trying to hide that fact that she got hurt. She got hurt that I don’t trust her enough to be sure that she wouldn’t cheat on me

“Look. You can’t blame me for feeling like that. It’s just...”—I paused for a brief moment trying to think the right words to come out of my mouth—“I’m... I’m sensitive and have trust issues because of the stories about couples breaking up due to third parties and such”

There was silence after that. It wasn’t an awkward silence, but a silence that indicated that someone was trying to think of what move she should do or say

About the third parties... It was real that it was one of the reasons why I couldn’t fall—doesn’t want to fall to be precise.

Her chair screeched as she pull herself out from it and stood to sit beside me. As soon as she took a sit, she grabbed my hand with hers and interlocked them. She tucked my hair at the back of my ears then placed her hand on my cheek to slowly make me look at her

As our eyes met, I saw a desperate and pleading Sojung right in front of me. She looked so fragile at that very moment that it made my heart broke and made me guilty for not having enough trust towards her nor us

“Look. I understand that you do not fully trust me yet but”—she stared at the top of my hands as she slowly rub it—“Just remember that I will do everything. Like literally everything just for you to be able to give me your trust. I may not be able to be the perfect person for you, but I am trying my best to make your life perfect even how imperfect mine is. Because yours matters more than mine”

Every each words that came out of was full of sincerity and I could feel that she meant every singly word that she had said and her expression was pleading to give her my trust—not immediately now, but someday...

I gave her a smile, not a forced one. It was a weak one yet it was saying and trying to communicate with her and saying that “Someday... someday... I will”

And it seemed like she got the message because she smiled at me and placed her free hand on the back of my head and slowly leaned against my forehead to plant a soft kiss on it

“Anyway, shall we proceed on the reason why we came here?” Trying her best to gain back her composure and act like everything is fine, she stood up, still holding my hand and I nodded in response

Frustrated and mad at myself by the fact that I was still afraid. Afraid of giving my trust and afraid of loving someone. The fear of knowing that thousands or maybe even millions of relationships had failed and had ended tragically, too afraid that I will be among the people who was hurt so much because of the thing called ‘love’

Too afraid that I will be one of the people who lock theirselves up in their room and isolating theirselves from others, crying their hearts out, losing the will and hope of living a happy life because of the heart which was too broken

Thinking that their hearts cannot be mended anymore

But apart from the fear, I want to overcome it. I want to believe that not everyone’s relationships ends in a bad way. That happy endings also do exists

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Upon arriving at the ticket booth for the screening movies, our hands still interlocked. I stared at it before staring at Sojung was was sniffing was waiting at the line. I tugged our hands making her look at me with a questioning expression

“Are you okay?” She didn’t give out her answer right away just as if she was trying to process why I had said that.

She let out a moderate “Ah” with wide opened, understood what I said was for and nodded 

“I’m fine. It’s just a cold so no need to worry”

“You should drink a medicine before it gets worse” I said as I turn my head towards my bag and dug up to find a pill

“I’ll just go buy a drink” As I was about to leave, she didn’t let go of my hand and snatched the med on my hand and drank it without the help of a solvent. Leaving me confused on why she did that, knowing how awful capsules taste like without the help of water

“Why did you do that?” I said almost irritated by the fact that she must’ve bad due to how awful it tastes inside . But instead of answering something stupid, she gave me a smile and pulled me closer to her side

“Because I don’t want to be away from you even just for a second” Which made me give her a disbelieved and unsatisfied look

“Seriously? But that tastes awful”

“You, leaving my side is incomparable from that”

Okay, now that was indeed cheesy. Though it made my heart skip a beat and made an automatic smile creep onto my lips due to how I felt the sweetness in her words. I laughed and shook my head

“You know, sometimes I question myself if you say those cheesy words to everyone whom you’ve flirted with for the past years”

“Well, you should know that you’re the very first person ever since my break up whom I said those words to. Though I did have times that I’ve flirted with people but not to the point that I’ll say the words which I had said towards you” She raised both of her brows uniformly with a weird smile planted on her face making me laugh even harder

“I’m not sure if I would believe that” I said sarcastically making her chuckle and nod in response

She wasn’t able to reply because we already reached at the counter where we would be choosing which movie we should watch

We both stared at the currently screening movies “Which one do you like?” She said still looking at the movies. What’s funny was her tone was so serious like she was making a tough decision that her life is at stake

“Hmm... Avengers?”—I hissed as I tilt my head, not sure if my pick was good enough nor if it was also what she had wanted—“What do you say”

“Okay” Was all she said before facing the cashier and saying which movie we would be watching

But there was something that that bothered me about the cashier... her gaze towards Sojung was seductive like she was flirting with her and plus she bit her lower lip when Sojung gave the payment and when Sojung’s hand brushed on hers

I knew that I was giving her a deadly glare and an expression saying I-will-kill-you-if-you-keep-at-it which seemed like she wasn’t even noticing even a bit. It made my blood boil that I even cleared my throat to tell her that the person whom she was trying to flirt with was taken but of course, what did I expect? She didn’t hear it

While Sojung? She had no idea that she was getting flirted at. But even so... I guess it’s better from her flirting back and entertaining the flirt

But still. Still doesn’t change the fact that I’m having the time of my life by getting irritated and bothered

Realizing that she wouldn’t stop trying to make Sojung notice her, that’s when I knew that I had to make a move and do something that will make her realize that Kim Sojung is not a person whom she should flirt with

“Sojung-ah... Why is it taking so long?” I said acting all cutesy with my nasal voice and even pouting making Sojung flustered while the cashier girl was glaring at me

“S-she’s already at the finishing u-up” Her face was reddening up and was stuttering so much as she answer me. She didn’t even dare look at me after she had seen my cute act

“But I’m getting bored babe” I emphasized the last word as I look at the flirt with a look saying now-you-know-that-she’s-taken. The cashier immediately lowered her head as she got the signal of my message and never made an eye contact towards Sojung and even when she was giving the tickets and the change, she made sure that there was a gap within their hands that made sure that it wouldn’t touch 

Before leaving the counter, I could see the guilt and nervousness expression on her face even when it was the next customer’s turn, she still wasn’t able to look at them in the eye. Probably she got more cautious because of me

“What are you looking at? You left something?” Sojung asked as she follow the direction of my eyes but I immediately turned my head with a smile as I shook my head

“Nothing, the cashier just got on my nerves”

“Hm? Why?” So she really was clueless about what had happened and why I suddenly acted cute in public. Surprised that she didn’t doubt and questioned why I suddenly did that. Because it’s definitely a fact that I hate doing that specially in public and in front of many people 

“Nothing. It’s not important” I said innocently and before she could insist on asking me more, I dragged her at the entrance of the cinema

We chose to sit at a high enough place where the screen wouldn’t be too large that it would make our eyes hurt. Sojung was holding the plastic bag full of snacks and drinks while I on the other hand, had carried nothing apart from my left hand being occupied by Sojung’s

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Author’s Note; Been a long time ever since I updated this fic (been ages actually) xD // I hope you like the new update :3